Tuesday, November 01, 2005

bad gf!

i was caught red-handed by him. certainly by D. darn it. i'm sucha DUMB-ASS!! i agreed i'm a bad gf. he's furious. hes pissed off. i noe tt very well. even if hes gonna move away frem me, i'm nt suprise. its all my fault! i deserve any punishment. i havta face d music. i ruin & spoil everything. how cruel can i be??!! if he tink i'm a bitch, i deserve d title.

i shuld spare a thought fer him. at least. i scolded my sis just now, fer no reason. i'm sorry sis! i loitered around d void deck, nowhere to run & go. i felt remorseful. shuts fida! ive been weeping since just now. such a waste dumbass! ur crying over a spill milk fida??? u cant turn back, fuck. i tried to stop my tears frem oozing down profusely, but i just cant. i felt so weak. i felt fucking useless, fucking guilty. darn it. i'm so bad. i noe its futile to explain & apologise to him. haiz. hes hurt. i felt so useless. infact i am.


thanks to kiki & lei who cheer me up n console me. i deserve it gf!

i dont expect him to trust me like he use tp. i dont expect him to love me like he always do. but i hope he will forgive me for my wrongdoings. shame on me! i shall stop my nonsensical fucking habit. yes!! i have to. i love him alot. i don wanna hurt him animore. but i need his support & help, but to no avail. wat can i say? i shall leave him alone. if he thought of leaving me, im physically & mentally prepare. haiz. i don wan history to repeat itself. i wanna start anew. i SWEAR.

thanks darls. i'm really really sorry. (take it or leave it)

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY, darls baby.
(thanks to me. a fucker who spoil d day!)

ps: HAPPY 2ND MTH ANNIVERSARY to lei & cko


lastly, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

~toodles.

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