i'm d 1 suffering frem d start.

holla. expectedly, i cried wen the time come whereby, i needa say goodbye to my colleagues who was around. people like, Angie, Siti, Ayu & Moe Thu, was by my side. i couldnt control animore, cos they are my happiness. all my problems cleared frem my mind, whenever i go werk. now, theres no more. hais. Ayu teared along. i still have my sadness now. i hugged&kissed em, b4 leaving. thanks love, fer d gift. it will be different now......... *sob sob* i'm crying typing this...... i'm gonna miss you guys alot, esp talking about LEE& our craziness. you guys dont know how much you mean to me. i love you, i swear, i do! =D it doesnt stop here, rite????? i noe. K.I.T, love.

gonna pack my bag soon. hmm, thinking wat to wear&bring fer 2rw's outing to SENTOSA. yeahh! the moment i've been waiting fer. sumhow, enables me to kill my sorrowness be it regarding with my colleagues or HIM. have fun&enjoy, tts my motive. spend time with my love ones, the WATEVAs. DB joining us after his werk which is around 3 plus. YEAHH! d more the merrier. so WATEVAs see ya at 10 2mrw ya.

cos we lost it all. nothing last forever, i'm sorry i cant be perfect. now its just too late& we cant go back, i'm sorry, i cant be perfect. i'm the 1 suffering ferst wen the shit happen during our relationship. the past.... it means alot to me. u wont understand me. its all fear, tt it might happen AGAIN. who noes. yeahh, u both are meant to be together. shant disturb you animore. prayed tt u r happy with her. i'm happy fer you. i can just afford to smile fer you. its still painful, till now............... fuck em.

this is ME&my angie baby. she rock my world, every single day. i love her the most!

*mic test* ahem. this is the GERL, ayu. HAHAs. there she go, there she go again, with the LEE-madness. whahaha~ i'll never never ferget tt Ayu. thanks fer d handbag aniway. i'm gonna miss your nonsense, esp. i like to move it, move it. *shakes butt* hahas. muah!

i used to ditch her. now, not anymore. shes unique&special. my gorgeous partner. i'll miss you la Kak Siti. sumhow, u brighten my day. & damn, u r hilarious! HAHAs. take care of your family ok, endurance, the worth-it policy. i love you. & thanks fer the rocher. =D

this is me&ako (moe thu). thanks d chocolates. you noe tts my fav. HAHAs. thanks fer being the nicest guy dere. gonna miss you, ako.

the love, the hate

holla. crashing on my bad pretty soon, yo. hell-exhausted. =S just now, its like the part of WATEVAs meet-up. wahaha~ lei, kai, nas&jun was dere, waiting fer me at JP. yeahh, once again, they cheered me up, wenever i'm feeling down, down, down. & as a starter, i turn into my mad-NESS, den. DB came with me. WEE~ he can really get along quite well with my lovelies. lucks, my WATEVAs feel comfortable wen hes around. i'm loving my WATEVAs so much! few hrs later after our lepak-inc, kiki came to join us. an-all-of-a-sudden mind-stricken, we went thru wen she called us, in a panic way. PHEW~ glad shes alright nw. funny la u dear. niway, i love you too, love. dont worry, the WATEVAs will always be there fer in your rainy days. ALWAYS** muah! at least, i have d smile =D with LOVE around me.

i felt tt i'm losing sumone, but guess, hes drifting away frem me. he don want the friendship, wat else shuld i do?? i always need you here, by my side. hais. no matter u r, there is you in my heart. ever. you complete my life, but wen u go away(i dont want you to.), my life is totally incomplete. i'm a bastard, i know very well. go&be happy. if u feel like msging or talking to me, i'll be glad to talk you. you will have ur happiness, i'm sure u will. i can always be replace. but fer my case, theres only 1 dydy in my life. urging to msg u, & ask, how are you?, but it hold back, cos i'm very sure frem "the day" ownwards, u r gonna avoid me. i dont feel good. if tt can make u happy, i guess, i'll be alrite about it. thanks fer d love, thanks fer changing my life, thanks fer EVERYTHING. thank you.

i'm missing you....................

~toodles.

he make me feel weak.

holla baybeh! unexpectedly, robert told me tt i can go home, WAHAHA~ cos, he owe me few hrs. i was damn contented, but then, i gotta wait fer my DB to reach CTP. TODAY, was great+lil sucks, at the end. i met LEI baby&miki KAI at J.E. lepak-ing as usuals. eurgh! envy LEI highlighted-blonde-hair. curly twirly, too. SO NICE LA~! *jealous* hahaX. as usual, my gorgeous sweetheart. we had fun& we giggled all the day. again, reminscing about our school days la, camp days la, & told lei tt my camp-instructor was super SUCKS, tt he actually made me tear on tt performance nite. DAMN IT.

per usual, my crazi-NESS&silly-NESS. kai&lei was damn hilarious~ those annoying words:: SUPER SUCK-UP, PIMP----PLES!!, & YELLOW-YELLOW. whahahhahha!! =D laugh like nobody business. & yeahh, we took some photos. eurgh. our hugs&kisses, we HAD FUN!! kai treat us there chocolate cake, THANKS MIKI. ! =D loving free food oreadi. *oink oink* u noe, i'm getting IMPATIENT!! cant wait fer this SAT. hey WATEVAs, meet at 11am, J.E interchange ya, dont b late, pls. HAHAs. dont wanna be dub as LATE-KING or LATE-QUEEN, make sure on time, yar. HEHE. =p after tt, we played taiti, & headed home. YIPEE! *BEAMS*

y cant you get the picture??? the love is dere, but........ its futile. everything has changed fer the betterSS. i'm happy with myself now, dy. i dont even tink of drifting away, wats more, leaving you. NEVER slip in my mind. i noe its wrong fer me to sacrifice myself just fer ya happiness, but i'm just keeping my words. if you are happy, i'm happy. i wish all the shits tt has happened, didnt happen, but too bad, it has already happened. the past, dydy.... the past.. my dad, ur dad.... hais. 8 mths... HAIS! i'm making up my mind. like wat u utter to me, the earlier the better rite?? blame me, if i hurt you. blame me, if i make u suffer. i'm willing fer all the blames, dy. i SWEAR, no crossing fingers. i WISH, we can be friends, like the 3 yrs back. i wish.....

waiting fer DB's msg or call. & then, gonna land on my bed. having bad-ache, heart-ache, mind-ache. love, love. ~toodles. 12am. *ding dong*

we arent LES-bi or sumtink, we r just the BEST OF FRIENDS!! i love this gurlfren of MINE, alot!! muah! muah! thanks fer d day, gorgeous.

here we r in the hse. kai, u look like a pimp la~! hahaX. lovelies+besties! shall keep you both. i love you both!!!!!! RUL DA LEI. salleh don dale! wahahhaa~ =D *hugs&bites*

le-thar-gic, YES!

holla. getting tipsy&getting sleepy. bad day, tired day, hell day. i was extremely lethargic, i felt so feeble tt i cant even walk or stand properly. i look like a drunkard woman. HAHAx. gonna straight-away crash on my bed after submitting my post.

the fact is, i'm sick&tired of work already la, so sian liao. but heck, left around 3 days more, & god-noes-wat-happen on tt day. i cry? i smile?? or... eurgh, i donno. love is so complicated yo?? yeahh, to me, maybe. it is, perhaps. i dont know how to express my feelings, cos whenever i tried to express it, i will start to feel so frigging jaded. as it is impossible. it is overwhelming, but i guess you will never get to feel how i feel. i'm referring to MR "ALL THESE THINGS I HATE"...... y did i have "this" feeling, which i wouldnt want to preferred. damn, truly annoys me. HELP!

SENTOSA is always in my mind...
WATEVAs is in my mind...
rauf is in my mind.....
fazzley is in too...
& HIM... u-noe-who

~toodles.

tinng-eling.

holy shit! mek nab, died in a cruel way, seriously. the pictures, really lead to a bad nightmare fer me, & suffering frem shiver-syndrome fer a sec. & i nw, i'm transmitting it to miki. he's oreadi contracted with d disease. eurgh. painful rite, fren??? i felt like puking wen i look at the pic, at ferst. so poor thing la~ ok, stop toking about it. sorry miki, cos i didnt warn u earlier. didnt noe tt u have the allergy, just like me. hahas. cool down, love.

cant wait fer this upcoming meet-up. YEAHH~ but at the same time, feel down cos i'm gonna leave my colleagues pretty soon. counting down the days........ 3 days more la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck, very fast very fast, really! hais. no more waiting fer Deli Boys. fuck it. tts hell-bored~ nvmind, cant lepak-ing with WATEVAs more. YEAHH! tts the good thing la.

to DB dear, i'm sorry if i hurt you. love, love.

sleepy. ~toodles.

SENTOSA, here WE come.

holla. SENTOSA~~!!!! eurgh. it has been ages since i go to the beach. i'm tempting& my legs itch to go dere lar. WATEVAs, this upcoming SAT, orite?? how bout tt?? i've discuss with lei, sharir&miki, & they agreed to our meet-up venue. damn! i cant wait to have fun with you guys, opps! i'm sorry, i'm booked by my hot-besties, WATEVAs, yeahh. hmm, confirm with me or lei by this WED, if possible?? cos we needa make certain arrangement, about our food&stuff. hahas. gerls, get on with ur bikinis. dont dilly dally, we gonna rock the whole damn place. hehehehe!! i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait!!!!!!!!! ok, enuf. WAHHA!! =D too contented.

ok, a small werld. didnt noe tt rauf noe dy&nurul. now u noe rauf?? still wanna get angry?? ur old-friends, cmon man. *ahem* ok, i will zip my mouth. god-damn you. hmmpphh! *jealous* nvmmind, shall nt brood over it. but i dont noe y did the hell am i feeling angry nw?????? eurgh. it sucks. aite, wanna rest on my bed. aniway DB, i guess u r asleep. see you in DREAM-land or to you, is LALA-land. hahaX. sleep well, arse.

~toodles.

mind-freak

holla. i love my MIKI KAI & NAS baybeh. hahas. JUN, is hell gorgeous. i love ur laugh to bits, cute cute. i had fun with u guys just nw, tho fer a while. shall lepak-ing often. all our memories, back again, reminscing it, & yeahh, we made a fool about it. loving nas wen i was SEC 1 la, damn it, its so delirious!! i swear~ hahaX. i miss you guys la, hmm. our outing, VERY VERY soon. at last, nas, we get to do our trademark. YyeahH~~!! hey miki kai, ur niki can really pujuk u la, dont worry ok & yeahh, to u both, hunks, not all girls d same OKKKK~!~ idiot! i shall keep you both, HMM, cos i'm loving you both so so much~ even jun is on my list, hehe. kai, send me our pics ok. wanna post it la, cant wait! & thanks guys, fer lending your EARS, i'm glad u r there fer me. =D *yawns* landing.........

love, love.