i feel so malu yet i remain strong

peek-a-boo. i need a break on my projects. oh please lah, i'm laggard enough said. & here i am hook on to the computer screen, & with some fatheaded sentimental love songs for the background music, yet its loose-fitting lehh. ohtays, this is driving me bonkers! knuckleheads pffft.

earlier, i encountered a discombobulate event. i went to the JW petshop to purchase my guinea pig's bedding & hobo2 spray. the packet of bedding was a jumbo (to me lah), & i had to carry it as well as my bulky book at the same WRONG time. ahaks. & as i was heading towards the bus stop my purse actually dropped on the side of the road. so suckish right? so while i was trying to retrieve it, my damn it book slipped from my arms. OMG. fortunately, at that moment, it was showing red-man. i'm all-thumbs lahh! & there was this indian hong kah secondary guy who gave me a hand. THANK YOU! i very the paiseh ohtays. it happened so in a wrong way & time. i'm still a happy papy culo, although its a fuck-up day. ((= still have the strength to entertain myself.

i feel that my parents are funny & weird. only god-knows how sullen & busted up i'm feeling & things that i'm going through right now. i wanna to spill the tears so badly. ohh, just go away. story of my life... searching for the rights... i want my boo boo, but boo boo wouldnt care. =(

PS: ohtays, still a happy ompa ompa.

two-tle & huggies dry.

dydy pass his tp

dydy passed his TP. alright, good for him, & i'm happy for you. my feelings are right, afterall. ohtays, full stop as for now. i dont feel like talking, neither do i feel like blogging. but why did i blog? ass-wipe fugger. =/

i'm nothing.

i want to see the moon all night.

peek-a-boo. all of a sudden, i feel like staying awake, see the moon all night. ahaks. & dydy, i cant sleep if you didnt give me a kiss & those 3 beautiful words, like, YOU BIG SUCKER, yeahh something like that. heeh. anyhoos, best wishes for ya TP tomorrow ohhtays. dont worry, everything will turn out fine if you jollywell get rid of your nervous-NESS & treat it like your usual practical. baby here for you, daddy. ((= do your best, love. *prays*

i miss watevas. will see ya'll on THURS. YIPES.
happy papi culo. loves.

two-tle & huggies dry poo poos. =P

sadddap cake!

today, my sister & i make whoopee for our elder sister's bird-day. dy & i proceeded to jurong point to have our lunch as well as to order the cake at swensens. after that, my second sister tagged along after her work. and we decided that cookies & cream ice cream cake, would be the cake of the day. THANK YOU dydy for accompanying my sister & i earlier. you know what, its heaven to see you first when i open my eyes, i rise & shine just now. i was over the sunshine, becos sin tangent, though i was still a smelly poo poo ( havent bathe), u still kiss. ahaks. so malu you know. i love you so much, ass-pincher!

everything was tip-top. smooth-rides, all of us had fun. gooo-dy ompa ompa! & as for the cake, its hunky-dory & savoury, sadddapp bagus giler nyer. hope you lovin' it my dearest selenger kak nana. =))) CHEERIOS.

ehh kaihulki & curlie, i feel like starting YO MAMA jokes sia. ahaks. so here it go, Yo mama's so big, she uses bowling balls for earrings. Yo mama's so big, when I fingered her I lost a watch and two rings! hahahaaha. SHIOK sia. ass-wipe fugger. ahaks. *shakesbutt*

ohhtay dohhtay, will blog again soon aye. stay happy papi culo~ huggies dry.

"... everytime we kiss, i swear i can fly."

two-tle

alot of things

ohh dear. i squeeze a lil tad bit of time to blog. nyehh nyehh. prolly tomorrow is going to be a pretty long long long day & i've tight-schedu too. dy will be coming over to my house to fetch me & after that headed to JP to buy my elder sister's birthday cake. (hush. tts my present for her. weehee). can i fit my un-done projects in the schedu list? oh tay, i'll try.

OH TAY! I VERY THE LAZY! COS I'M DAMN SHAG LALA PO TINKY WINKY DIPSY.
eurgh. i miss playing cards/taiti with my watevs, all of a sudden. ahaks. & oh oh, i feel like drinkinf watermelon juice NOW, at 11.40 pm. heh.

ohh tay smelly poo poos, i desperately want to snuggle on my bed & fat hug to my bolster. i'll blog when you free i free we free you me i them, oh tay.

two-tle.
ompa-ompa poo poo
huggies dry.

well & dandy

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i havent been blogging that often recently, i know. boy, i just need to digest out everything at one go. everything is well & dandy thus far, despite the goosebums i had due to the oodles of projects & upcoming exam. ohh ompa-ompa pumpkins. =] a roller-coaster mad rush i tell you. nevertheless, i pull it through. my friends & my bf are really my sugar rush. they are like my ben&jerry's ice cream, choco boco teelights, & hot-fudge cakes. thanks for satisfying my sweet tooth, darlingss. thank you thank you thank you.

i was pretty much on cloud number 9 because all the year 1 & 2 IT students had bowling at bukit panjang plaza. all of us were having uber fun fun lehh. i wheezed like mad monkey most of the time. enjoying it to the peak! KUDOS. ok all well done, pumped it yo. & thanks to the bowl of ling ling, that my thumbnail on my right, very the cacat. nyeh nyeh.

AND THE BEST PART OF THE DAY : dy & i had wrestling WA-CHAAA today. ahaks. the whacked, the punch, the knock of each other's head, the kick, the pinch, FEAT with full of love was bogus. =)))) i'm bruised almighty! LOL. you ass-pincher with a lot of bulu hair legs, dont let me pluck them one by one eh! speaking of plucking bulus, it reminds me of guna. hahahahahaha! he know, i know. oh godness! ok, hush for now. ahaks. & dinesh kumar, you have to pay for the price because you burst one of my pimples on my forehead while you were gracefully knocking your head on mine. and that was ouch!. so, please give me back my pimple! haha. how utterly FANDAGULOUS was that!

ok, i need to hook on to the TV screen & continue supporting Hady Mirza. yeahh! ehh, i actually voted for him ok! ahaks. WHY? cos he deserve to stay rooted to the competition till the finale reach to the climax. =) i just want joakim gomez or nurul maideen to exit the programme, i'll just keep the personal judge statement inside me lah ok. ahaks. during the spectacular, joakim's cousin actually soothen my eyes. ohh charming maming banget dong! UHH-lala. & nurul maideen's elder sister is gorgeous, & her second elder sister reminds me of shahidah. pretty goobers.

i cant stop wriggling my toes. for goodness sake, HELP. haha. alright, i'll update soon okay dokays. ohh dweeb. ompa ompa dompa dompa lompa lompa *shakesbutt* do the damn thing. lurp lurp.

& HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY, to Kak Nana (my elder sister) .
though you sometimes sucks at big times, i still love you no matter what. prayed you good health, harmonious happy family or old maid, LOL, blessed with love & happiness. long live to my selenger-ever sister! yahhhoooo.

feel a fat uptight, yet i prefer to stay smooth.
at this right time, i'm no more, i repeat NO MORE scary mary about the future.
i'm ready to face it, to deal it. trust me.

few hours later......

(===DiNeSh>->->->-> says:
and i didnt kick u
(===DiNeSh>->->->-> says:
i was gettin the kicks!
(===DiNeSh>->->->-> says:
the bulu's hair got legs?

OK. i kick you! happy? haha. this guy very the sexed sensored sia. anyhooos, it was a typo error ok. haha. cheetut sia you. to be clear to you, YOUR LEG GOT SO MANY BULU. I WANT TO COUNT CAN????? . =PP

my two biggies in the class. OMG. i look so dimish ka ching lah. loyal knee guards. ahaks. =)) ohh, the ahh boy in white is kelvin, while the other one in blue is roy. happy papy culo!

two-tle.

a little unwell.

i'm a little unwell. i'm fighting with my saw-throat. & i feel like puking. ohh dear. =((

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARIR!
& HAPPILY MARRIED TO SITI NURHALIZA & DATUK K.
(((((((((((((=

i dont know what this post means.
by reading this, you are wasting your time
& now, i'm crapping.

thanks for the day boyfriend.`

yesterday was fantabolous.
thanks to the boyfriend who made my day
the kiss on the forehead
the gentle hug
the warmth
the drool
the chicken rice (haha)
the watermelon juice
the sleep preview
the wake up call
the spoon feed
the laugh & smile
the jokes we shared & do
the chocolate ice blended
the chocolate delight cake!
the best weekend ever, being with you
all thanks to the one & only dinesh. =))

now i'm missing him. ahaks. i want more of yesterday okays.
soon-to-be. =P
i lurb lurb my horny custard. muuuah!

the lips licking choco delight

hopefully ben&jerry's with boyfriend coming up. =))

NUDGE!

napfa done!

the affliction due to muscles cramp on my belly & leg is creepy. thanks to the napfa test i had today. =/ my stamina had pitched, expectedly. i wouldnt be curveball if i screwed my 5 stations. ahaks. unwittingly, i perpetuate my 2.4 timing. *thumbs up*. a special gratitude to my i-dont-know-schoolmates, who abet me all the way. all of them will be like shouting, "go kecik, go kecik. maintain it. fuhhh." ahaks. a tinge of teehee although i was catching some breath. THANK YOU! although i dont know their names, neither do i have talk to each & every one of them, they are certainly magnanimous. (((=

i'll be going out with dydy tomorrow. we will have fun okays dokays. & to my dear ayne darling, come back soon. i'll be missing you. selamat pergi & selamat pulang. MUAAHH!!



Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.
Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!

NUDGE!

pffft.

OMG. pffft. i feel like turning off the tv set before it wrapped up, when gurmit actually declared that matilda was dismissed from the competition. WTF! she has all the element and factor to be a true blue idol & singer, definitely. i'm ruffled to the maximus, as it s a great loss for us & so sad that the viewers actually voted for joakim, who barely had a thumbs down voice. he can entertain but he cant sing. & his cuteness features is his biggest asset, cos that made him stay in the competition till today. a bonus, i guess. whatever it is, i badly want jonathan & hady mirza to make it to the finals. i really want. =))

.... I WISH i am sorrounded by ben&jerry's ice cream with all kind of flavours & all kind of chocolates as well as candies for the very right NOW!. darnn. I NEED EM SO! ahaks. finger-licking, lips-licking, YUMS.

NUDGE!

i'm falling in love with love.

when things happen another way round,
everything will be simply downside up instead of upside down
the south will exchange with the north
neither the sun will rise up on the east.
everybody's changing & i dont feel the same.

i cant stop loving you.
why?
simply i cant.
i tried to change to the better
but you didnt care to help me either

when u soothe me
i lost in my thoughts
no matter how bad things are
you always make them better
i love the way you can make me laugh
for absolutely no reason at all
i love how no matter what i do
you will be there to catch me when i fall
i just want you to know
that even though we sometimes fight
i will always love you!
no matter what, day or night
i love your deep kisses,
i get this feeling
i can fly
i just love you so much.
you dont need to know or maybe you just dont know.

goshh, this is crazy!
please do something to make it worth it
do something to show you love me
do something to make it work,
to make it happen.
cos' i just cant accept the fact that
whenever i see you, i start to fall in love with love again.

if the world begins in your arms, let me end in it too.

i feel so fugly.

i feel so fugly. fugly, fugly, fugly, fugly! yes, i am. fida fugly, fugly fida, fugly fida fugly, fugly fugly fida, in any position i'm going to put the word fugly, i'm still fugly. F.U.G.L.Y, fugly, YES. today has been a total waste of make-up, because i've come to realise that i'm a stuupid arse. bluntly, i'm someone who USED to contemplate a lot, but now, after looking into relationships, or personal theory, i jollywell sure, i have to expect the less. how less can i expect?? even the simplest thing someone can do? i need a reality check.

a guy will never ever be lazy for the girl he loves. am i right? i'm really trying not to allow myself for heartbreaks. thats why i choose to stay smooth & detach. i'm completely stoned & antsy regarding the fact that fetch, seems to be the hardest word to do, physically & mentally. lets make it this way. WHAT?! FETCH?! no way, i'm apathetic! OH, & what? you are telling me you are awake all night, studying like crazy?? or are you going to tell me, ohh dear, i got a weighty butt!

you just didnt do what i did. i'm petty, i'm juvenile, i'm just another stupid arse next door, what else can you think of? i'm clouded by the low selfish ways? i cant deny. hey, just wake me up when september ends. 1 simple task, put yourself in my position, & you'll feel the uptight sensation. its like something just go through your heart. i want to stop this thing play back in my bloody head. i want to cry so bad, & i hope it work this way. i can see how little your love for me. i'm gravely sorry. i dont feel like talking to anyone. even my parents & sisters are stifling me.

on a heavier note, i'm frigging jaded. leave me alone, as for now.....

it may look simple, but it never get any simpler. you'll never know.
you dont have to try, because your try doesnt seem to work
its not effective, either. i need the positive side effects so badly
i just wont get it, simply cos you cant do it.
reluctant

with love,
horrigible fidah.
i'm suffering from selenger-ism.

fannntabolous

i'm freaking bored, i had something to do for my final project but i just pretend i had nothing to do. ahaks. yesterday late afternoon, turned out to be exclusively fantabolous. once again, an instantaneous hang-out with WATEVAs. we were giggling like machine guns during the retrospection of those juvenile & youngy yet grizzled days; uhh back to old school days. haha. i swear, i wouldnt want to end it, but i'm DAMN SHAG! ahaks. theres always a next time aye. =) i wouldnt want to trade in my WATEVAs for anything else. a tinge of glitchness here & there, but still i'm here to stay to you darlings like UHU glue.

uhh something a total PLUS PLUS possible about us, FUN LOVE US! weeheee. =))))
even strangers & a friend for a day or two, fell in love with the WATEVAs. ahaks. coolios, & KUDOS.
make it simpler, even the makciks, pakciks, neneks & datuks (CINDIANYU can!!) groove on to us. ahahh.

PS: 5 weeks of hols, a month of fasting, all in one, OHH coming up.

sayang crappu dudu! =P

NUDGE!

oh-so-divine.

eh-yo. my days were filled with pleasure & glow of happiness. the trip to catch a movie & viewed the fireworks with watevas were simply great, happening & glittering! we were on cloud 9, certainly. =)) leia, jijah, khai, nas & i caught a swanky & hilarious movie, CLICK. we laughed our asses throughout. gahahaha. SUPPBURP! i will let the pictures do the takings alright. i'm damn shag. haha. i want MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE of yesterday ok watevas. we loves fun, fun loves us. =)))

a lunch at LJS.

in the MRT.

beautiful fayaworks.

they sizzled my day. =)) loves.

we were crazy. ahaks. thanks khai for the glowing bangles.

L.O.V.E

i miss my dydy dudu.
thank god, he got his wallet back. THANKS to the angel. =)))))

NUDGE!

a huggee HURRAH!

i had an almighty ball of time with my cousins & dy; & total up, its 12. haha. yeay, the more the merrier. the white ladies were great, i tell you. & there were a batch of people who as well witnessed the fireworks, at the Beach Road bridge. whats more to say? its awe-inspiring, enough said! all of us grooves to the final explosion of fireworks light up the sky, as it bows out in style. the crowd roared to its peak, as a cue to hail the extravanganza, beautiful & stupeying dazzling colorful lights. it does kicked off superr well! HURRAH! & after the razzle-dazzle event, all of us headed to esplanade to feel the hotty-fudgy there. & gosh, supa dupa huge crowd. a handful of familiar faces. yet, all of us hadd fuunn! =)) dang. the mini concert by those mini bands & artists rope in the crowd. uhh yeay!

all embracing, A JOB WELL DONE to the people who sparked the whole event. KUDOS!

stunning fireworks sequence that sets the skies & hearts a blaze.

fireworks lit up the night sky to the delight of the crowd.

singapore, my homeland. a vivid view from esplanade. *jaw-drop*

a prismatic ambiance. i'm falling in love again.

the merlion, the center of attraction.

a huge gratitude to this bf, who make it happening & put in so much effort to tag along. thank you, my love. muahhhh!

she's my beloved cousin, ruzainah. mind you, she's only 12 years old! haha.

my bestest cousin in the whole wide world! we are going to have a movie marathon, sleep-overs, shopping & dates together alright, gorgeous! its so nice to see you. muahh! i love you truckloads!

oh dear, we didnt take a group photo. darnn! guess all of us were just having so muchh fun aye. hope to see you darling again. thanks for making the day.

PS: i cooked lemak ayam cili padi dish (if ya'll know), & my babuji said, its scrumptious. fit me into you chef bill okays. hahaha!

NUDGE!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!

before the clock strike 12 & a change of date to 10th, let me wish Singapore, a HAPPY 41TH BIRTHDAY!! a clean bill, growth in economic, stay strong, & peace no war.

will update again tomorrow. the day was suuperrbburp!! just reach home & i'm shag-gigi.

noodles.

i want you to be mine forever.

wopppie doppie. my day was super mario, & school was gooo-ood. earlier, i string along to ngee ann with dydy as he perilously need to polish up his subjects. this rascally dydy need a tight smack on his butt, seriously. haha. its a bounden for me to be by his side when he's revising. its a MUST! cannot study alone one, eh. =P ohh ya, kumarji was with us too. such a nice company dah this macha cha cha.

definitely, i cant wait for tomorrow. not only its Singapore's Birthday but a mini cousin's gathering. a YEAY because dydy is tagging along too. =))))) my bf first meet-up with your arithzuan lahh wani! haha. we are going to pipe a mind-blowing panorama; fayaworkings. cant wait, cant wait! i'm already tickled pink, & yeahh cousins, be in red if possible. semangat kebabian, aku tahu. LOL. i'm nutty over it because its our first time ok. per usual, camwhores session aye.

alright, i'm damn shag. i need to wait for the boyfriend, watch OC till 1 & crash on my bed. weehhee.

ps: glad to see shafarina in ngee ann. it has been aeons since we see eachh other. ohh sugar how you get so fly? i miss you. hope to see you again. =]]]

dydy actually drew me. just a play-play sketch. but, it turn out pretty good for a 1st try. awwww. so talented ehh you. impressive!

L.A.C.K.A.D.A.I.S.I.C.A.L , yes i am. =))

NUDGE!

hands off

knuckleheads. filthy basket!
you know what you did
& you know what i mean.

crappy dappy.

before i start my crappy dappy post. LOL. dinesh, you are dead!

fidddah didddah ; a girl's bestfriend. ogle, oh girl says:
give me 10 reasons why u love me.
(-( DnEsH )-) says:1.U're so child like
(-( DnEsH )-) says:2.Like that way u sleep when u lie down on me
(-( DnEsH )-) says:3.The way u comfort me,stick to my needs
(-( DnEsH )-) says:4.Ur kiss,ur cheerfulness,ur smile
(-( DnEsH )-) says:makes my day
(-( DnEsH )-) says:5.Cos i can get along with u well
(-( DnEsH )-) says:6.Cos u lo so cute even when u scold me,it's like i cant get angry with u when u are angry with me,most of the time
(-( DnEsH )-) says:7.Always stand up for me
(-( DnEsH )-) says:cos u are mine
(-( DnEsH )-) says:cos u are beautiful
(-( DnEsH )-) says:cos u u are just os lovely
(-( DnEsH )-) says:i love you cos i feel i'm part of u

AWW. i know you are sweet, but dang, i'm always sweeter! hahas.

& this dineshlina coli sent this perasan photo of him & then....

(-( DnEsH )-) says:dun u feel like kissing my lips?
(-( DnEsH )-) says:haha

thats my dineshlina coli horni morni veri gatal the LEE. hahas. i know you hide the raincoat inside your coli right?? naughtyy dydyly.
[ Love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart. ] i sayang mayang you lahh.

PS: i cant wait to view the fireworks with cousins & bf. YEAYY! hotty-fudgy.

(-( DnEsH )-) says:crappy dappy fida dida
(-( DnEsH )-) says:lol

crappy dappy dydy horny, (omg. kena jack&jill. lol)
you are my sunshine.
besides my watevas kids,
you are the only one who can
make me smile & laugh
when others cant. =)))

NUDGE!

you had fun, i had fun, WE HAD FUN.

wopie do. i dont know that today, although its a short time, dy & i had an extreme fun time till this maximus extend. hahas. i hope by what we actually did together & me, making silly faces & many many weird laugh, act dancing sexily, pretty much lighten your worries. hehe. see i told ya, life is supa dupa grrrreatt IF we really enjoy it to the fullest. a happy-goober! everybody knows that i'm crazy, haha, so do pardon me. on a lighter note, spending the time with our loved ones can snuffed out stuffs that bugs you. isnt that pleasant? uhh, enough said. YES AH!

ohh ya, i trimmed & thinned my thickkED hair. my head feels lighter now, HEAVEN! hahas. & the service was goo-ood. *thumbs up* i've wavy+straight hair ok because the hairdresser thought that i do something to the curls, NO, NO. 100% natural, & i just wish that my hair colour was natural too. black colour is superbb, i tell you. =)) so lovely to stay natural aye.

okay dokay, i need to clear up my mess & again my make-up box before landing on the sofa bed silmutaneously hook to the saturday show.

i'll always be there for you.

look at his dimple. this is what i call 100 degrees smile. uhh, i loikke~
my hair look darnn messy. hahas.

i'm yours, you are mine.

we dont need those unnecessary insecure-NESS

we love each other.

& we dont need those people to stop it.

=))

toodles.

let it melt down, cos you are here.

woppie do. recently, dydy & i faced a handful of raw deals. the breakdown of my memory card, screwed by lecture, & etc etc. AND today, my dear dydy lose his wallet. =(( hais. whats on earth is going on? we are left in forlorness. nevertheless, it doesnt turn me off. with dydy in presence life is still beautiful yet puzzling. anyhoots dydy, life never get sucks with the loved ones around your belt. will prayed hard that the wallet will be return to the owner; an angel pleasey please. =/ something flash in my mind, i cant trust anyone 100%, even your closest friend can double cross you. a true colour of someone will explains it all & that will bring he or she into an attitude of abasement. a degradation at times, moreover from the same gender. no offence, its just a downcast state. they need a makeover for that. *shakeshead*

i love you, i seriously do
dydy.

toodles.

feverishhh

i feel so green. i cant type, the heavy cold stop everything. OMG. shoooo the flu! i hate my wisdom tooth. darnnn. OH, i need hady mirza to sing for me, dydy to kiss me, my friends to hug me, uhh baby COMBOS that will definitely make me BET the TERRR.

oh mum is nudging me to eat the remedy..... TATATATA!!!!!

NUDGE myself!

happy 1yr anniversary

You're my friend, my lover, like my brother,
You're the best to me, none like no other.
You'll cross the sea just to find me,
You'll rescue me in the hottest degree.

You'll fly to see me just for a day or two,
These are the reasons that i love you.
You'll travel at night with no moon to see,
All this, just to be with me.

You'll call me just so we can get through,
You call me just to say, baby i love you.
You call me and tell me
You'll always be near; even if it will draw me some tears.

I love you more than you will ever know,
I know you love me because it does show.
The time we spend i pray to go slow,
The love that we have, will one day grow.

Whenever the phone rings, i pray to be you,
I get up set cuz sometimes, it doesnt come true;
I would take my life for you to show you how i feel,
I want you to know that our love is real!



HAPPY 1YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
with extra love, & candy coated
to my dearest sweetheart, dydy darling
1 year of real & true love
all the storms we have fought
had made our relationship stronger
i love you with all my heart.
i'll treasure you for the rest of my life.
you are the only one who have the key to my heart
let there be love & joy of happiness
I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH, DINESH!!
MUAH!!!!!!

happening.
let it grow, grow & grow.
LOVE, it will never come to an end. =)))))))))))))))))))))))