f off!

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hey hey hey.. aloha man.. gee... now in skul.. the comp lab.. gee... guess i'm quite upset with life diz few days.. "he" confessess to me that he love n i'm his MG.. n on one day, he sound me.. wee... i dont know coz he just a fren of mine.. he's a very nice guy.. gentelman.. adores his characteristics n personality.. he got the full package of my dream guy.. but too bad, i dont love him.. he cant force me to love him rite.. all this while we have been close, its impossible tat we will b together...yeah.. nothing is impossible.. quite true.. but i got a reason in what i do.. y i reject him? coz i dont have the feelings for him.. abit yesh but .... there's other guy hanging on my heart.. its difficult u see.. y cant he understand my situation..

he will be in my heart forever but remain as a bro to me.. we cant be together.. this 3 yrs n half, i've been treating him like my own bro where i can share my feelings n problems with..i told him tat i need the time to think.. that he said, for the time being, just b frenz.. ya ok.. thats fine wit me.. i'm under confusion now.. his fren love to influence me.. gee... i'm not worth it.. i noe that once i'm with him, i'll b the most jovial gerl.. the main prob is, once we r together, i don wanna his impression towards me change..now, after rejecting him, he dont really talk to me.. haiz.. haiz.. i donno wat to say.. i'm slacking.. problems are haunting me down.. he's trying to avoid me.. yeah.. kina said i have to "face it" soon.. its not that easy.. this yr is my important yr..

i don wanna waste my fucking time focusing on this kind of stuff.. u noe wat.. i'm pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not trying to give him hope.. thats not my intention...i just feel that me life is nothing.. i don wanna laugh, smile.. i juz wanna b ALonE!! zal is another prob.. he's playing wit my feelings.. n i anti tat kind of irritating motherfucker!! y did he have to do this to me?? am i a doll to him?? he acts as if nothing happen btween me n him.. fuck off!! i dont this kind of guy in my life.. he told he hates hurting anybody.. bbual WORLD ar!!

i dont expect anything from him.. i need SINCERITY from him.. honesty is virtue... he treats me like fuck, i treat like fuck too... i dont give a damn on such guy.. sumtimes i gave him a smirk smile.. y did he have to hurt me?? y at the first place he became close to me, confessess me?? and y did he left me??probably, he got no answer to this.. sick n tired of it.. yeah me got to go.. wish me for the best ya.. take care.. love ya.. muacks!!