end.

i don't know why i'm stupid enough to breakdown at work.
the insecure-ness i have for the past one & half years, like all of a sudden haunt me again.
i feel the pain i have for the past one & half years. one & the half years.
there's nothing more to say.

i end it here.
then both of us won't feel the pain.
we will be happy.

yeah, move on.
&& smile.

latter

NOW....
i shall just let him move on
i shall let him be happy
i shall free him with worries, pain & problems.
i shall let him pursue his love for another girl.
i shall just retrieve back the key i bury under the sand, & unlock the heart.

& now when i know he's happy, i'm twice as happy as he is. =)

now that i know the truth, i will have to move one.

raise your hands in the air.

i gladly announced that my CCNA4 project is officially done & checked & marked!!!! FUHHH. somehow, our hardwork paids off. =)=) thanks ayne for being the pillar to my strength. haha.

I NEED AN EYE MASK! hurrrry.

misses

i've gained pounds to my weight. a number of people have been noticing the bulky stomach i have. the fats on the high cheekbones. dangs; i can't resist the sweet delights. i've been pampered, mind you. even mama said i've eat too much & she saw the pig shining through me. anws, things are doing fine & dandy, i guess. but school projects can really make ayne & i grow white hair. ohh please. i can't wait to get it done. tomorrow is the deadline & i'm only halfway done. S H I T! hang on fidah, only few weeks left, & you can say a big HELLO to holiday.

i miss my teman tapi mesra. it's only two days & i'm already missing having fun with him under the void deck. hahas. have fun working, wawan.

HAPPPY 25TH!

i'm losing touch of who i am, what i'm becoming and who i want to be with.
don't ask me what's wrong.

anyhoooos.

its the elder sister's birthday.
HAPPY 25TH, KAK NANA!
surprises to come just so you know. i love you aload, sis.
&& be happy. be fine. be dandy.
lovesweetlove.
MUAH!

h a t e

sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you are best without.

i'm under depression just so you know. i need to be away from blog. i'm sorry.

sometimes....

its nice to be single. (:

you know you are mine.

life sucks for now.
it takes two hands to clap
it takes two lips to kiss
it takes two heart to love.

else

its just one sided love.
so sad.

i
hate
the
fact
i'm
being
force
into
a
relationship.

ttm.

i love my teman tapi mesra, aka, wawan like the ocean-size love. =)

thanks jackass, i thank you for making me feel whole again. for putting my pieces back together. i appreciate you putting my life back together. you are one of the greatest gifts i receive from god. you offer me a warm embrace when my path go dark. your kind & gentle temperament, the loving gestures you've showered me. you always flash your magical & healing smile, & i know everything will be alright. my life joys are doubled with you in my life. THANK YOU, teman tapi mesraku. &&& i love you a lot. =)

....... ' you took me under your wings, when i was too scared to fly. you told me that i have to live, when all i wanted was to die.'

And there are days when life rewards us and seems to make amends by
granting us a marvelous gift.

happy 42nd singapore!

music [ the click five- jenny ]

HAPPPPY 42ND BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!

i went to meet the watevas kids, jannah & solihin at jurong point to catch a movie, Rush Hour 3 with them. the movie was incredibly hilarious. =)=) i can't stop laughing my ears off. LOL. highly recommended i tell you. after that we headed to marina square to view the fireworks. it was jamjam packed. i could hardly breathe. but i had a ball of time, watching the sky covered with gorgeous fireworks. awe-some. thanks watevas, jannah & solihin for the lovely day. =)

i'll let the picture do the talkings.

3rd great grandchildren.

060807
presenting zufar!!! =)




just reach half an hour lepak-ing with og after his soccer. :) && i've done my 6 online modules. goooodygoooody. & i'm seriously worried about papi's health. & there's no way i can force him to go to the clinic. howhowhow?? sigh. get well soon papi. & at least do something about it.

I always needed time on my own I never thought
I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you.

the way you pamper me with love, boy.

night, all!

laughing gas.

again, i didn't update my blog promptly because i was a busy buzzy bee trying to finish up 1 of the 4 projects i have. dangs; it can make me go bonkers. staying up late, & snowed down by school. now the eyebags are appearing. NO WAY! anyhooos, last thursday, after my work, i took some time to spend with kak fidah & fendi. we headed to vivocity to update things up, & assuage each other's pain, grief & stress-ness due to the problems we are facing. we had a blast laughing our asses off recollecting back those lovely & hilarious memories that had happened in IP CBTL. hahaha. i couldn't stop whooping, i tell you. thanks kak fidah & fendi for making the night a 'lepaks-day to remember'. =) then, on friday, after doing the last touch-up with ayne, before our presentation on monday(which is today, & WHAT?! SOOON?), og & i jack around at the near-by void deck, & again, the sawan babi with his unpredictable scoldings & belo-ness, made me chuckle into tears. sedut babat pat perot boncit nyer nak? hehe. still, i need to thank you, right jiji. :)

on saturday, went to work with my dearest TTM, wan. it was an inventory day. i don't want to even think about it, it piss me off. i took a cab to GlennEagles hospital because my cousin just gave birth to a babyboy, Zufar. CONGRATS abang & kak aaliyah. =)=) zufar is the third great grandchildren, after aiman & amir. pictorials will be upload when i reach home later alrightey.

i'll be presenting my project soon. & i'll be dropping by my workplace later, with wan maybe. i don't know why whenever i'm trying to be happy, problems will come in unexpectedly. sigghh. i know. i'm going to be fine.

ohhh, i forget to mention. today, marks the one month. =D

CHEERIOS.

pursuit of happy-ness.

almost there.

010807. its the first of august. the date i've been looking forward to for the past one year. -sigh- everything is over. not that i don't want to let it happen, my parents won't let it happen, first of all. no use brooding over it, anw.

i was late to school today. tsktsk. its better late than never. i've decided NOT to absent from school again, again & again. my attendance has been pretty bad since the last semester. OHDEAR. arghhh. & surely, i'll get the debarment letter by end of this month.

OH, I LOVE SCHOOL. YES!YES!
yes, og.

=)=)