cranky to d core!

7/9/05

EY-YOO!!! *grins* i'm feeling cranky d whole crapta day! fucking pisses off fer no reasons. my fucking stomach grumbling. n i felt like puking. the Maths & Science formulaes are controlling my brain rite now. maybe its because of the hot weather, or d mess of my room which was distorted by my fucking cousins. i felt like scolding everyone around me. i'm burning. even now, i felt like fucking off my bloody laptop!! ahhh! i just donno y. i felt like shouting, STOP THIS BULLSHIT THINGY, BITCH!! wats d fucking wrong wit me?? y all of a sudden? or i'm affected by ysterday's ugly nightmare??!! WTF!!

everything seems wrong today. i'm feeling lonely. sheeshh! i hate boreness! its killing me! that bastard msg me, unexpectedly. he turned me off as well. on d other side, HE'S enjoying wit his friends. i wanna meet him, but didnt get a chance to. he's too fucking busy. HAIZ! oh god, please sent sumone which can spent his/her time wit me fer 24/7. HE's treating me like wat tt bastard treated me before. i suffered ALONE bcos of tt! i cried to MYSELF! bcos of tt! n now, it happen again. am i too selfish??? am i controlling him?? do u tink i'm insensitive?? do u tink i'm too emotional??? y did i have to burst into tears??? y?????

i wanna spent time wit him. time is running out. prelims is nearing. once it start, i wont be able to talk n meet him tt often. shit! i cant even concentrate on my studies now! fuck! fuck! fuck! does anybody cast a stupid spell on me???!! he's enjoying, i endured fer d past few days. fuck la! wats wrong wit me???!!! guess i'm traumatised. guess i dont want to repeat d same mistake. but NOW, it seems that HISTORY IS GONNA REPEAT ITSELF. i'm alone! got it??? i had no one to turn to. damn it! its nt spurious, its d truth. i'm off frem this cruel werld.

shake tt thing off!