fuck it. sucks~

goodbye, my lover. goodbye, my friend.


why did i always have to be the middle-person?? & why did i always have to feel hurt??
yeahh. i agree, i've been lying to you, lately but frankly, i've been lying to myself more. i'm the most fucking liar, here. LIAR&a LOSER. doubble L's.

it sucks, when i have to go thru everything by myself.
it sucks, when he or em dont understand me
it sucks more, when i cant make him happy on his special day.
it sucks more, when we quarell on his day.
it sucks the most, when he make wild guess & accusations, wen its not true.
it sucks the most mostly most of all, when he reject my present & just walk away.
it sucks.....................

i'm drench wit tears. hurt, so so hurt. i dont have the ability, to listen to anybody advice, anymore. FUCK. i've changed& i'm fading away. this what i get, i too think, i deserve it. i hide everything, wit good intention. y cant u feel how i feel?? its impossible. i'm frigging hurt, the feeling is so terrible. you, deserve a better girl den me. i'm a burden to you, my religion too. my future, my life. thanks, fer everything. i'm zipping my mouth, & i just wanna walk alone& be alone.

its hard fer me to forgive&forget this time. it hurt so much, den anitink else. hais. i'm totally mind-stricken. we pissed each other, good. i'm trashing the useless birthday present. goodbye, priceless&meaningless present. its fading more. heard of a love game?? it can gain&fade, & gain again, & yeahh, expectedly, fade again. fuck it.

& lei baby, i love you so much, sweetheart.~

~toodles.