hais

i dont use to be like i use to be. yes, i agree, i tink too much, lately. & i've been a day-dreamer&later, tearing, fer no-hell reasons. it sucks, more. i'm feeling much much culpable den b4, cos i guess i'm jeopardizing a friendship. yeahh, MR, i've shown my true colours. no longer, no longer, no longer have d capability to control my own feelings. i dont tink i owe anybody an apology. finally, she got to feel how i feel, cos she has been thru it too. blissful. i know tt you will understand me. i'm just being frank, as tts how i feel inside me.

*you should tell me the truth. no point fingers.

is god showing us, we r not meant to be together?? i dont know. seperation wont do any good, u r rite, nurul. i'm washing my hands off as fer nw. filled with storms, totally. try to be happy, he spoilt it, great. vengeance, more pls.

i feel so so shitty cos, my problems with dy will never end,
feel shitty cos happiness will stay fer a while& it gone again&again,
feel shitty cos i tink i'm drifting away, per usual.
feel shitty cos, i guess i'm d fire who is trying to destroy d whole hse.
feel a shitty jitty cos, 2mrw is d release of my results.
feel shitty cos, ITE here i come.
feel shitty cos, i've shown my true colours.

hais. hais. hais. leia baby, being frank&telling him how i feel, isnt a good idea, at all. see, i told you, i tried but it will never never work out right. i'm useless, la lei. i cant afford to do anytink except teared&hurt him. i'm getting things back on d rite track, wit her, cos yar, pple make mistakes&i dont wanna lose a special fren like her. friendship, comes ferst, follow by relationship, i agree miki. i shuldnt talk about it, cos it hurts. give me d taste. 1 werd, apt to create more quarells. hais. hais. i shall shut my mouth, & keep everything to myself. we need a break. wat else can i do??? ~~ hais. =X this feeling, sucks. pretty well. i hurt her, i hurt him. maybe then need each other, i dont know. well, well, well. cut it. my mind is blank. speechless. lets wait&see.

i'm missing tt "someone" i truly love. how are you? how have u been?? i miss crying to you, laughing with you, hug you & talk to you. i wish you r here, rite now. but it seems, u r so far away.

i'm a burden to YOU&YOU too.



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