time apart in a relationship is just as important as time together. one of the primary sub-concious fears that many men carry is that such liaisons will spell the end of his much prized sense of independence
[how could this happenin to me] cry or to smile?? pressurize. life is not as cheerful as b4, not as colourful as b4, not as beautiful as b4. world; moody, cloudy, dark, silence. insider her, pain, distress, sullen, heartbroken, pierced. no pillar of strength to hold on to. nothing. life is blank. cranky? i dont tink so. i just hate d premonitions i'm having now. i needa break. d cloud is crying wit me. d birds are chirping wit me. plants are growing wit me, strongly, highly. people? haiz. my love ones, they weakened me, demoralising me. i wanna move away but i just cant. they pulled n dragged me back.
i wanna scream, they fuck me off. things are so complicated. liberty, space is all i need. deleting probs frem my hard drive is wat i wish fer! tts all. paranoid, insecure, uncontrollable, darn! i'm nt d real ME. i wan things to b back to normal. the cheeerful me, d craziee me, the bubbly mr but something is stopping me. something is holding it back. the day goes on as i'm fading away. i'm sick of this life. i just wanna scream. everything is bothering me. the atmosphere, the environment, d lving tinks. apparently, i'm tongue tied. crying, sobbing is all i can afford rite now. my eyes had been closed all this while. i cant plucked up the courage. i felt someone out dere gripped tightenly around my neck. i'm fading away................................................
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