snowed.

music [ paula deanda- walk away ]

i can't forget how we used to me
our life from day to day
hoping maybe you'll come back
and though i tell myself not to be afraid
to move on but it seems i can't
but no other man has given me attention
it ain't the same as your affection
though i know i should be content
in the back of my mind

the first few days of holidays was spent at work. hehe. work till drop like no one's business. & only god knows how shag i was. dealing with customers, & coffee. laugh our ears off with lovely colleagues. aside from the tiresomeness, i really had fun entertaining, my colleagues & manager's nonsense. hahaha. i swear, i'm going miss every little bit of beautiful things in them. sigh. but oh wells, i'm still counting down. 13 more days before i say goodbye to CBTL. :)

anw, i played pool at jurong east entertainment with my teman tapi mesra, wawan. how gagged up both of us can get when it comes to poool! i guess we spend more time giggling at the most dumbest thing ever than playing pool. thanks wawan for the day. :) i've never sit on a rooftop before. & the other day i sat on the rooftop with ozal & wawan, it felt so good. i shall try it on night one of these days. maybe with candles along? haha. awwww.

&& dydy came to my workplace yesterday. thanks for helping me dydy. i don't know how to repay your kindness. && ohoh, thanks for the two pizzas. free is always sedap. you know, i know. oh btw dy, the video clip was comical & stuuupid lah. shessh. =D

aiman & amir. my two favourite boys.

intan & bia. aku sayang kooooraaang lah! =)=)

its sunday. the day to clean up the mess in the house. to clear every dust at the every corner. to rot on the bed, & pamper myself with dvds. sink my gums & teeth with chocolates & ice creams. :) i'm back to work tomorrrow. 13 hours each for two following days. tsktsk. i better have plenty of rest today.

enjoy your weekends you.

smile.

sugar in the sea

music [elliot yamin- wait for you]

A friend's love is unconditional and unique in every way. :)

thursday.

my lovelies, khai & curlie, surprised me during work. they were sugary enough to drop by at my workplace & pay me a visit. =D i was tickled pink. ohmygod. they waited for me till 5. & we headed to fuji xerox to take my name tag which i left it over there. i introduced my wawan to them. hehehe. we had fun snowed each other with stories cos it has been quite a while since we last talk/meet each other. & afterwhich we meet nas at international plaza at 6.30 & headed home. we snapped some pictures of ourselves, & eventhough the meet-up last for a while, we had fun, laughing our ears off. i love you darlings aloads! ;)

friday&saturday.

work, work & work. =)=)

dealing with fussy customers can make me go crazy. seriously. hurrhurr.

mama, aiman & amir are sick. i really pray hard that my 3 gems will be well again, pretty soon.

=(

i'm going to miss my colleagues when i left them on the 8th of july. sigh. especially my teman tapi mesra. =(=( i shall spend more time with them before i leave.

i got to go for now. will blog again sooon.

happy rainy sunday.

love is all around....

... eventhough it is blind. =)

i'm finally moving on. stuff all the problems & the past into a bag & dump in the sea. far far away from me. leave it behind, took one step ahead to the right path, & start everything afresh. its no use clinging on the past & someone not worth for. let them be the history of my life. yeah, i've to be rational not emotional. i'm doing the best to make life better. i'm happy if the one is. i don't want to ever turn back & regret. if life is a journey, might there not be places along the way where things are moving a little too slowly?. i'm moving in snail-like way. inch by inch. go slow, baby.

by the way, my miki khai will be dropping by at my workplace. =D we planned to wait for nas after my work at 5. i'm fortunate enough because nas work at the same building as me, & therefore, make life easier for me, for kai. hehe. hopefully, after that we can hang out together by playing pool?. perhaps. only 2 days left before the 3 weeks on holiday embrace me with open arms. =)=)=) egg-cited gitu kan.

anw, i got to go for now. i want to see the *coughs* Icandy today. haha

my ooooo-ggggyyy.

haiiiii.....

he stays in my mind.

and i...

officially missing you.

Into every life a little rain must fall. How we deal with that rain is what
determines our future. There is a price to pay for every action. Sometimes, that price is a lifetime of regrets.

just a friend.

Oh baby you
Got what I need
But you say I'm just a friend
But you say I'm just a friend
Cos I can be your fantasy
But you say I'm just a friend
But you say I'm just a friend

That we could never be no more than just friends.
Is that what your title will always remain?
Because whenever I look at you, I don't feel the same.
I took a picture of you and held it real close to my heart.
I prayed that we'd always be together.
And yet, were falling apart.
I told myself that I wouldn't cry whenever you decided to let go.
And if you were to ask me if I cared about you, the answer would never be NO.
I love you FRIEND.
And that title is all you'll ever be.
Instead I promise to never let you leave my heart or become a faded memory.
Because I know that deep down inside, you will always be apart of me.
&& Because you said, i'm just a friend.

i just wish i can turn back time. not to believe in you. not to trust your love, your care. not to give my heart to you. i'm the dumbest girl, indeed. maybe i should just fly kite now. everything, was just an *infatuation. every single sweetest things we do, was just as a 'friend'. dinesh is right. its not easy to find someone who loves you. i comprehend the meaning behind it, now. i know he have no intention to toy my feelings. for whatever reasons he have to let go of everything except friendship, i simply can't accept the fact. i can't even bother to face the reality. the heart need an aid. i'm losing the hope. oh nono. I HAVE lost the hope infact. shattered into small pieces then disappear into thin air. i feel like hating you, & yet i can't. how hurt i am, only god knows. oh wells, time will tell, & i'll let the nature take its course.

i wish you are THE ONE. i wish.
& i know it will never come true.
why?
because i'm just a friend.
& i don't know what's friendship means to you.

i used to be a happy girl. but not now.
i
hate
changes.


i thank you.

* means a foolish love feeling that will never last long.

combo

music [ sean kingston- beautiful girls ]

walau ku masih mencintaimu
ku harus meninggalkan mu
ku harus melupakan mu

i don't know whether i should just give up. the one who's suppose to keep me strong, who's suppose to prove to me how strong his love for me, leave me stranded. one side of the brain, decided to give up on the one, but on the other, decided to be patient cos i believe patience is virtue. i really want to see the blessings behind every dark hours. oh god, show me the right path.

i'm having flu right now. & i've test too.
i left with no choice.

i miss his wuwu. =(

take a looook.

morning ya'll!

things are getting better for me, & i thank god for that. who make me stronger day by day to get through the glitches & problems. :) i feel good, whenever i feel egg-cited to start a brand new day. i apologised for updating promptly. not in a state to swamp you darlings with stories. anws, the weekends are here, once again. i better do some revision for the upcoming tests. after cracking the brain for a week, then i can say a bigfat HELLO to the 3 weeks of schoool hols. =D yayfuuu.

i saw the eye-candy ass today.
OH
MY
GOD
haha. yeah, i'm all smiles.

anw, i got to go. will blog again.
wuwu.

let go

i am traumatise.
i don't want to have nightmares.
its so painful to see the changes.
the person you love the most, now
turn to the person you hate the most.

i'm sorry. i know my sorry is not going to cut it. but you should know that this relationship can't work out. everyone will blame me, cos they think i betray you. i've no intention. i rather you blame it on me, than to hurt yourself. i just want to make mama happy. thats all. i always want the best for you. don't try, you have to do your best.

i hope things will get better.
for you.
for me.
for us.