an experience

revamp

2007-09-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

i'll be back with new blogskin & new url okaysdohtays. =)

end.

2007-08-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i'm stupid enough to breakdown at work.
the insecure-ness i have for the past one & half years, like all of a sudden haunt me again.
i feel the pain i have for the past one & half years. one & the half years.
there's nothing more to say.

i end it here.
then both of us won't feel the pain.
we will be happy.

yeah, move on.
&& smile.

latter

2007-08-29T15:59:00.000+08:00

NOW....
i shall just let him move on
i shall let him be happy
i shall free him with worries, pain & problems.
i shall let him pursue his love for another girl.
i shall just retrieve back the key i bury under the sand, & unlock the heart.

& now when i know he's happy, i'm twice as happy as he is. =)

now that i know the truth, i will have to move one.

raise your hands in the air.

2007-08-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

i gladly announced that my CCNA4 project is officially done & checked & marked!!!! FUHHH. somehow, our hardwork paids off. =)=) thanks ayne for being the pillar to my strength. haha.

I NEED AN EYE MASK! hurrrry.

misses

2007-08-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

i've gained pounds to my weight. a number of people have been noticing the bulky stomach i have. the fats on the high cheekbones. dangs; i can't resist the sweet delights. i've been pampered, mind you. even mama said i've eat too much & she saw the pig shining through me. anws, things are doing fine & dandy, i guess. but school projects can really make ayne & i grow white hair. ohh please. i can't wait to get it done. tomorrow is the deadline & i'm only halfway done. S H I T! hang on fidah, only few weeks left, & you can say a big HELLO to holiday.

i miss my teman tapi mesra. it's only two days & i'm already missing having fun with him under the void deck. hahas. have fun working, wawan.

HAPPPY 25TH!

2007-08-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

i'm losing touch of who i am, what i'm becoming and who i want to be with.
don't ask me what's wrong.

anyhoooos.

its the elder sister's birthday.
HAPPY 25TH, KAK NANA!
surprises to come just so you know. i love you aload, sis.
&& be happy. be fine. be dandy.
lovesweetlove.
MUAH!

h a t e

2007-08-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you are best without.

i'm under depression just so you know. i need to be away from blog. i'm sorry.

sometimes....

2007-08-15T11:45:00.000+08:00

~~its nice to be single. (:~~

~~you know you are mine.~~

life sucks for now.
it takes two hands to clap
it takes two lips to kiss
it takes two heart to love.

else

its just one sided love.
so sad.

i
hate
the
fact
i'm
being
force
into
a
relationship.

ttm.

2007-08-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

i love my teman tapi mesra, aka, wawan like the ocean-size love. =)

thanks jackass, i thank you for making me feel whole again. for putting my pieces back together. i appreciate you putting my life back together. you are one of the greatest gifts i receive from god. you offer me a warm embrace when my path go dark. your kind & gentle temperament, the loving gestures you've showered me. you always flash your magical & healing smile, & i know everything will be alright. my life joys are doubled with you in my life. THANK YOU, teman tapi mesraku. &&& i love you a lot. =)

....... ' you took me under your wings, when i was too scared to fly. you told me that i have to live, when all i wanted was to die.'

And there are days when life rewards us and seems to make amends by
granting us a marvelous gift.

happy 42nd singapore!

2007-08-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

music [ the click five- jenny ]

HAPPPPY 42ND BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!

i went to meet the watevas kids, jannah & solihin at jurong point to catch a movie, Rush Hour 3 with them. the movie was incredibly hilarious. =)=) i can't stop laughing my ears off. LOL. highly recommended i tell you. after that we headed to marina square to view the fireworks. it was jamjam packed. i could hardly breathe. but i had a ball of time, watching the sky covered with gorgeous fireworks. awe-some. thanks watevas, jannah & solihin for the lovely day. =)

i'll let the picture do the talkings.

3rd great grandchildren.

2007-08-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

060807
presenting zufar!!! =)

just reach half an hour lepak-ing with og after his soccer. :) && i've done my 6 online modules. goooodygoooody. & i'm seriously worried about papi's health. & there's no way i can force him to go to the clinic. howhowhow?? sigh. get well soon papi. & at least do something about it.

I always needed time on my own I never thought
I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you.

the way you pamper me with love, boy.

night, all!

laughing gas.

2007-08-06T09:51:00.000+08:00

again, i didn't update my blog promptly because i was a busy buzzy bee trying to finish up 1 of the 4 projects i have. dangs; it can make me go bonkers. staying up late, & snowed down by school. now the eyebags are appearing. NO WAY! anyhooos, last thursday, after my work, i took some time to spend with kak fidah & fendi. we headed to vivocity to update things up, & assuage each other's pain, grief & stress-ness due to the problems we are facing. we had a blast laughing our asses off recollecting back those lovely & hilarious memories that had happened in IP CBTL. hahaha. i couldn't stop whooping, i tell you. thanks kak fidah & fendi for making the night a 'lepaks-day to remember'. =) then, on friday, after doing the last touch-up with ayne, before our presentation on monday(which is today, & WHAT?! SOOON?), og & i jack around at the near-by void deck, & again, the sawan babi with his unpredictable scoldings & belo-ness, made me chuckle into tears. sedut babat pat perot boncit nyer nak? hehe. still, i need to thank you, right jiji. :)

on saturday, went to work with my dearest TTM, wan. it was an inventory day. i don't want to even think about it, it piss me off. i took a cab to GlennEagles hospital because my cousin just gave birth to a babyboy, Zufar. CONGRATS abang & kak aaliyah. =)=) zufar is the third great grandchildren, after aiman & amir. pictorials will be upload when i reach home later alrightey.

i'll be presenting my project soon. & i'll be dropping by my workplace later, with wan maybe. i don't know why whenever i'm trying to be happy, problems will come in unexpectedly. sigghh. i know. i'm going to be fine.

ohhh, i forget to mention. today, marks the one month. =D

CHEERIOS.

pursuit of happy-ness.

almost there.

2007-08-01T10:36:00.000+08:00

010807. its the first of august. the date i've been looking forward to for the past one year. -sigh- everything is over. not that i don't want to let it happen, my parents won't let it happen, first of all. no use brooding over it, anw.

i was late to school today. tsktsk. its better late than never. i've decided NOT to absent from school again, again & again. my attendance has been pretty bad since the last semester. OHDEAR. arghhh. & surely, i'll get the debarment letter by end of this month.

OH, I LOVE SCHOOL. YES!YES!
yes, og.

=)=)

HAPPPPY 19TH, ROY!

2007-07-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

yay! its roy 19th birthday! hehe. =)=)

we celebrated roy's birthday at pizzahut. we joyfully filled our stomach with scrumptious fooooodies. my birthday boy is a happppy gooober today. i hope you enjoy & love the small treat from us, roy darling. & i've to thank ayne, irsyad & shahrul cos you lovelies make it a bomb. MWAHHH!

PICTORIALS.

blame it on me.

2007-07-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

music [ mario- how do i breathe ]

when her own father call her own daughter, 'son of a gun', maybe she's the one to be blame.
when her dydy call her a flirt & a sucker for handsome guys, maybe she's to be blame too.
when she's trying to get her happiness back, problems flood in like no one business, like 'oh, do i look like i care', & once again, she's to be blame. WHO ELSE? RIGHHHHTTT.

don't ever say you care, cos you don't.
don't ever say you love me, cos you don't.

seriously, i don't know what else to do. btw, i worked at boat quay with my dearest wawan(ttm) because there was not enough staff there. a veryvery pleasant place to work at. :) we went back to IP at 5 in the afternoon.

i'm at the midst of helping a colleague to solve the misunderstanding at work. at the midst of helping & advising kak fidah on her relationship. just make me feel like crying when she break down. sigggh. what's life without its ups & downs. YAYAYAYA.

i so need my ttm right now. now! yes now! i need a shoulder to cryy on.

thank god its friday!

2007-07-27T08:48:00.000+08:00

a verrrry gooooood morning to all! a brand new day & start the day with a smile. =) ohoh, its friday. yay friday! let the weekends welcome me with open arms. will be working on saturday, then on sunday as usual, TTM day.

i got to go now. gonna do the case-study with my ayne baby. have a great weekends, happy people!

hope we will have fun. we will. i know we will. yes yesyes. hehe.

tick tock.

2007-07-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

i rushed to work after school today. & i just reached home half an hour ago. its definitely backbreaking. dealing with hasty idiotic annoying customers can make me go bonkers!. oh dear. ohoh btwbtw, i saw nigel today. =)=) how much i miss my own wentworth miller. lol. i'm going to miss you nigel, when you are away to UK. *coughs*. my one & only favourite favourite regular customer. i see you in two weeks time buddy. heee~ i don't know how tomorrow will turn out to be. egg-cited though. =D

i need a shuteye for a brand new day tomorrow. CHEERIOS.

sheesha.

2007-07-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

music [ taylor swift- teardrops on my guitar ]

my weekends was goood goood. even the last minute meet up. =) yesterday, og & i rushed to arab street to join our friends for sheesha-ing. so we reached there around 8 plus. sham, nury, syed, khalid was already there. & on the way to arab street, i saw the gorgeous fireworks since its the national day preview. awesome! at the midst of it, i met up with kak fidah, at golden landmark hotel. she was sugary enough to walk there with manuel & hakim just to meet me. i cuddled her & per usual, the bitching part which we can't miss. OMG. i'm really missing her right now. i've to thank sham for the company. teehee. =) around 10 plus, all of us headed to esplanade and have loads loads of fun. THANKS YA'LL FOR CHEERING ME UP.

i'm going to meet wawan soon. its sunday; our TTM day. got to go people. CHEERS!

i need time to change. please don't rush me. i know my limits.

at times.

2007-07-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

at times, when you feel like crying out everything because you are angry or sad. that's what i am going to do right now. i hate myself just because someone said i'm a sucker for sweet talker & good looking guys. THANKS LAH EH. i shouldn't have taken those pills & go for appointments just to get well. i should just heck about everything, rest in peace. and now, i should. i really should. fuck about no cheese, no milk and no iron.

i hate you. & fuck off. stop acting like you care.
ohh, LIKE I CARE?.

the world is waiting for me to die.

earrrrly.

2007-07-20T08:43:00.000+08:00

goood morning you! since i stay stubborn to update at home, let me just bring it up to date a little tad bit in school since i'm reallly reallly early today. yes people, i am early. you didn't hear me wrong. haha. eventhough i slept at 4 in the morning. unlike the eyecandy. *coughs*. oh wells, school has been a drag one, & can be a bitch at times. at the midst of preparing the end of the year project & case study. errrr maybe it haven't even reach at the midst. ahaks.

the meet up with wawan aka ttm, was backfired for two continous days, & i've to thank him for that. hmphhh. =( but nevermind, sunday is always ttm day. so yesterday was like a complete, like what í told ayne earlier. i went to work from 12-6.30, & such a coincidence that i bumped into 3 of my favourite regular customers. gorgeous steve, nigel & leo. my jaw nearly dropped oogling at my gorgeous buddies. *beams*. ahhh. & i was delighted when kak fidah dropped by at my workplace. we filled each other with stories & love, & then i rushed home. then at night, i chat with wawan over the phone for an hour, the rest of the hours was spent talking on the phone with the eye candy for like 3 hours. mymy. ohoh, i got to talk to dydy too. =)=) all smiles.

alright people. i needa finish up my case study. tsktsk. will blog again whenever i'm free aye. CHEERIOS. :)

yeah, i know.

2007-07-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

i really appreciate my friends, my family & dydy being frank with me. that's enough to help me get back on the right track. =) i thank ya'll!

i hate changes, seriously.

THANKS AYNE BABE! love you loads.

curse.

2007-07-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

music [ rihanna feat neyo- hate that i love you ]

*********************************
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

*********************************

people say i've changed, to the worse. i'm unaware of it, frankly. sigh. i'm trying people. i'm really trying to get back to the right track. i don't know whats the fucking wrong with me this time. i hope there's a wisdom behind every shit that has happened. i want to make things right with my family, with dydy. but i don't know what's stopping me. i rather spend with someone else instead of dydy. i rather spend all day in my room instead with the family. right now, the only thing that has been racing in my mind is, to make up for everything & once again, I DON'T FUGGING KNOW HOW. argh. SOS. i need to do some soul-searching tonight. yes tonight.

i'm not in the pink of health. first & foremost, i want to thank dydy for accompanying me to clementi polyclinic for like 3 hours on thursday. & just now, i almost fainted. the head was spinning on one side. the eyes burning. the stomach was painful due to the infection & pms-ing, at the same time. -sigh-. deep down inside, i was really crying in pain. the manager, edward, was pleasant enough to release me earlier from work. i landed on my bed & took a nap once i reached home. & i'm glad i feel so much better eventhough the head-egg is still there. nevertheless, plenty of rest is the paramount.

anwanw, i need to take my medicine before a shuteye. have a great weekends, you! =)=)
CHEERS.

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me. And your kiss won't make me
weak. But no one in this world knows me the way you know me. So you'll
probably
always have a spell on me.

continuation. heh

2007-07-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

i stopped blogging on the previous posts because i was sleeeppy && lazyyy. okay, back to the 070707. :)

i went to the best girly's engagement with dydy, farhainy, adilah & ikhsan. she was superbly gorgeous. :) congrats, babe. really will pray for your happiness & hope your relatioship with amru will last long yeah. so happpy for you, darling. =)=) & afterwhich i rushed down to miki kai's open house which is not far from kiki's house. hmppphhh. lol. whereby i get to meet jijah, lei & nanas. eventhough it only last for awhile, i reallly had ball of time. miss them, though. :) meet up soooon yeah.

&& on sunday, i went to catch a movie, transformers, with my teman tapi mesra, wawan. like at last, we get to watch transformers. OMG. the movie is awesome, enough said. A.W.E.S.O.M.E. highly recommended. =) we had kfc for lunch & wawan was veryvery particular about my health that he forbid me to eat the cheesefries. :( hehe. after much persuasion, i get to eat it. we watched dvd at my house with the sister, & he headed home at 9.00pm. thanks wawan wuwu, for the day, for the laugh, for the nonsense. =)=)=) my favourite jackass.

okay go. i'm done with today. i need some sleeeeep.
adios.

07.07.07. pretttty date. :)

2007-07-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

music [ plain white t's- hey there delilah ]

i've not been blogging for the past few days. =(. huge fat apologies people. the days was swamped with work work & ohhh dangs, problems. i wish to put aside the problems for now. i've been veryvery strong because of one person, my mama. anws, i can't accept the fact that kak fidah, my manager, is leaving us in like 4 days time?. :( my mind race back the first day of work in international plaza coffee bean. whereby i've never favour this lady. till there's this one day, we share problems to each other, (i thank wawan for that. hahas.). the bond became closer & tighter. the love became huge, & only god knows how much i love her now. seriously. she may look flipped all the time, she may be bitchy & harsh to you, but seriously, never ever judge a book by its cover. she's hard at the outside but she's soft in the inside. how much i've seen the true her, & her true colours. her background, & stuff, which somehow similar to people around me, make me click with her. her undefine love towards her staff & colleagues, at the same time her regular customers. there she goes again, i saw light shining through her. i'm really going to miss her like an arrow miss its target. her words of the day, her stupidity, her funny sight, her merepek-ness, her scoldings, her lemon/mango iced tea, her cheerful-ness, friendli-ness, her iniative doing stupid stuff like the picture below. haha. she's like the rainbow who add colours in the outlet. -sigh- i feel like tearing right now.

"aku kagum ah ngan kebolehan kau sebagai outlet manager. tanpa kau eh, outlet tu tk lively ah macam skrg. ". LOLS. we are going to miss you, syafidah binte samsudin. =( ahah, KO LUMPO KO LUMPO, AHH IPOHIPOHIPOH. haha! hais. memories will always linger.

anwanw. the candyass aka sawan babi aka ogy aka saiful fauzi, ya si ehhpul tu, & my dear papa bear, nurrrry, came down to IP CBTL to pay intan & i a visit, yesterday. the two clowns made me laugh my ears, teeth, nose offf! hopefully we can spend more time together sometimes horrr. thanks for dropppping by. =)=) appreciated. & kak fidah went to shop at amara with wawan, hakim(her son) & i. she was hilarious when she try out the shoes. ;).

to be continued......

=(

2007-07-01T21:16:00.000+08:00

i'm having proooooblems! & i feel like running away from it.

it
is
sucks.

really.

snowed.

2007-06-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

music [ paula deanda- walk away ]

i can't forget how we used to me
our life from day to day
hoping maybe you'll come back
and though i tell myself not to be afraid
to move on but it seems i can't
but no other man has given me attention
it ain't the same as your affection
though i know i should be content
in the back of my mind

the first few days of holidays was spent at work. hehe. work till drop like no one's business. & only god knows how shag i was. dealing with customers, & coffee. laugh our ears off with lovely colleagues. aside from the tiresomeness, i really had fun entertaining, my colleagues & manager's nonsense. hahaha. i swear, i'm going miss every little bit of beautiful things in them. sigh. but oh wells, i'm still counting down. 13 more days before i say goodbye to CBTL. :)

anw, i played pool at jurong east entertainment with my teman tapi mesra, wawan. how gagged up both of us can get when it comes to poool! i guess we spend more time giggling at the most dumbest thing ever than playing pool. thanks wawan for the day. :) i've never sit on a rooftop before. & the other day i sat on the rooftop with ozal & wawan, it felt so good. i shall try it on night one of these days. maybe with candles along? haha. awwww.

&& dydy came to my workplace yesterday. thanks for helping me dydy. i don't know how to repay your kindness. && ohoh, thanks for the two pizzas. free is always sedap. you know, i know. oh btw dy, the video clip was comical & stuuupid lah. shessh. =D

aiman & amir. my two favourite boys.

intan & bia. aku sayang kooooraaang lah! =)=)

its sunday. the day to clean up the mess in the house. to clear every dust at the every corner. to rot on the bed, & pamper myself with dvds. sink my gums & teeth with chocolates & ice creams. :) i'm back to work tomorrrow. 13 hours each for two following days. tsktsk. i better have plenty of rest today.

enjoy your weekends you.

smile.

sugar in the sea

2007-06-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

music [elliot yamin- wait for you]

A friend's love is unconditional and unique in every way. :)

thursday.

my lovelies, khai & curlie, surprised me during work. they were sugary enough to drop by at my workplace & pay me a visit. =D i was tickled pink. ohmygod. they waited for me till 5. & we headed to fuji xerox to take my name tag which i left it over there. i introduced my wawan to them. hehehe. we had fun snowed each other with stories cos it has been quite a while since we last talk/meet each other. & afterwhich we meet nas at international plaza at 6.30 & headed home. we snapped some pictures of ourselves, & eventhough the meet-up last for a while, we had fun, laughing our ears off. i love you darlings aloads! ;)

friday&saturday.

work, work & work. =)=)

dealing with fussy customers can make me go crazy. seriously. hurrhurr.

mama, aiman & amir are sick. i really pray hard that my 3 gems will be well again, pretty soon.

i'm going to miss my colleagues when i left them on the 8th of july. sigh. especially my teman tapi mesra. =(=( i shall spend more time with them before i leave.

i got to go for now. will blog again sooon.

happy rainy sunday.

love is all around....

2007-06-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

... eventhough it is blind. =)

i'm finally moving on. stuff all the problems & the past into a bag & dump in the sea. far far away from me. leave it behind, took one step ahead to the right path, & start everything afresh. its no use clinging on the past & someone not worth for. let them be the history of my life. yeah, i've to be rational not emotional. i'm doing the best to make life better. i'm happy if the one is. i don't want to ever turn back & regret. if life is a journey, might there not be places along the way where things are moving a little too slowly?. i'm moving in snail-like way. inch by inch. go slow, baby.

by the way, my miki khai will be dropping by at my workplace. =D we planned to wait for nas after my work at 5. i'm fortunate enough because nas work at the same building as me, & therefore, make life easier for me, for kai. hehe. hopefully, after that we can hang out together by playing pool?. perhaps. only 2 days left before the 3 weeks on holiday embrace me with open arms. =)=)=) egg-cited gitu kan.

anw, i got to go for now. i want to see the *coughs* Icandy today. haha

my ooooo-ggggyyy.

haiiiii.....

he stays in my mind.

and i...

officially missing you.

Into every life a little rain must fall. How we deal with that rain is what
determines our future. There is a price to pay for every action. Sometimes, that price is a lifetime of regrets.

just a friend.

2007-06-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

Oh baby you
Got what I need
But you say I'm just a friend
But you say I'm just a friend
Cos I can be your fantasy
But you say I'm just a friend
But you say I'm just a friend

That we could never be no more than just friends.
Is that what your title will always remain?
Because whenever I look at you, I don't feel the same.
I took a picture of you and held it real close to my heart.
I prayed that we'd always be together.
And yet, were falling apart.
I told myself that I wouldn't cry whenever you decided to let go.
And if you were to ask me if I cared about you, the answer would never be NO.
I love you FRIEND.
And that title is all you'll ever be.
Instead I promise to never let you leave my heart or become a faded memory.
Because I know that deep down inside, you will always be apart of me.
&& Because you said, i'm just a friend.

i just wish i can turn back time. not to believe in you. not to trust your love, your care. not to give my heart to you. i'm the dumbest girl, indeed. maybe i should just fly kite now. everything, was just an *infatuation. every single sweetest things we do, was just as a 'friend'. dinesh is right. its not easy to find someone who loves you. i comprehend the meaning behind it, now. i know he have no intention to toy my feelings. for whatever reasons he have to let go of everything except friendship, i simply can't accept the fact. i can't even bother to face the reality. the heart need an aid. i'm losing the hope. oh nono. I HAVE lost the hope infact. shattered into small pieces then disappear into thin air. i feel like hating you, & yet i can't. how hurt i am, only god knows. oh wells, time will tell, & i'll let the nature take its course.

i wish you are THE ONE. i wish.
& i know it will never come true.
why?
because i'm just a friend.
& i don't know what's friendship means to you.

i used to be a happy girl. but not now.
i
hate
changes.

i thank you.

* means a foolish love feeling that will never last long.

combo

2007-06-10T12:57:00.000+08:00

music [ sean kingston- beautiful girls ]

walau ku masih mencintaimu
ku harus meninggalkan mu
ku harus melupakan mu

i don't know whether i should just give up. the one who's suppose to keep me strong, who's suppose to prove to me how strong his love for me, leave me stranded. one side of the brain, decided to give up on the one, but on the other, decided to be patient cos i believe patience is virtue. i really want to see the blessings behind every dark hours. oh god, show me the right path.

i'm having flu right now. & i've test too.
i left with no choice.

i miss his wuwu. =(

take a looook.

2007-06-08T10:47:00.000+08:00

morning ya'll!

things are getting better for me, & i thank god for that. who make me stronger day by day to get through the glitches & problems. :) i feel good, whenever i feel egg-cited to start a brand new day. i apologised for updating promptly. not in a state to swamp you darlings with stories. anws, the weekends are here, once again. i better do some revision for the upcoming tests. after cracking the brain for a week, then i can say a bigfat HELLO to the 3 weeks of schoool hols. =D yayfuuu.

i saw the eye-candy ass today.
OH
MY
GOD
haha. yeah, i'm all smiles.

anw, i got to go. will blog again.
wuwu.

let go

2007-06-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

i am traumatise.
i don't want to have nightmares.
its so painful to see the changes.
the person you love the most, now
turn to the person you hate the most.

i'm sorry. i know my sorry is not going to cut it. but you should know that this relationship can't work out. everyone will blame me, cos they think i betray you. i've no intention. i rather you blame it on me, than to hurt yourself. i just want to make mama happy. thats all. i always want the best for you. don't try, you have to do your best.

i hope things will get better.
for you.
for me.
for us.

final test

2007-05-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

hellllooohhh lovelies.
i skipped the first lesson today due to the downpour. shiooook. & here i am, in schoool feeling cold & lazy. school end at 4.30 & after that i got to rush down to redhill with fian because both of us will be sitting down for the CBTL final test at 6. i don't think i need to study. right? if there's a way to copy, why not. haha. i don't know whether wawan is meeting me later, but definitely, i'll be bringing aiman down for a walk, as a promise. so hopefully, the one will be able to keep us company. :)

a while ago, i was raging with anger, when someone, unintentionally or intentionally, msged me with those demoralising words. if you feel regret employ-ing me, then so be it. i came to the rescue when you need workers. just hope you be extra careful with words, because i still have a life & a proper education to focus on. maybe i should consider quitting. =/

all the best for the test today. gtg for now.
loves.

holding on

2007-05-28T10:15:00.000+08:00

saturday.
the trip to johor bahru with the family was enjoyable yet tiring. eventhough there's a bit of glitches at the midst, we shopped to its peak. the brother-in-law do the driving, safely. :) the second elder sister & i shopped till we drop & pamper each other with dunkin donuts. yums! =)=)

sunday.
when to catch POC3 at tiong bahru plaza with wawan. seriously, not recommended. i still remember how both of us almost fall asleep in the theatre. tsktsk. & we were fully drenched when we reached our void deck. anw, thanks one two three, for the day yeah. =D

anw. gtg for now. ta

moving on.

2007-05-25T09:13:00.000+08:00

i've faced the dark hours recently & wouldn't want to face it again, again & again. period for now. i'm fortunate enough to have amazing friends around me, that never fail to cheer me up. i can't wait for sunday, definitely. :)

as far as i'm concern, jangan pandang belakang. i'm still a happy girl. =)

cheers people.

happpy belated 18th to me! :)

2007-05-20T09:33:00.000+08:00

hello lovelies. =)
morning you. i woke up early today just to update my blog. i'm currently using the dad's lappie because my lappie is in toshiba's centre. possibly the motherboard went haywire the other day. i can only retrieve it either on wednesday or thursday.

ohh btw. like finallly, i'm illegally 18! haha. not yet to the key of freedom, but then, can watch 300 already, kan ayne?. lol. & on friday, i met up with watevas. i was speechless when they presented me a prima deli cake. AWWW. thanks for everything, lovelies. thanks shireen & kina for the gorgeous wallet. a huge thanks for you darlings, for making the night a pleasant one. the cake, the kisses, the hugs & the shrek ears really made me a happy birthday girl. =)) bigfatfierce kisses to you, darlings! &&& i enjoyed every little thing we do on friday.

& ohoh the one, who played poool & CS with me. haha. he's my teman tapi mesra. :) i thank you wawan. i thank leah, who was in a rush the other day, for giving me the toblerone. i love you babe! && to my pretty ayne, i love the bag so much! thank you, hun. buat senang jer. haha. &&& carebear, thankthank you for the card, the necklace, && the slice of cake. && to everyone who has give me comments & smses, I THANK YA'LL FOR THAT! muah! much apppreciated.

i got to take a bath now because needa rush to aunt hse for the feast. btw, today is my grandad's 2nd year death anniversary. will blog again, lovelies. have a great day! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARIAH & HAFIZ!!!!

18th.

2007-05-19T01:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH, TO ME! =)

no regrets.

2007-05-18T08:37:00.000+08:00

people say you have to make moments last forever.
sometimes, people are unaware of it.
you will never feel it, until you lose someone you love.
i feel so unappreciated right now.

anw, one more day. =) && today, i have to go all the way to kallang to repair the laptop. will blog again soooon.

morning you.!

i'm sorry

2007-05-16T10:37:00.000+08:00

it seems that the server at home is encountering an error. & due to the problem that occur, i can't blog for a few days. i don't know why. i can sign in to blogger.com but when it comes to create new post, an error page will be display next. sigh.

i'll look into it & get back to blogging asap.
CHEERS.

nuts.

2007-05-14T09:42:00.000+08:00

i dont know what's wrong with blogger. its driving me nuts. i've tried to update my blog this past few days but to no avail. they keep opening the error page. & surprisingly, i can update it when i used the school's computer. =/ i've a chockfull stories to share, but i'll leave for later, when i reached home in the noon.

to be continued....

some things.

2007-05-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

music [ travis- closer ]

hello lovelies. :)

honestly, i'm still facing problems around the belt. but its getting better day by day. i thank god for that. what's life without its ups & downs, yeah. put aside the problems. instead let me fill you darlings with stories aye.

school has been smooth-sailing thus far. eventhough, ayne & i did not understand a tinge bit about the mr lum's teaching. lol. cos we prefer to read it our own for better understanding. & we are about to discuss about our year project. dangs; i can wait for that. you know how tough it gets when it comes to project. so i guess, we will take it in a snail-like manner. & the traffic jam can be a bitch at times. it is due to the fickle weather nowadays. as for the result, i am late almost everyday. huurrhurr.

ohoh, did i tell you the boyfriend present me two cute little hamsters?. no?. yeah, he did. haha. at one point of time, he made me incredibly furious, & the other point of time, he would make me a happy girl. *shakeshead* i thank you for our babies, dydy. =) i promise, i'll take gooood care of it.

i can't wait for the 10th. i'm sure will miss the braces which is 2 years & 8 months old. nevertheless, a beautiful set of teeeth. eggg-cited, you!

aiman is pestering me to play with him on his new mini bike. i got to go for now. for better days ahead. will blog again alrightey. adios!

soooon.

2007-05-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for updating promptly.
i am hanging on to things that has befall on me.
i believe there's a wisdom behind every problem
but no worries, lovelies.
i'll update soooooon.

take care & night.

last day of April

2007-04-30T20:25:00.000+08:00

music [ good charlotte- the river ]

i'm feeling unwell.
the stomach not feeling good.
i feel like puking again.
sigh.

today is the 30th.
tomorrow is the 1st of May. =)
10 days more to dental. =D

HAPPY LABOUR DAY & PUBLIC HOLS, ALL!

adios.

big girls don't cry

2007-04-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

music [ rob thomas- little wonders ]

& i'm declaring that i'm very very proud of manchester united. =) final; manchester united 4 everton 2.

the days have been swamped with work, school & problems. whether i'm in the confusion state or not, i strongly believe that god is not nuts to let problems flow in, & once HE put me into it, HE will definitely bring me through it.

i gtg for now. have a great weeekends. :)

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket.
But I've got to get a move on with my life.

Problems

2007-04-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

....are meant to happen here & there. yeah, that's what i call life. how could i not feel sad when someone i love deeply bring up the bitter past which happen two years ago? & to add fuel into the fire, how could i not feel sad when someone i truly love, uttered something that can bring me down? i'm a screw up daughter. i suck at my studies, i suck at everything they can think of. i don't owe mama any explanation or an apology. what's the point?. i've tried my best to be a better person, a filial daughter. & i've even try harder to be in mama's shoe. but to avail. she keep misunderstand me for every little thing i did. i desperately need your backing when it comes to studies, mama. i've no intention to disappoint you again. & i'm really pushing myself, pulling up my socks, to ace my studies, to prove it to you. so that you will be happy, to prove it to you, that YES, i'm a somebody in life. and i'm still trying. what else should i do to convince you?. why did you have to make me fall to the ground? it hurt so much. what did i do to deserve it all?. sigh. & you know, i love you as much as you do, no matter what. you are still the best mama. i just wish........ you understand how i feel.

anw.
i reached home half an hour ago from training at telok blangah. after like a few weeks not meeting each other, four of us (red, ast, fad & i) has a lot of things to share. :) i thank god, cos there are part of my life now.

i need a shuteye. school start at 8.30 tomorrow, & work at 3.
night.

manicure.

2007-04-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

music [ arctic monkeys- brainstorm ]

yesterday.

after school, ayne & i went to jurong point eventhough it was pouring heavily. we splurge on fooodies & junkies. i purchased a new watch for myself, & the manchester united jersey pillow which i've craved for. thanks, babe. aku suker banget! =)

just now.

the boyfriend fetched me from school. & he's such a bugger & itchy cock, lol, that he forced me to enter the manicure shop. i tried to get away with it, but to no avail. naughty dydy! hmpph. so, we spent like 20 minutes with manicure thang. candidly, it was splendid. the fugly nails turn out to be beautiful. :) well-grommed, in short. with natural colour nail polish on it. then the itchy boyfriend, spent 22 buckarooos for it. i hate you lah ok!. its much appreciated, but i feel that, its not worth spending that much on manicur-ing. don't do that again okay. i know its a treat, i thank you so much, for that. but, it made me feel bad. i don't know why either. LOVE YOU SO, BABY. muacks! ohoh, thanks again, for the 3 beautiful roses. :):):) you never fail to give me the reason to smile.

anw. if you lovelies, have read the newspaper, you must have been aware of the teenage girl who drowned in the canal. she actually lived one block away from mine. her block was jam-packed with policeman, friends, principals, visitors & not to forget, reportes & photographers. i felt sorry for her family. god bless.

P.s: takziah buat kina & sekeluarga. semoga tuhan mencucuri rohnya. i know you feel the loss right now, but no matter what, always bear in my mind that, god loves her more. there must be a wisdom behind it. eventhough your late grandmother is no longer with you, just remember, she's permanently in your heart, now & forever. cheer up, sayang. i'm here for you.

gonna watch wild hogs before turning in. night, lovelies.

i can wait for thursday. ohnoway.

supreme sunday

2007-04-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

music [ katherine mcphee- i'm over it ]

i'm gorging down abalone cup noodle instead of tom yam, my favourite, because i'm left with no choice. i only found the abalone one in the cupboard. and because there's no spicy-ness, i poured the crushed chilli. now, it taste better than i expect. hehe.

anw. yesterday was a long day for me. one of the best weekends i have. work start at 8 & ended at 2. then the boy fetched me from work, afterwhich we had our lunch at sakae sushi. and the following hours were spent together. around 7.00, the boyfriend sent me to the toh guan's bus stop because i've informed the brother-in-law to fetch me there. at 7plus, the family & i headed to bugis to have our dinner at seoul garden. :) we ate the scrumptious foodies & deserts to our heart's content. ohmy, now i've gain extra pound to the weight. lol. at 11, all of us went to have a stroll at west coast park. it was incredibly awesome. i was really having fun. =D

i gtg for now. night.

fine. :)

2007-04-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

everything fine now.
no worries, lovelies.
bigfat kisses for those who are there to lighten me up. =)=)
love ya'll.

silver lining behind the blue skies.

& i think, the boy really owe me ALOAD
of apologies. & promises. & presents (*coughs*)
to make up for everything. lol.

work start at 8.
a date with the boyfriend tomorrow.
then dinner @ seoul garden with family.

have a great weekends!

LEONIE! one of the closest cina guyfriend i have. =)

fear.

2007-04-19T12:21:00.001+08:00

i'm fear to death.
i had cold sweat.
& sent shiver racing up & down my back & neck.
the heart thudded vigorously.
the tears couldn't stop flowing out.
i was terrified.
i took a deep breath, and noticed i was sobbing
in one the cubicle.
everyone was staring at me.

now the feet is hurt.
then the heart need an aid.
i've never encouter this in my life.
someone really try to kill me.
if i didn't grip hardly, i would have die on the road.

just because i didn't reply.
you came late
you even wanted to pay the fines even if its not your fault.
you try to hurt me.

& i'm declaring, i'm going to hate you.

h
ha
hat
hate.

its real love.

2007-04-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

music [ ruben studdard- change me ]

i've never missed watching heroes. even if i can't catch it on wednesday, i will definitely find the repeat telecast. :) how intriguing heroes can be, that everytime i watch it, it will bring me to fantasy. & how wish i have those supernatural powers!.

today.
once again, we had lunch with kelly & maleky. ohh, sitting beside nano's favourite boy, Mr M made me feel awkward in every move. lol. we rot in the library while waiting for the next lesson to start. ampled each other with jokes, stories, & upcoming movies. i'm pleased with the lovelies by my side. cos they never make my life empty, not even a second.

yeah. i'm proud to say that i'm a mummy's girl. i hardly believe how i childish i am, when i'm with mama. i will lie on my mum's lap everyday. i love it whenever when we are watching teevee, i will ask mama to feed me whatever tidbits she's have in her hands. i'm closer to mama since i was born. she's my pillar of strength, the cure to my pain. in short, she's everything to me. she's the most understanding mama i've ever had. i remember how she used to asked the ex-bfs to come over for dinner. infact now, eventhough she knows my relationship with dydy, she has never nag about it. my dad wouldn't mind either if i have a bf or have a number of guyfriends, its just that i'm feeling way comfortable talking things out with mum. because seriously speaking, the dad, who is particular in our clothings, has NEVER been close to we girls. don't ask me why. ohh, where was i? yeah. mum does the cooking, the cleaning, the washing clothes, babysitting my 3 cousins & 2 nephews, EVERYDAY. that make her the perfect woman & bestest mummy in the world. =)

mother's day? not yet. haha. something in random. because i read an article something similar to the one above.

school start at 8 & end at 10. ??. & i've training from 6-10 after that. *beams* alrightey. so long lovelies. sweet dreams.

where's you, sayang? =/

youth is temporary, class is forever.

2007-04-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

music [ play with fire- hilary duff ]

i adore the fact that youth is temporary, class is forever. (:

anws. before i continue reading james patterson's novel, i better do some updating. today was one of those days i've been loooking extra forward to. kelly & maleky joined us for lunch! & we catch things up with each other. both of them had more stories to fill us with because of the holymama. lol. there were thunder of laughter among us. :) i'm loving it to bits. definitely, tuesday is my day. "someone" present ayne & i a hug. hahaha. you-know-who. it was wonderful to see the ex-classmates again. leonie, our date is every tuesday okays. ohh btw, leon is one of my closest chinese guyfriend i have during my year one.

tomorrow school will be such a drag because it start at 8 & ends at 4.30. -_- but on happier note, irsyad is coming to school tomorrow. yay. will be meeting him at 8 at the foyer. just make sure he will not be late.

i'm back to reading, then a shuteye. nightees, lovelies.

&&& i love you, dydy. no matter what. =)
'dough daddy dough'

first day.

2007-04-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

music [ sunshine- lil flip ]

today was my first day of school after 5 weeks of lovely holidays! & i was delighted to see my friends again. eventhough i could only see kelly & maleky from the glass window. :( i felt a little weird without having kelly & maleky with us for lunch. ohmy, i'm missing them & the convo's we had for the past one year. hopefully, one of those days, we had no problem asking them to join us for lunch & filled each other up with harmless stories, & ultimate gossips. lol. on a much happier note, the schedule's pretty slack for this term. that's uber gooood! ohoh, i spotted rauf & hafiz in school too! :)

the boyfriend was sweet enough to fetch me from school eventhough it was pouring heavily.
:( now i'm feeling guilty for making him mad at the midst of wearing the raincoat. but, its funny though. haha. ok dydy, your baby is the dumbest girl on earth alright. a huge apology for that. ohoh, i'm repeating again. TODAY: A DAY CHOKED WITH DISAPPOINMENTS. you know what it means. & you jollywell do something about it. because your sorry is not going to cut it. i've to thank you for that because whatever happen has make me the most stupidiest girl ever.

while waiting for the rain to stop, the boyfriend, is, faizal & i had chicken rice for lunch at clementi. & the adorable seth came to join us a few minutes later. *coughs* lol. & the boyfriend & i headed to jurong library to borrow books. we had waffle before going home.

i need a goood read then a shuteye because the eye is getting heavier, heavier & heavier. will update soon. CHEERIOS. nightees, earthlings.

PS: condolences to irsyad & family. god loves datuk more. cheer up, bro. :)

i miss my babe! & finally, we get to meet! WEEEE
ohh maldives! a place to go for my honeymoon ONE DAY.
a comic plus a novel.

gooood kisser.

2007-04-13T22:13:00.001+08:00

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

another try.

2007-04-13T13:41:00.000+08:00

music [ natasha bedingfield- i wanna have your babies ]

i've decided to give another try to post a proper entry to fill you lovelies with stories. ok go.

helllloooohhh lovelies. :)
life has been pretty smooth sailing thus far despite the little glitches in the between. my days was choked with work & training. to & fro, to tanjong pagar then to suntec. & i've been working from 8am-9pm & includes the training for two continuous days. work has made the body heavier than the usuals, late shuteye, & achings at different parts of my body. booohooo~ the relationship with the colleagues is getting better day by day. at least i know i can lean on them whenever i need emergency help. that's a good sign & a good reason (maybe) for not going to transfer. but i still need to reconsider if to think of the manager. i'm not used with people who is the same race & gender being too discourteous with another person, be it whether he/she is disabled or abled. i'm not that overly touchy feely kind of thing you see. i hate it so much when she (whom i won't reveal her name here), utter acridly in a deliberate way. this happen so often, btw. i believe that respect each other is the best policy when it comes to bonding with others. neither can i stand nor imagine how other people can behave heartlessly to his/her people. cmon, we are human beings afterall. with feelings just like you. want to gain respect just like you do. candidly, with this kind of people around my belt, i feel hell afflictive! nah, they won't work for me- not my cup of tea. i think that are terrible nuts! *shakeshead*. i shall see how long i can tolerate. for now, ignorance is definitely a bliss. =S

nasrun dropped at my workplace for A REASON. haha. he got a free pure choc from me. he must be a happy boy, i must say.
ohhh anyhoooos. i want to thank the boyfriend for the late night ride, the trip to mount faber, & crucially, saving me from my exhausting days/nights. much appreciated you! =)=) big fat fierce hugs & kisses for you. you know how fortunate i am to have you! MUACKS.

the other day when i had my trainings at suntec, i saw keifi! haha. i was feeling high when i spotted him. OMG. it has been aeons since we last met. he's still looooking extra gooood with capital G as ever. no doubts about that, yeah. lol. i was delightful enough to see you, keifi! (: i've grown a little, just for you. haha. ; )

anws, i didn't attend work yesterday. i was having a bad headache followed by a slight fever. so, early in the morning, i called the manager to informed her. i know, rest is the paramount. possibly the burned out & not enough sleep made me feel unwell for the day. but today, i'm feeling so much better because i consumed the medicine Dr.Low's prescribed the previous day. thank god. :)

today is my off day. i slept like a log. prolly going to rot at home besides entertaining the cousins & nephews. dvd-ing at night, then work again tomorrow. school is going to welcome me with open arms in a few days time. i've received the schedule yesterday. i'm on cloud 9,10,11,12... because ayne, irsyad & roy is the same class as me. yayyyyyyy! haha. a happy girl, of cos! this side of the country is having a horrendus downpour. shiiioooooooook. & i'm going to have my lunch now. CHEERS, people. =]

click to enlarge.

sucks.

2007-04-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

a few minutes ago, i typed a really long entry.
when i was posting it, the connection went haywire & puhhhh.
goood-bye to the entry.
okays. thats sucks.
it spoil everything.
arghhhh.

i will update it tomorrow then.
darn it. =(

what's wrong?

2007-04-09T01:06:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i feel so disappointed & terribly sullen the whole day.
maybe for no reason?
even if there's reason, i don't know whether its reliable enough.
the truth is, the reason lies beneath.
i don't know how & what to explain.
its just feel like being abandon. care less.
oh well.

anw.
the training at RH was sucks. thanks to the dumb-fuck indian trainer. maybe he should just go blind & go to hell. stooooo-pid. he didn't respect us, how is he going to gain respect from us? common sense, knnccb. =S i am fuming mad to think of it again & again. i shan't give a rat ass about it.

i need a shuteye now. work at 9 tomorrow.
cheeers.

a day to remember.

2007-04-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

music [ gym class heroes - cupids chokehold ]

today.

i spent the whole day with the boyfriend. we met as early as 11.30 in the morning. the planned to the crabs was backfired. i don't know why. fugging annoying. then the boyfriend & i had our breakfast at sakae sushi AGAIN. lol. we spent our day loitering anywhere. & then while it was raining cats & dogs, we had our lunch at banana leaf apolo at serangoon road. afterwards, we landed on jurong east entertainment to play archade & slipped in thunder of laughter trying to get the stitch out of the machine. but failed to. nevertheless, both of us were tickled pink. it shows how much we enjoyed each other's company. =) & the stomach is not enough filled with japanese food, that dydy & i went to Giant to purchase sushi. haha. the stomach is in good mood today. lol. 070407, a day to remember. && thanks dydy for the superb day. :)

i need to wake up early tomorrow because i need to be at Raffles Hospital by 10 in the morning. argh. the body is heavier when it comes to work on sunday. :( i will endure till 5.30 in the noooon tomorrow. i will endure. *rolls eyes*. gahaha.

in random. no matter how many times i watched a walk to remember, i will still cry. just like how kal ho na ho does. tsktsk

dvding soon. nightees, world.

compensate & leia's 18th

2007-04-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

music [ tamia- officially missing you ]

OMG. i just realised that i've not been updating the rants for three days. yes? my. i barely notice it. don't worry. i'll put aside my tired-ness, & compensate the missing days. =]

3rd April

had my training at millenia walk with my batch. it was helluva intriguing. basically, we learnt about making & blending the ice blended. the measures & the different techniques. & the best of all, we got to make a lot of different drinks. that include my favourite mocha! ;) despite the quarell, the boyfriend still pick me up from work. he's sweet, afterall. lol.

4th April

first day of work at international plaza & its the most fatiguing day i've ever had! reallly. i made my officially first ice blended to a customer. so far, a smooth-sailing one. :) but obviously, as a newbie, i did it in a snail-like manner. and my colleagues was lovely enough to lend a hand & guide me during my wrong-doings. thanks, yo. =) & i handled the cashiering when pram was busy. chey. cham-pion. haha. and at initial, my work was supposed to end at 4pm but my manager asked if could extend to learn the closing. & i felt remorseful for agreeing to it. the closing was such a pain in the ass, i tell you. haha. it took at least two hours to get the closing, cleaning & paperwork done. dangs. the leg was aching so badly. the eyes were heavy. haha. the cleaning really made the legs & hands trembled vigorously. & i almost burst into tears when i saw the boyfriend waiting patiently near the entrance. i can't help it but to embrace him as soon as i approached him. lol. that was how shag i am. & then, the boyfriend & i headed to lau pa sat to have our dinner which was not far from my workplace. the satay & bbq prawns was scrumptious. we gobbled down the food to our heart's content. & so, after that, the boyfriend sent me home. thanks, sayang. you gave me the reason to smile. MUACKS. =)

5th April

i was 25 minutes late for dental. & that made me 10 minutes late for work. thanks to myself, for waking up late. & thanks to the boyfriend for sending me. ohh anyhoooos, i feel extremely hairpee because it's confirm that they will be taking out my braces a week & days before my birthday. YEAYY! i'm really looking extra forward to the day. all smiles, baby. :) i saw rabia for the first time. =D & its such a coincidence that we know each other friends. small world kankankan. hehe. & i had my schedule same with her. so, next week, i'll be meeting her more often. yayness can! =)

finally.

today. a verrrrry goood friday, you. went to meet the watevas kids under leia's void deck because she invited us to her birthday party. i love lei's cousins. adorable! =)=) ohh but i love lei's scrumptious fooodies more. hahaha. thanks, babe! anw, its leia's 18th birthday!

happy 18th, curlie. love you lots! muacks! =)

going to catch crab at sembahwang with dydy & his friends tomorrow. :)
i'll update soon okays. nightnight, lovelies.

shag.

2007-04-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

music [ cherish- unappreciated ]

the music fit the mood. =/
i reached home a few minutes ago. the training was a so so, because we didn't do any practical. basically an introduction about coffeebean. the facilitator do the talking, while the baristas does the listening. but on a lighter note, the baristas from my batch was amicable. one of the guys, is my schoolmate. well, everything went smooth-sailing thus far. :) the orientation was wrapped up at 6. & after that, i headed to tanjong pagar to meet nas and from there we took the train to bugis & we dropped by at khai's workplace to get nas's thumbdrive. before leaving, we had free food & drinks. free is always sedap. thanks you, khai. ;) ahaks. it's nice to meet-up with your friends once in a blue moon. ohh, speaking of which, its full moon now. =D i'm feeling shag & sleepy. fortunately, my work start at 6 in the afternoon tomorrow. yay, that's what i call powerkedegak. a room for breather, at least. on a happier note, tomorrow, i will start learning & making ice blended. that include mocha! yums. hehe

anw.
i just wish sometimes you just understand. its just once in a while. neither do i going to make it a habit. i feel that i didn't do anything wrong. maybe yes, by screwing up promises. i don't have the intention to break it either. just now, i am happy, dy. why wouldn't want to make me happy once in a while?. i have a life. i leave it to you to think about it. i'm sorry.

going to have my dinner now. then glued to the teevee. after that, a shuteye. i think. night, earthlings.

HAPPY 1YEAR 8 MTHS.

2007-04-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

i almost forget. haha
HAPPY 1YEAR 8 MTHS, DYDY!
baby loves dydy alot like love.
hehe.
MUACKS! =)=)

ohoh, && happy april fooooool.

tata.

the day after tomorrow.

2007-04-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

music [ the red jumpsuit apparatus- your guardian angel ]

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

there's no sunday morning today for me. i woke up approximately at 1.15 in the afternoon. yes, superfuper fugly. the previous night, having thunder of laughter, chatting with dydy's colleagues till 3 in the morning. liana, feerah & seth was my night criminals. bitching & gossiping at the middle of the night was.... FUN. hehe.

anw. tomorrow will be the first training for coffeebean. the training will be held at its own HQ at henderson road. fortunately, it last only for 4 hours. yayfuu. =X hehe. don't be too happy, fidah. there's still other days to 'look forward to'. ahaks. the schedule is pretty tight. i'm aware. hopefully, there's a room for breather. hee. curlie invited the watevas kids to the her 18th birthday party this coming gooody friday. =D

the afternoon was spent with mama & my aunt. we went to IMM to get my black shoe for work tomorrow. :) & then i saw the ex. but i pretended i didn't notice him at all. i don't give a rat arse, afterall. hehe. the shop till drop ended at 8. && we headed home. thanks mama for the treat!

the stomach is growling. byebye for now. hee. ;)
happy working.

miss you, ayne!

teenage mutant ninja turtles

2007-04-01T00:33:00.000+08:00

music [ firehouse- i live my life for you ]

the watevas kids gathering was cancelled. sigh. i was really looking forward to catch things up with them. hmm. but nevermind. some other time maybe. =/ anyhoos, dy & i went to westmall to have our quick lunch at sakae sushi. && then both of us headed to the cinema to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. i've been a fan of tmnt. & michael angelo is my all time favourite turtle! hehe. generally, it was astonishing. =)=) thanks dydy for the day.

having a date with mum tomorrow.

thats for today.

CHEERS.

fresh look

2007-03-31T01:06:00.000+08:00

how's my new blogskin? looking good? yes? no?
if you darlings feel that there's some amendments need to be done, leave me a message at my tagboard alrightey. =)
eg: colour, or alignments. etcetc

i'm on the phone with my sayang. ohoh, anw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, NANO!

ta.

feel like

2007-03-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

i feel like doing something to my blog.
let's try.
& see weather i can come up with something
NEW.

brb.

fantastic

2007-03-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

music [ she's like the wind- lumidee feat tony sunshine ]

yesterday.
my elder sister, brother-in-law, aiman & amir went to our chalet at downtown east for two days one night. all of us had a ball of time. :) the swimming in the rain, lunch @ kfc, the drool, the dinner at changi village, sitting near the fence to view the airplane take off, giggling at the sight of a bapok, sharing ultimate stories, late night dvding, sums up the two awesome days. =)=)=) i love my siblings & nephews. i admire our tight bond eventhough the elder sister is happily married. i sure want more of yesterday! lol. this upcoming june, perhaps. yay-ness.

anw.

i'll be a busy bee from next week onwards. will be working at IP && snowed down by trainings trainings & trainings at different location. egg-cited? maybe. haha. hopefully, everything turn out fine yeah. =) && a big fat apology to ayne & wan for screwing our double date next monday. sorrrry. will make up for it, FOR SURE. smooooches.

i'm back to glued to the teevee to watch HEROES & follow by CSI.
have a great day ahead. adios. ;]

ps: missing watevas. hope to meet you darlings on SAT.
:)
psps: love you dy. get well soon.

flu.

2007-03-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

music [ my chemical romance- i don't love you ]

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

have mercy on me lovelies for not updating promptly. i'm down with flu this past few days. i slept like a log after swallowing down dr low's medicine. rest & drink plenty of water is definitely the preeminent. && i've to thank the boyfriend for the pleasant company to the clinic, for carrying me (lol). i thank you for everything. muahmuah!

ohoh. i got to go. dad need to use the lappie. CHEERS.

loved.

2007-03-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

music [ maroon 5- she will be loved ]

yesterday.

the night-out with my favourite boy was wonderful. :) nothing much, lately. dvding till incredibly late. cuddling the days of holidays tight. enjoying it to its peak, infact. ahaks. prolly will be starting work, next week. && then only few weeks left to schoolohschool. dangs; anw. i'll be seeing leah almost everyday when school reopen. YAY! lol.

okays. i don't know what else to blog. maybe some other time yeah. =)

nightees & sweetdreams.

random; fugustingly cute! lol.

[***and don't try this at home]

adios amigos. ta

sugar rush

2007-03-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

music [ nelly furtado- try ]

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

hello lovelies.
i had my typhoid vaccination yesterday. && now, my arm is aching so badly. i will try not to rely much on my left hand. & plenty of rest in the paramount. anw. i can't wait to start work. hehe. the training & orientation schedule has been very improper. i don't know why. i'll just wait for their call in the next few days.

nothing much about today. dvding in my room. & at night, going to the hospital to accompany my lovely aunt. :) tomorrow, is the date with my favourite boy. & on friday, hopefully meeting yusman. follow by the saturday, watevas meet-up! yeah. =)=) sounds goood with the capital G. ahaks.

alrightey. i'm back to watch stomp the yard. hothothot.

cheers.

taurus is sexy? definitely!

2007-03-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

.:TAURUS:. The Tramp

Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships. =] Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to #### with. Are the most sexiest people on earth!

pssst. i'm proud to be a taurean, of course! haha. intriguing hah

milky twilight (3)

2007-03-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

music [ the red jumpsuit apparatus- face down ]

after the plan to sentosa was backfired, dydy && i planned to spend the whole day @ singapore botanical garden. :) hopeless romantic kankankan? hehe. so before heading to the botanic gardens, the lovely boyfriend grant my wish. haha. he took me to takaya bistro to have japanese food for lunch. :):):) love you lah, sayang.

we reached botanic gardens nearly at 5. we roamed the eco-garden. our jaw nearly drop looking at the beautiful landscape. the general appearance of the place, really made dydy & i fell in love with the garden. it has been aeons since i last step in botanical garden. && its logical enough for dydy to be fascinate by the beauty because its his first time. so yeah, both of us were having fun camwhoring, snapping awesome spot, playing with the swans && ducks, washing our eyes by the greeeens & wonderful plants.

& both of us being such a loveydovey at one corner, sums up the day. hehe. =))) spending time with my favourite boy was goood with a capital G.

snap!

irysad msged me out of the blue. lol. ingat da tkde jiwa. anw, the second elder sister calling me to eat great snacks & dvd-ing with her.

adios amigos. ta.

milky twilight (2)

2007-03-17T16:57:00.000+08:00

i just reach home a few minutes ago. dydy is such a darling to send me for an interview at Tanjong Pagar eventhough he need plenty of breather since he have to go work at 4. thanks, darl. =) the interview at international plaza coffee bean, was a smooth-sailing one. the manager, zura, is superbly pleasant. :) i'm appeased, you. i need to go there again on monday. to give them my account no, photocopied identity card && typhoid (?) vaccination recepit & statement. so, before heading to the IP, i need to pay a visit to Dr.Low's clinic && have an injection. =S hopefully, i'll be employed. hehe.

anw.
&& i slept at 5 in the morning yesterday. i was DVD-ing in my room, watching Prison Break 2, from episode 1 to 11. && i'm going to continue its last 2 episodes tonight. =)=)=) ohhh not to forget, having stooopid stomach upsets that made me puke twice. =/

dangs! i got to go for right now. need to visit my aunt in hospital. ohhh btw, i saw our mr. sr nathan at general hospital yesterday. his affability made me feel proud to have him as our president. handsome tau. hehe

will blog again at night. more stories to tell about the trip to the botanic garden with didinesh. gahaha.

byebye.

milky twilight (1)

2007-03-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

helllooo lovelies. =)

yesterday.

went to catch a movie with nas, khai & leia. at initial, we wanted to watch 300 but due to rules & regulations or whatsoever, we were restricted. whats the difference anyway? we all, except khai, will be officially 18 in another few months. hurrhurr. && then we decided to watch stomp the yard. omgomg. its awesome! if you darlings have fetish for dance, better catch it. its recommended. its really worth watching it. && neyo, he's fucking hot! hee.

thanks nas, khai && lei. miss ya'll lah!

&& pictorials.

CHEERS!

i still need you.

2007-03-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

music [ stefy- orange county ]

i will the pictures do the talkings. i need a reality check & some soul-searching. PERHAPS.

too night.

2007-03-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

music [ blue october- into the ocean ]

yesterday was officially, last day of school, before a new semester on april?may?. i had my exam in the examination hall with my fellow schoomates. candidly, i think i did fairly well, but still, its a 50/50. hopefully, i didn't screw up the paper. tsktsk. & so after the paper, ayne, roy & i went to westcoast bowland to bowl. :) unfortunately, kelvin & malek can't tag along because they were busy preparing for their competition. booohuu. its okay, darlings. maybe next time. ohoh, i've to thank carebear for the ride to westcoast. THANK YOU, YOU! hehe. ;) your honda fat gerek ah! lol. ayne, roy & i had a ball of time together with fits of laughter. love you darlings, truckloads! we headed home approximately at 4.15. roy & i walked to the clementi mrt station to board our bus. and... we went seperate ways.

FIDAH BAGUS KAPE SIOL! hahaha! cham-pi-ion. hehe.

cehhh ayne lah. strike satu! lol

i reached home nearly at 5.15. after that, the second elder sister offered to go Vivolurvo with her boyfriend, & she even asked dydy to come along. & i agreed. the boyfriend finished his work at 6 & 45 minutes later, dydy fetched me. we had our dinner at burger king when we reached vivo. the sister & her boyfriend only came an hour later. i spent 50 buckaroos on two tops, & 19 buckaroos on a necklace. hehe. i can't help it, you see. && the boyfriend was really a superb shopping partner yesterday. *smooooooches*

& this naughty boy, is such a hopeless smartypants, that he is brainy enough to bait me to go mount faber in the middle of the night. lol. dydy just rode around mount faber. the road towards the mount faber, was really clammed-up. the atmosphere was awesome! but i wish we can sit down & tickled each other under the moonlight. but it was getting late. soon okay, sayang. hee. =)

we reached home almost 11. i love this day. i really do. =D

@mount faber.

its shower time. going swimming with the cousins, & my family later. =)))

if you both love each other, i'll just walk away. =)

CHEERS!

head trip

2007-03-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

music [ hale- the day you said goodnight ]

hello you.
went to Vivocity with elder sister, brog-in-law, & my two little nephews, aiman && amir. the shopping spree was helluva gooo-ood! i'll let the pictorials do the talkings alrightey.

anw. won't be blogging this few days because i'll be a busybuzzy revising for my exam on monday. so, CHEERS.

from candyempire. *no pork gelatin* don't worry. hehethe accesories made the elder sister & i go tempting, go crazy! its gorgeous. we can't resist.
i love this shop. its so unique.

action affect feeling.

2007-03-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

music [ three days grace- pain ]

i know my blog is nothing without its everyday entry. pardon me for not updating promptly, lovelies. i'm going through the darkhours lately. but no worries, everyday is going to be well eventhough in a snail-like pace, i hope?. what's life without its ups & downs, right? but i'm truly touched because my lovely friends have been giving me enough attention & encouragement & jokesjokesjokes & just jokes just to cheer me up. lol. LOVE YALL LAH! *smooches*

yesterday, i went to chevron with ayne for bowling. we had ball of time together. i swear, i love this babe a hell load & i pray so hard that i'll be in the same class as her in may. she's the eclipse of my heart. *hugs* irsyad has been the hopeless goodu! hahas. yet, he never fail to make me a happybaby with his merepek jokes. :) thanks ah eh friend. lol. ohoh btw roy, thanks for the song (music above), & the words of advices. it works, afterall! haha. & carebear, has been really really sugar enough to meet me under the void deck to talk to me, to make feel better by..... giving me the BEN&JERRY superfudge chunk! omgomg. buat senang jer. lol. kk jgn jealous ehh. THANKS A BILLION, LOVELIES! i treasure ya'll ah.

thanks kina. thanks jijah. thanks khai. =)))

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him."--Ralph Waldo Emerson

i've always love Mr.Ralph.

adios amigos. nighteees.

ends tonight.

2007-03-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

everything ends tonight. i'm moving on, i think?.

make sense

2007-03-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

i received an email from kelvin. i just highlighted a few. it make sense though. :)

Why is it that people say they “slept like a baby” when babies wake up every two hours?
Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?
Why doesn’t Tarzan have a beard?
What is the speed of darkness?
If it’s true that we are here to help others, what are the others doing here?
Can you cry underwater?
Did you ever stop and wonder…… Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, “I think I’ll squeeze these pink dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?”
Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don’t point to their bum when they ask where the bathroom is?
Why does your Obstetrician, Gynaecologist leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look up there anyway ?
If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests? (This one kills me !!!!)
If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from ?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons ?
Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune? Stop singing and read on . . . . . .. . . . .

think again.

and... i really love this part.

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

will blog again, later. ohtays.

maybe yes. maybe no.

2007-03-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

music [ my chemical romance- famous last words ]

again, the cloud poured its little pearls on this side of the country. i arrived an hourlate to school due the downpour & traffic jams. :) the weather is like a bedtime story.if someone were to put me to sleep, it will definitely work.

project was a bitch today. i scratched like a monkey when it comes to database. i wasreally dumbfounded. don't know how & what to do. and guess what, i need to hand in and present it fully by next week. =/ but on a brighter note, its the last week of school! yeah! my exam is on the 12th. and after that, 2months of holiday! AWESOME? yesyesyes! the sense of excitement is kicking in pretty fast.

ok hold on.i need to focus on my exams before enjoying the loveydovey hols to its climate.hahas. egg-cited, you. fortunately, i don't really need to worry about job. because daddy dan is going to give me a job at coffeebean. hopefully, i can get it. :)) put the fun & job aside. i need to focushocuspocus! ohh yeah.

DVD-ing. going to watch dreamgirls with sissy. she's waiting for me with a small cup ofben & jerry's ice cream by her side!! and she's threatening me by shouting at me that she's going to finish up the whole cup if i'm not there within 5 mins.sucker! lol.oh wait! WHAT?! ICE CREAM?! haha. sound so wrong on yeah, this kind of weather?? =X alrightey then. nightees && cheers!

=))))))))))))))))))))))))

falling star

2007-02-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

music [ all saints- chickfit ]

will be fine
i'm not fine.
maybe its the best for you to leave me alone

it was a horrendus downpour. and sleep was my drug. i've been feeling gloomy. but i was not alone. my second elder sister too, as she's having flu. we can't click today. both of us quarell over the littlest thing ever and both of us shut each other up. yeah, it tickled me a little. =/ anw. i had my practical exam today. it was too moderate too judge. but i was hoping the result will be piddling too. hopefully.

i will be turning in really late tonight. a few amendments to be done for the projects before presenting half of it tomorrow. i feel so jaded. i wish i can do something else now, like DVD-ing or CS-ing, cos' at least i can put the trouble/problem aside. BUT i frigging can't! by hook or by crook, i need to get it done.

i need to stop whinning and carry on. hope for the better days ahead. :) ohoh, tomorrow is the first day of the new month, which means its the 1st of March. tsktsk.

nightees earthlings. adios amigos!

miserable

2007-02-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

yeah, the title is the truth. i'm feeling miserable. dangs;
people always say, "once bitten, twice shy"
how about the second one? the third one? or tenth?
maybe you got no freaking idea how i feel.
maybe you should be extra careful with promises & words.
seriously, whatever.
its annoying.
=S

gorgeous you!

2007-02-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

i've asked around whether they know who's salma hayek. majority gave me a nope. so, here's SALMA HAYEK. i've always adore her features & acting. ain't she's hot & gorgeous? *nodshead*. this is for you, dydy. FYI, you.

& i saw this pictures in one of the superstars website. natalie portman digging her asshole? or scratching it? EWWWW. lol. but, it look cute though.

support campaign for beauty by dove. prevents plastic surgery. http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com.sg/

i'm getting egg-cited. dad's buying me a new mp3. hehe. like YAY.

where are you, dydy? =((

NUDGE!

feeling so gifted.

2007-02-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

music [ paramore- pressure ]

friday;
had retail theraphy with ayne babe & jocelyn at PS. after that catch a movie, norbit, at the Cathay. frankly, norbit was hilarious! i can't get my eyes off her big boobs & ass. lol. carebear mesti suker! tengok sampai senget. lol. then carebear sent my home by his dear honda fat. opps. honda fit la. hehe. thanks ayne & carebear. =D pleasant.

saturday;
the weekends were good, with a capital G. filled each other with love && happiness. =)) i went to WATEVAs chalet cum BBQ cum birthday party at costa sand, pasir ris, on saturday. i reached the place approximately at 4 in the afternoon. jijah & kina were actively busy cutting the veggies, chicken and cooking the noodle. not to mention, saiful & khai were attempting to cut the marinated black pepper chicken. hehehe. i came with hakim & dydy. as soon as i arrived, i lend a hand to the cutting of chicken & rinsing it. after a while, i went to cycle with dydy. we rent the bicycle for an hour & cycled around. i fell twice because i wasn't fit and chin-up enough to control the bicycle. hahas. i injured my thighs & ankle. on a happier note, both of us had a blast. yeah, it was helluva fun! =)))

at night.
we started our bbq-ing && the place was swamped by our friends and my friend's cousin. the foodies & junkies were scrumptious. for me, it was smooth-sailing eventhough a little glitch in the between. filled each other with stories && fits of laughter. yeah, i was obviously tickled-pink. so does the rest. :))) i've to thank the watevas kids for the wonderful day!

sunday;
get enough sleep && rest. watch HEROES & CSI, till 6 in the afternoon. rot in elder sister's house. played with aiman. yeah, thats it. lol.

PICTORIALS.

i hope my entry is sufficient compensation. i feel so hungrybungry! anw, HAPPY 18TH TO KHAIRUL && JIAH!!! nightees, earthlings.

i dont give a shit.

2007-02-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

music [ fergie feat ludacris- glamorous ]

i'm dead beat to the extreme. my eyes are heavily burning. but i need to do the first page for my project so that i can snooze peacefully tonight. tomorrow is going be a drag one. on a happier note, i'm going out with ayne, jocelyn & carebear. :)) yay! a short retail therapy & we are going to catch a movie after that. at least, i can temporarily put my mind at ease. you lovelies have no idea what's bothering me. but i prefer storing it in my heart. oh well, doesn't matter. tsktsk.

i HAVE TO wake up early tomorrow. because the MIO vendor is coming to set up the MIO box. and so, i HAVE TO make sure my bedroom & the computer, modem, etc corner is in a spick & span manner. so annoying, really. my dad is one of the kiasus in singapore. hurr. what can i expect? he's a singtel staff & has a chinese blood. =S ohh, i'm just gonna see whether he will keep his words to buy me a new handphone. my dad is so unreliable most of the time! goodness gracious. lol.

i love my mama. after the talk, i feel half lighter. =D

that's all for today. nightees earthlings. =))

there's a will, there's a way.

2007-02-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

music [ pink-nobody knows ]

school start at 12 today. *big smile *. we didn't do our practical eventhough there's a phase test on the 28th. oh no! instead, we were busy chuckling over our ex-es friendster profile && irsyad stoooo-pid jokes! lol. ohoh, anw, she's back. she has gained a lot of pound in her weight. oh well, i assume she must happy then. :) i'm glad she has recuperate. i hope so. heh.

on a higher note, i met jijah, kina, nas, khai, sharo, muhsin & shaiful earlier. kina, jijah & i were giggling by the side of the road. hahas. minus4 right kina? hahas. buat senang jer. I SAYANY YOU ALL LAH.

ok bye. lol.

close your eyes.

2007-02-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

music [ john mayer- waiting on the world to change ]

i'm so tickled pink. so was dydy. =)))) i present him a G-shock watch without even notice its wonderful features until dydy told me about it. lol. we were lovingly loving his 19th. i love you, baby. hope you love everything on the 19th of February. ;)

cloud9

here's the pictorials. we were playing, camwhoring && having fun although it was drizzling at that point of time.

i told you. we were having a ball of time! haha. alrightey lovelies. that's all for now. nightees. =DDD

*** HAPPY 18TH KINA SAYANG! ***

muah! =)) love ya.

HAPPY 19TH, DINESH. =)

2007-02-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

its your birthday.

HAPPY 19TH, DINESH!
hope you love the present &&& the day. =)))
yesyesyes. we had ball of time together.
no glitch either.
love you birthday boy.
*hugs && flying kisses*

PS: pictorials will be upload tomorrow. (:

cheers.

better be nice

2007-02-17T11:56:00.000+08:00

music [ lil flip- sunshine ]

thursday; 15 feb

the boyfriend gave me a fake flower yet beautiful to cover up his mistake. smarty-pants! lol. and we headed to westmall to catch a movie, ghost rider. its awesome! go catch it yall.

there's a lot of wonderful movies coming up. i'll make sure i watch every single great movie. anyone? hehe.

shower time. need to pay a visit to dadi ma's house later. (: happy weekends & happy hols! GONG XI FA CAI. ang pau lai. heh.

loves.

interested?

2007-02-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

anybody interested to make me? lol.

How to make a fidah

Ingredients:

1 part friendliness

1 part brilliance

5 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little lustfulness if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

you're my valentine

2007-02-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

music [ razorlight- america ]

i'm dead beat. it's valentine, yes. and i'm having fun. =) i've to thank the boyfriend for the late lunch at sakae sushi and archade (!!!!). haha. love you so, sayang. the pictorials will do the taking alright. (:

for me to him. =)

from him. an ESCADA perfume. =))))))))))))) thanks, boyfriend

night lovelies.

good for nothing

2007-02-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

school has really been a bitch. i'm fuming mad. to a certain someone who has not been co-operating that well or shall i say, erm, didn't play a part in our group, I THANK YOU FOR THAT.

watever.

more than words.

2007-02-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

music [ ciara- promise ]

my eyes are heavy. i helped my mum clean up the kitchen a few minutes ago eventhough i was totally shagged. went out with aiman & brother-in-law to jurong east & jurong point. brother-in-law & sissy seems to love the gift i bought for the boyfriend for v.day . lol. they appreciate my good taste ma! hehe. school start at 8 tomorrow. and i've a date with ayne darling too. loves <33>

a week more to his birthday. =)

i don't know why. it looks like you are always breaking my heart nowadays. despite whether you mean it or no. i'm tired love. yeah, i really am. i'll see you on wednesday.

nightees and cheerios.
:(

heroes

2007-02-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

music [ nickelback- if everyone cared ]

hello lovelies. (:

aiman & i met our uncle dinesh a few hours ago. we were playing and having fun under the beautiful moonlight. the indian apek who only came with singlet and short, & undergarments obviously, was sugary enough to give us love. he even blew bubbles for us. awww. haha. thanks, sayang.

anw. i had cramps and minor diarrhoe today. despite all, my appetite increases a hell load. haha. that's weird. certainly, drink plenty of water is the paramount. now, i'm having slight flu. argh. okay. i need panadol. i don't want to skip school because exams and phase test are around the corner, you see. tsktsk.

school start at 830 tomorrow. the boyfriend will be fetching me after that. (: prolly irsyad, roy, ayne & i will be staying back in school for project. hehe. wow. it tickles me to see that this time round, all of us are kind of serious or maybe more to enthu when it comes to project. hahaha. goodness gracious.

i'm in the elder sissy's house & will be spending the night here. yeay. i need to iron my uniform before cs-ing and turning in. i will miss the boyfriend tonight. i can't hear his kisses & 'i love you' through the phone. =( boohoo. okays, sleep well alright. lovelove.

ps: something in random. catch the heroes at starworld every wednesday at 9. i think? haha
http://www.nbc.com/Heroes/ maybe you can check out the website for more details. its intriguing. i love!

happy monday blues!

my favourite boy

2007-02-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

music [ gnarls barkley- gone daddy gone ]

i'm going to watch borat after posting an entry. i had only one answer to all my questions. all the mood-swing, temperature-rising, scoldings, and headache. i'm pms-ing. holy cow. i hate to go through the stomach cramps every month. really. i've to swallow the pink pill to make it better every month. yes, every month. sigh.

anw. i don't have any plans for the weekends. as usual, i spend the weekends in elder sissy's house. doing project, dvd-ing, cs-ing, bring aiman for a walk. i've never feel bored with aiman around. (: i'm planning to do something for the boyfriend. not only for thr 14th, but the 19th. those little ideas ring my bell! heh.

i'll be busy for the next few weeks. preparing for the exams, presentations & projects. sigh. while the watevas are busy thinking happily for the chalet, overnights, i'm still here, struggling. for the exams. moving inch by inch, before i can get to enjoy the 2 month holidays. i want to ace my exams so that i can get good grades, good gpa. yeah, i am jealous. i want to have fun lar! *sobsob* well, things don't always happen the way we want. i'm sure the watevas will enjoy the 3days to its peak even its without me. =)

patience is virtue.

i love the favourite boy's messy hair. but i love him more! sexy kankankan? hehehe. someone's birthday is coming. i want to be the reason of your smile. (:

dydy & shikin-19th
kina- 20th
miki kai- 25th
jijah- 26th

eggcited can! night, all.

ok go

2007-02-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

music [ ashley tisdale- be good to me ]

our initial plan to do our project was backfired because irsyad was too exhausted but he promised to make up for this day. and so, irsyad, ayne & i headed to jurong point for breakfast. and finally, i've bought a present for his 19. haha. shhh! eventhough its over the budget, i'm extremely sastified because my siblings & friends told me that the present was awesome. thanks for my good-taste lah eh. wuhhuuu. =p

anw. congrats to the people who received their results today. (: especially to jijah, leah & mariah.

i gtg.

oreo-licious

2007-02-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

music [ hilary duff - with love ]

in elder sissy's house. i'm going to spend the night here, with aiman sleeping by my side. hee. ayne, roy, irsyad && i went to jurong east mcdonald to do our project. ayne & i were touring the one side of jurong east entertainment looking for 'something'. hehe. thanks babe for the company! date for both of us tomorrow? yes? anw, i saw nas, khai & sharir infront of the mcdonald when ayne & i were on our way to meet our boyfriend. belajar seh! haha.

the fits of laughter i had with irsyad, ayne & roy, sums up my day. =))))) i better continue the research on my project before CS-ing then turning in. something in random, i'm dipping the oreo into the milk, for supper. now. yes! scrumptious to the maxim can. haha. jangan jealous k.

i love you, my favourite boy.

night all! sleep tight tight. sugar dreams. loves.

gol & gincu

2007-02-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

music [ dashboard confessional- vindicated ]

i wish whenever i'm feeling low, i can sit on top of a roof, surrounded by candlelights, & a bestest girlfriend to hug me. just like gol & gincu. awww. lol.

i didn't get to update yesterday because i was busy teaching the brog-in-law how to play cs. haha. and by the time i reached home from elder sissy's house, i'm dead beat. ok anw, i went to follow dydy to NP. i had an awesome time with faizal, alfie baby & isma. and i really have to thank isma for the prisonbreak season 2. yayy! haha. i can oogleboogle at wentworth more often now. =)

today.
i'm glad that at least i know a tinge bit of asp. somehow make life easier to do the project. (: the boyfriend fetched me from school and we headed to clementi because i was craving for tomyam soup. hehe. thanks, love.

i need to charge the lappie now.

goodnigght.

the 480 posts. heh~

2007-02-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

music [ gwen stefani feat akon- sweet escape ]

the weekends were spent at elder sister's house. =) my whole family overnight at sissy's house including my dad, SURPRISINGLY. and my lovely aunties came over to pay all of us a visit. hehe. basically the days were a mind-free from projects, specializations, sickness & problems (?). i substitute it with doing jigsaw puzzle, dvd-ing, cs-ing, playing with aiman, watching soccer match, ps2-ing. ohoh, eat-ing too! i really think i love weekends.

earlier, my elder sissy decided to pamper our mouth with pizzas from pizzahut. an hour before singaporevsthailand match started, she ordered for us. yummymummy! i'm dead full! hah. really. hawaiian pizza rock my stomach lah. anw, singapore won thailand, 3-2 in aggregate. congrats you! i know how sucks the singaporean players play. however, we need to appreciate and become a pillar for our local players because no matter what, they are the ones who represent our lovely country. and they are the one who's going to give singapore a good name in sports. at least there's something to be proud of in this small country. so to those who heck about our local, stop criticising and complaining like a dumb blonde (macam paham jer), instead try to be 'good for something' for our country. thankyou.

i think cristiano ronaldo new hair cut make him look so kental. lol. ehhh, still gorgeous okays. yeah, random. i'm watching the totenham vs manchester united match live at espn. at the same time, doing research for our projects. dydy is back from work! yay. i can hear his bike sound when he ride pass my block. hehe. oh, where was i? ya, projects. the projects need to be done by end of this month. =S but still, the 14th in my mind. hehehe. ;)

i took two days to complete the 300 pieces of jigsaw puzzle.

look at my baby amir. he look bigger! haha. charming kan kan kan?

hello. i'm fidah, this is my friend, stuart. stuart little. =)

someone's birthday coming hah. hehe. love you, dydy.

i'm done for today. sleep well, lovelies. with love.

lazyyyy

2007-02-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

music [ blue october- calling you ]

hello.
school ended at 10 in the morning today. ayne, irysad & i went to have breakfast at mcdonald. ayne & i had an idea what to buy for our boyfriends on valentine. secret! wait till the 14th kays. lol. & still planning for the boyfriend birthday. =)

&&&& dooo the projects this coming weeeek! -.-

spending 24 hour at elder sister's house tomorrow.

errr, nighty.

reperee

2007-01-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

music [ craig david- unbelievable ]

i'm extremely exhausted. will make it fast & short.

reached home from national stadium half an hour ago. i'm tickled pink. because i shouted my lungs out with the boyfriend. the hurrah and kallang wave of the fans filled the stadium. i've to thanks brog-in-law for the ride. =) so, singapore won thailand 2-1, for the first leg. at least, the 7bucks was worth it. hehe.

anw. gonna start the second project soon. need to do some research. and i need to consider what specializations to take for second year. tsktsk. yeah, thats random.

ok, i'm off to lala-land. night you! -_-