i'm d 1 suffering frem d start.

holla. expectedly, i cried wen the time come whereby, i needa say goodbye to my colleagues who was around. people like, Angie, Siti, Ayu & Moe Thu, was by my side. i couldnt control animore, cos they are my happiness. all my problems cleared frem my mind, whenever i go werk. now, theres no more. hais. Ayu teared along. i still have my sadness now. i hugged&kissed em, b4 leaving. thanks love, fer d gift. it will be different now......... *sob sob* i'm crying typing this...... i'm gonna miss you guys alot, esp talking about LEE& our craziness. you guys dont know how much you mean to me. i love you, i swear, i do! =D it doesnt stop here, rite????? i noe. K.I.T, love.

gonna pack my bag soon. hmm, thinking wat to wear&bring fer 2rw's outing to SENTOSA. yeahh! the moment i've been waiting fer. sumhow, enables me to kill my sorrowness be it regarding with my colleagues or HIM. have fun&enjoy, tts my motive. spend time with my love ones, the WATEVAs. DB joining us after his werk which is around 3 plus. YEAHH! d more the merrier. so WATEVAs see ya at 10 2mrw ya.

cos we lost it all. nothing last forever, i'm sorry i cant be perfect. now its just too late& we cant go back, i'm sorry, i cant be perfect. i'm the 1 suffering ferst wen the shit happen during our relationship. the past.... it means alot to me. u wont understand me. its all fear, tt it might happen AGAIN. who noes. yeahh, u both are meant to be together. shant disturb you animore. prayed tt u r happy with her. i'm happy fer you. i can just afford to smile fer you. its still painful, till now............... fuck em.

this is ME&my angie baby. she rock my world, every single day. i love her the most!

*mic test* ahem. this is the GERL, ayu. HAHAs. there she go, there she go again, with the LEE-madness. whahaha~ i'll never never ferget tt Ayu. thanks fer d handbag aniway. i'm gonna miss your nonsense, esp. i like to move it, move it. *shakes butt* hahas. muah!

i used to ditch her. now, not anymore. shes unique&special. my gorgeous partner. i'll miss you la Kak Siti. sumhow, u brighten my day. & damn, u r hilarious! HAHAs. take care of your family ok, endurance, the worth-it policy. i love you. & thanks fer the rocher. =D

this is me&ako (moe thu). thanks d chocolates. you noe tts my fav. HAHAs. thanks fer being the nicest guy dere. gonna miss you, ako.

the love, the hate

holla. crashing on my bad pretty soon, yo. hell-exhausted. =S just now, its like the part of WATEVAs meet-up. wahaha~ lei, kai, nas&jun was dere, waiting fer me at JP. yeahh, once again, they cheered me up, wenever i'm feeling down, down, down. & as a starter, i turn into my mad-NESS, den. DB came with me. WEE~ he can really get along quite well with my lovelies. lucks, my WATEVAs feel comfortable wen hes around. i'm loving my WATEVAs so much! few hrs later after our lepak-inc, kiki came to join us. an-all-of-a-sudden mind-stricken, we went thru wen she called us, in a panic way. PHEW~ glad shes alright nw. funny la u dear. niway, i love you too, love. dont worry, the WATEVAs will always be there fer in your rainy days. ALWAYS** muah! at least, i have d smile =D with LOVE around me.

i felt tt i'm losing sumone, but guess, hes drifting away frem me. he don want the friendship, wat else shuld i do?? i always need you here, by my side. hais. no matter u r, there is you in my heart. ever. you complete my life, but wen u go away(i dont want you to.), my life is totally incomplete. i'm a bastard, i know very well. go&be happy. if u feel like msging or talking to me, i'll be glad to talk you. you will have ur happiness, i'm sure u will. i can always be replace. but fer my case, theres only 1 dydy in my life. urging to msg u, & ask, how are you?, but it hold back, cos i'm very sure frem "the day" ownwards, u r gonna avoid me. i dont feel good. if tt can make u happy, i guess, i'll be alrite about it. thanks fer d love, thanks fer changing my life, thanks fer EVERYTHING. thank you.

i'm missing you....................

~toodles.

he make me feel weak.

holla baybeh! unexpectedly, robert told me tt i can go home, WAHAHA~ cos, he owe me few hrs. i was damn contented, but then, i gotta wait fer my DB to reach CTP. TODAY, was great+lil sucks, at the end. i met LEI baby&miki KAI at J.E. lepak-ing as usuals. eurgh! envy LEI highlighted-blonde-hair. curly twirly, too. SO NICE LA~! *jealous* hahaX. as usual, my gorgeous sweetheart. we had fun& we giggled all the day. again, reminscing about our school days la, camp days la, & told lei tt my camp-instructor was super SUCKS, tt he actually made me tear on tt performance nite. DAMN IT.

per usual, my crazi-NESS&silly-NESS. kai&lei was damn hilarious~ those annoying words:: SUPER SUCK-UP, PIMP----PLES!!, & YELLOW-YELLOW. whahahhahha!! =D laugh like nobody business. & yeahh, we took some photos. eurgh. our hugs&kisses, we HAD FUN!! kai treat us there chocolate cake, THANKS MIKI. ! =D loving free food oreadi. *oink oink* u noe, i'm getting IMPATIENT!! cant wait fer this SAT. hey WATEVAs, meet at 11am, J.E interchange ya, dont b late, pls. HAHAs. dont wanna be dub as LATE-KING or LATE-QUEEN, make sure on time, yar. HEHE. =p after tt, we played taiti, & headed home. YIPEE! *BEAMS*

y cant you get the picture??? the love is dere, but........ its futile. everything has changed fer the betterSS. i'm happy with myself now, dy. i dont even tink of drifting away, wats more, leaving you. NEVER slip in my mind. i noe its wrong fer me to sacrifice myself just fer ya happiness, but i'm just keeping my words. if you are happy, i'm happy. i wish all the shits tt has happened, didnt happen, but too bad, it has already happened. the past, dydy.... the past.. my dad, ur dad.... hais. 8 mths... HAIS! i'm making up my mind. like wat u utter to me, the earlier the better rite?? blame me, if i hurt you. blame me, if i make u suffer. i'm willing fer all the blames, dy. i SWEAR, no crossing fingers. i WISH, we can be friends, like the 3 yrs back. i wish.....

waiting fer DB's msg or call. & then, gonna land on my bed. having bad-ache, heart-ache, mind-ache. love, love. ~toodles. 12am. *ding dong*

we arent LES-bi or sumtink, we r just the BEST OF FRIENDS!! i love this gurlfren of MINE, alot!! muah! muah! thanks fer d day, gorgeous.

here we r in the hse. kai, u look like a pimp la~! hahaX. lovelies+besties! shall keep you both. i love you both!!!!!! RUL DA LEI. salleh don dale! wahahhaa~ =D *hugs&bites*

le-thar-gic, YES!

holla. getting tipsy&getting sleepy. bad day, tired day, hell day. i was extremely lethargic, i felt so feeble tt i cant even walk or stand properly. i look like a drunkard woman. HAHAx. gonna straight-away crash on my bed after submitting my post.

the fact is, i'm sick&tired of work already la, so sian liao. but heck, left around 3 days more, & god-noes-wat-happen on tt day. i cry? i smile?? or... eurgh, i donno. love is so complicated yo?? yeahh, to me, maybe. it is, perhaps. i dont know how to express my feelings, cos whenever i tried to express it, i will start to feel so frigging jaded. as it is impossible. it is overwhelming, but i guess you will never get to feel how i feel. i'm referring to MR "ALL THESE THINGS I HATE"...... y did i have "this" feeling, which i wouldnt want to preferred. damn, truly annoys me. HELP!

SENTOSA is always in my mind...
WATEVAs is in my mind...
rauf is in my mind.....
fazzley is in too...
& HIM... u-noe-who

~toodles.

tinng-eling.

holy shit! mek nab, died in a cruel way, seriously. the pictures, really lead to a bad nightmare fer me, & suffering frem shiver-syndrome fer a sec. & i nw, i'm transmitting it to miki. he's oreadi contracted with d disease. eurgh. painful rite, fren??? i felt like puking wen i look at the pic, at ferst. so poor thing la~ ok, stop toking about it. sorry miki, cos i didnt warn u earlier. didnt noe tt u have the allergy, just like me. hahas. cool down, love.

cant wait fer this upcoming meet-up. YEAHH~ but at the same time, feel down cos i'm gonna leave my colleagues pretty soon. counting down the days........ 3 days more la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck, very fast very fast, really! hais. no more waiting fer Deli Boys. fuck it. tts hell-bored~ nvmind, cant lepak-ing with WATEVAs more. YEAHH! tts the good thing la.

to DB dear, i'm sorry if i hurt you. love, love.

sleepy. ~toodles.

SENTOSA, here WE come.

holla. SENTOSA~~!!!! eurgh. it has been ages since i go to the beach. i'm tempting& my legs itch to go dere lar. WATEVAs, this upcoming SAT, orite?? how bout tt?? i've discuss with lei, sharir&miki, & they agreed to our meet-up venue. damn! i cant wait to have fun with you guys, opps! i'm sorry, i'm booked by my hot-besties, WATEVAs, yeahh. hmm, confirm with me or lei by this WED, if possible?? cos we needa make certain arrangement, about our food&stuff. hahas. gerls, get on with ur bikinis. dont dilly dally, we gonna rock the whole damn place. hehehehe!! i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait, i cant wait!!!!!!!!! ok, enuf. WAHHA!! =D too contented.

ok, a small werld. didnt noe tt rauf noe dy&nurul. now u noe rauf?? still wanna get angry?? ur old-friends, cmon man. *ahem* ok, i will zip my mouth. god-damn you. hmmpphh! *jealous* nvmmind, shall nt brood over it. but i dont noe y did the hell am i feeling angry nw?????? eurgh. it sucks. aite, wanna rest on my bed. aniway DB, i guess u r asleep. see you in DREAM-land or to you, is LALA-land. hahaX. sleep well, arse.

~toodles.

mind-freak

holla. i love my MIKI KAI & NAS baybeh. hahas. JUN, is hell gorgeous. i love ur laugh to bits, cute cute. i had fun with u guys just nw, tho fer a while. shall lepak-ing often. all our memories, back again, reminscing it, & yeahh, we made a fool about it. loving nas wen i was SEC 1 la, damn it, its so delirious!! i swear~ hahaX. i miss you guys la, hmm. our outing, VERY VERY soon. at last, nas, we get to do our trademark. YyeahH~~!! hey miki kai, ur niki can really pujuk u la, dont worry ok & yeahh, to u both, hunks, not all girls d same OKKKK~!~ idiot! i shall keep you both, HMM, cos i'm loving you both so so much~ even jun is on my list, hehe. kai, send me our pics ok. wanna post it la, cant wait! & thanks guys, fer lending your EARS, i'm glad u r there fer me. =D *yawns* landing.........

love, love.

memoirs of snapshots~

holla. LEI, do call me, if you wanna go MDIS today. i'm very sorry fer the last min, yo. BORED. forever, facing with problems. BGR thingy is kinda ma-fan la. *nods head* i'm missing my hao pen yos, very very much.

those times, those days....

flo3, cik&miki

old darls&darly

fazzley&fida. the F's

argh. my sweet laydehs. i miss wearing tt UNI & not to forget, i really miss my SELEKEH HAIR!!! wahaha~

lil laydeh, lei baby & kiki [[ never apart ]]

i miss their nonsense. love, erman&shahril

great dancing chereographer& dance-partner.

i miss my besties!!! kiki&jijah. muacks! shall meet up soon, jijah.

FUH!~ hot guy! hahas. nas, i miss ur vainpot-NESS la. & yeahh, our BRO "trademark" too. dush thingy, d soccer stuff, & the gatal-ness among us. wee~

WAN RUL DA~ hahas. & my hot-stuff kuya. sharir, fierce~ ahem*

my best kuzzins~~~ hehes. retarted us?? agree!

eurgh. meet up, pls people!! gee~ missing my bunch of friends. 4E1&4E2. our FRIENDS FOREVER song during SEC 1. argh!

*singing*

WE WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST OF FRIENDS............

LAALALLALALAL.... hahas

the F4 mind-freaks, & the fans!!! wahahah~ remember those days of craziness, METEOR GARDEN. a bomb! i miss everything. everything, everything~~!@ every single bit of it. WTF! hahas. MUAH, friendS!

gonna do house-keeping, tada!

~toodles.

fuck. i lost my phone!

holla. shit happen, again. damn it, i lost my long-loving samsung E700A hp, yesterday. i curse the person who took it& didnt return it back! argh. but heck, its lost aniway. however, still feel miserable bout the loss. err, gonna buy new phone, & reactivate my line, most probably, next week. =] smile, at least, cos my sim card is absolutely FOC. love~

how deep is your love?????? deep??. yesterday shuld not happen, i swear. hais. the passion?? the hugs?? the..... argh. damn. there's LOVE but not deep love. i love this status.... hais, i guess i tink too much. its bothering me, shook shook.

~toodles.

7 qualities of my ideal partner.

lei baby tagged me & yeahh, no prob sweetness, i'll do it just fer you. hmm, basically similar to urs la dear. HAHAx.

1. he must be able to make me smile&laugh like nobody business, every single day; including minuteS&secondS
2. he must accept me fer who i am, not fer what i have.
3. honesty&loyalty is a MUST! got it???
4. loving-addiction++ romantic.
5. sacrifice fer me, & yeahh, go thru shine&storms together-gether
6. looks first, den follow by characteristics, i prefer cute guys, ahem! *hint**hint*
7. SUPRISES, unexpectedly.

next 7
1. dydy
2. nurul
3. wani
4. hany
5. Adek
6. Sallehan
7. aisha BLONY

follow it up.

~toodles.

let it burn.

holla.
i'm focusing my life to the present. my education, my career. achieving wat i want to be. in a mth time, i'm back to school life, with different people, not with my WATEVAs animore. *tsk tsk* i shant repeat the big fucking mistake i did, & in the end wat did i achieve?? only the feeling of remorseful, tts all. sucks. futher up my edu & yeahh, hopefully, the 2nd time retaking my O-level, will be a god-bless.

neither him nor you poisoning my mind. i'll made up my own decision, tts the best fer myself. you r not gonna accept it, tts ur fucking business. i'm back to my old-self.

~toodles.

god-damn-it.

i lied. but its the truth, tt my bro-inc gave a me ride hm to BB. thanks, bro-inc. argh. good. you r leaving me, he's gonna leave me soon, then i'm free frem god-sent HUNKS. darn. sick of it, so fucking sick.

living my whole fucking life with my WATEVAs. i dont need you the both of you animore, NO. i'm ditching em. BITCH~

(bad headache)
did you hear me clear?? yes, u do.


~toodles.

impossible is nothing.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have All of me

You used to captivate me By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

u noe how shit happen priya?? now u know very well, rite priya? hais. dont leave us, gurl. tts too early, tts too fast. y???? i want you just you. i need my sunshine, yet u r leaving me just like this. no bitching partner, no gossiping partner, & yeahh, no lesbian partner. i miss you to bits, priya baby. thanks, fer being dere fer me during my storms, priya. hais. ya noe how to rule the friendship gurl. hmm, "the longer, the nicer" is still clear in my mind, yeahh, i'll be smiling alone, & the next moment, i'll feel very sullen& teared. its alrite, honey, i truly understand. keep in touch, & all the best fer ur future endeavours. i'm still here, sweet, & do come & visit us b4, i leave yo. I LOVE YOU!!

hais. at this time&seconds, i'm feeling so miserable. bullshit hit me again. =X it shot my heart, deep. WATEVAs, we'll be together again. i disagree, we r not drifting away. NO! i tried to find the time, but i'm too busy, yeahh, i did fight wit the time, but i'm like a human, half dead, finding solutions fer every of my problems. be it, personal or nt. i'm sorry, WATEVAs. i truly apologise, fer my hell attitude. how far you guys go, u guys are always in my heart. i SWEAR. the friendship, the miss-each-other-deep-deep thingy, is keeping this friendship growing&strong. i believe this shit happens once you step out of secondary life. no matter wat, we will STILL be TOGETHER. dont cha worry, my lovelies. i truly understand how u feel, kai. yeahh, i'm nt deny anitink rite nw. i hope u understand me too. i hope, ya. I LOVE WATEVAs, always~!!! bear tt in mind, k. muah! muah!! muah!! love, love. i'm always here. 2 weeks more, & i'm all yours my WATEVAs.

yeahh, 2 wks is pretty fast & then i'm officially out of WATSONs CTP. i did imagine, how am i gonna react wen it come to the last moment, wen i got to say goodbye to my colleagues, & hug em. am i gonna cry?? eurgh, i wont leave my footprints, tts fer sure. hais. i can feel it now, eurgh. the feeling is sucks~~!!! angie, siti, ayu, robert, moe thu, i'm gonna spend my this very little time, with you guys. gonna treasure it. LOVE~

hais. i realise life is so much to do wit LOVE~ its all about love tt keep our life running. be it friendship or relationship. i'm learning it very well. i'm learning it, dinesh. vice versa. my WATEVAs , my cronical, & love, is my life. let's go with the flow. hmm, wheres my confidante???? i need you, cos i'm a DAMSEL IN DISTRESS. you have to keep it smooth& be strong, fida. YEAHH! i will. pheww. *shakeshead*

*beams* keep going. ~toodles.

COLOURS OF LIFE.

dilemma

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when i'm with my Boo
You know i'm crazy over you

*shakes butt* i'm in a dilemma, tts absolutely right. gee~ i dont wanna dub as "MS so-confuse" again. =X eurgh. darn, i didnt expect that the situation NOW, tt i always dream or, ya scared-to-death about, reach me this fast. pheww~ hmm, today, at work, is an EMO day fer all of us. here how it goes::

1. PRIYA- she broke up with her guy, agaain. =( & yeahh, she kinda feel irritated when her guy is going down the flow AS IF, nothing happen.
hey priya baby, dont ya feel down about it cos i noe how it feels. u were saying tt the love isnt gonna b same like the previous, once you patch. i totally agree with you, dear. i'm here, all fer you!! muacks, love~~

2. AYU- her ex-bf, which she loved all this while, got married, today. & yeahh, she felt so so misery. eurgh. cant stand her sadness, cos i just want her happiness.
god-damn you~!! u cried the whole sleepless nite, & came to me with ur swollen eyes?????????????? u look fugly, really. hey horny, listen here babe, ferget about ur ex-bf. yeahh, i truly understand how u feel but you have to remember tt u have a nice nice family. its just tt, u both are nt meant to be together. remember i told you sweets,?? if you love him, let him be with his happiness. life is really beautiful, ayu. live it, & ya, trust me, u will have the happiness to the fullest. don be sad, alrite .i will hug u again, ms LEE. muah!

3. SITI- hmm, i donno whats bothering her. she's not herself, today. she seems to be so different. & she has took over my job as a day-dreamer. i wonder??? err, i guess you really have to share ur problems with sum1, den u will feel better. dont tink too much, & ya, tink positively ok, bitch.

& yeahh, include me, too. DILEMMA~~~ blur blur. work was hell tedious. went home with Rauf cos he needa take the wax frem me. & yeahh, i'm glad tt i still have some kachings to buy the craving-cosmetics. hahas. maybelline, ZA&loreal, rock it. =D aite, 2mrw is my half-day work. AT LAST!!! i needa break lar!! but after tt meeting fazzley ferst, den mayb after kiki's werk, can ask her to join us. yup yup. damn! i'm hungry, shall ablog again soon, gonna eat tt ROTI KIRAI. yummy~!!

~toodles

wit family, at last.

hey. i'm loving my colleagues&family, hell alot. they brighten my day, TODAY. =D i'm happy, cos they are happy. HAPPY!! wahahah~ the day at werk, was dang delirious. the whole fucking hours we were talking about LEE. moulding the blue tacks & make it look exactly like LEE. wahahaha~~ damn angie fer dis damn-sake idea. *sly* & yeahh, too ayu, stop seducing my Deli Boy with tt Pink Panther G-string la ok, sikit pon die tak stim la. *tsk tsk* arse you, lil. hmm, yeahh, at least i get to see zul&deli boy tho its just fer a few seconds. hehe. =S

after the whole exhausting day, i headed to J.E entertainment to meet-up my family except fer my 2nd sis as she's werking. *sticking out tongue* well, having a simple treat fer my family, once in a while. no special occasion actually. yeahh, along the way was having a nice chat with dy. & while waiting fer my fam, i spotted nurul's parent heading towards d Pizzahut. zess~ smart, i recognise their face. hahas. i hecked about it, cos i thought they werent nurul's parent. then not long after tt, i saw nurul&her sisters infront of me. darn! wat a coincidence. so, yeahh, i shouted her name, & have a lil conversation.

& yeahh, her table was just next to my fam's table. wahaha~ =D my fam's ordered 2 pizza& in addition to some beverages&deserts. ouhh, it was absolutely scrumptious~~ yummy! it costs me 70+ bucks, & glad bro-inc chipped in $3o fer the meal. THANKS, bro-inc.

i spotted zul at J.E pizzahut. OMG!!! he's wearing the Pizzahut uni. i was blunt fer a while, & yeahh as he headed towards me, i told my mum, about zul. shit you la zul!! hahas. sarcastic muggafucker. you almost made my parents turn me into an arse-hole. duh~ cute la you, zul. & yeahh, i'll call you later. i kknow i'm a busybody, u dont have to tell me million of times~~ hahas. *shessh~

niway, congrats! to rauf, cos finally, hes out of single status. prayed tt u&ur new gerl, have a good-long-term-relationship. remember, i'm here to share wit. eurgh.

14th FEB last month, today, 14th MARCH. on 14th FEB night, everything was WONDERFUL. on 14th MARCH, everything was WONDERFOOL. *giggles* full moon, again. =) hmm, gonna call zul, deli boy & last of all, land on my bed, of cos.

& by the way, i would like to thank ABG FAIZAL, my best cousin, fer the advice. yeahh, u r rite tt education journey, doesnt stop here. & i totally agree tt there is wisdom behind every shit tt has happen. my greatest supporter. i love you, cousin. you gave me full encouragement tho i guess, i've disappoint all of you. *tsk tsk* i'm sorry fer being stupid. THEY were acting strangely to me. they didnt talk to me like they always do, tts weird. =X i feel so jaded. *shakeshead* where are they(pillar of strength)???

i'm doing fine, i'm doing great. wat matter now, i've learn frem my big hell mistake, & i'm upgrading myself, with my upcoming courses&education, including lots of gaining knwledge. *yawns* aite, shall blog again sum other time.

~toodles.

date movie, great =D

Date Movie is super hilarious!!!~~ go&catch it. we enjoy it so much, rite dy?? wahahah~~ eurgh. feel like watching it again. i dont mind spending 7 bucks fer tt ohh-lalala movie, yo. whenever we meet up, we WILL have a slight laugh&a slight tiff, so inevitable. but, yeah, at least, sumhow, we did enjoy ourself. smoking kills, i know tt very very well. dont worry, i'm reducing my god-damn habit.

argh. i'm feeling so darn lethargic, yeahh, GLAD i own 1 mickey mouse jeans which i bought it at M-Industries, at Bugis. thanks kiki&fazzley fer tt lovely day on SAT, & lei baby, wish u were dere, but its alrite, cos u r here always, in my heart. muah~~!!! shall go out 2gether, pretty soon laydeh. i'm gonna crash on my bed pretty soon. & i'm aint sure y i'm tinking too much, lately. whenever we meet up, u hurt me, den u make me mad, den u spoil it. see young man, you've changed. sumtimes, i feel tt meeting you, is not a good idea at all. dont worry, i'll soon be moving away frem you. no more hurt-ness between you&me. & yeahh, i didnt mention about you&HER, yet you mention about me&DB. hais. care about my feelings at least, cos i care fer urs. thanks fer YOUR co-operation.

~toodles.

thanks.

yo. gee. i have no time to update my blog actually. nah. no worries, i'm squeezing enuf time fer blogging, & change of skin, just fer today. man, i just cant wait, to tell about me, kiki&fazzley day on SATURDAY. it rocks, seriously. shall elaborate further, later ya.

~tugging in.
toodles.

adicted

y did i have to hear your voice when the sorroundings is pure dead silence?? y did i have to see you when i close my eyes?? y did i have to dream about you when i sleep?? y am i so addicted to you?? y?? worse, i can feel your lips, wen i'm feeling mine. tts weird. y??? eurgh.
i miss the friendship. i miss those days whereby we use to chuckle&tickle with each other. i miss it, i dont know why. i just miss it, tts horrrible, i know.

i pray tt you are fine always, hopefully the one above, give you the happiness tt you are craving fer all this while. *prays* i'm still here, tho you dont need me animore. always here fer you dydy, one call away. =) smile fer me, love.

~toodles.

goodbye

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.



And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I
've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

i miss em~

WATEVAs

yo. pssst~ i miss this bunch of hot-stuff alot!!! *hugs&kisses to you* eurgh. wen is our really really really meet-up hah?? nxt Sat, make sure tau. hehes. =D cant wait fer tt. yeahh, today is my OFF day~~~ wahaha~ going shopping wit fazzley, kiki&floe. its gonna turn out well, most prob. yeahh kiki, don worry, fazzley can clique wit anibody, esp gerls, trust me. hahahas.

ok, lets rock our day today. eurgh. getting tipsy now, fuck. kill my lies, kill my hidden feelings, & yeahh, kill my sorrowness. we shall get drunk today. hahas. i noe i'm crazy, yar i'm crazy. i miss him so much, now. err, did i just say i miss him??? eurgh. *roll eyes* everything is over. see, i'm crapping again. argh.

~toodle.s

y did i have to feel this way??

fuck. i dont want you back, just fer 1 reason. god-noes-who. i want you back, just because of love. tts all. this few days has been so shitty. at the midst of re-gaining my mental&physical strength. i'm a bastard, yeahh. i'm glad, =D.

DB,2mrw our off day! wahhaa~ shall ask lei&putty to join both of us.
i'm a bastard. fuck everything. lazy to blog. !craps.

~ toodles.

curiousity kills me

i'm getting lazy to blog, i swear. every day's feeling is sucks, when come to think about HIM. y?? y?? =S ya, if you, pple tink i break off with him bcos of other guy, go ahead with ur mindset. just keep your bloody mouth shut, if you didnt know the whole story. i'm gonna lock everything by myself. my feelings is pushing everything away. eurgH. i have my own reason, fer not continuing this LTR. i guess, the reason is pretty clear.

hais. ~toodles.

so sick.

Mmmm mmm yeah

Do do do do do do do-do

Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine

Now that I'm alone

Cuz right now it says that we

Can't come to the phone

And I know it makes no sense

Cuz you walked out the door

But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore(it's ridiculous)

It's been months

And for some reason I just(can't get over us)

And I'm stronger then this(enough is enough)

No more walkin roundWith my head downI'm so over being blue

Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing you were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?Gotta fix that calender I have

That's marked July 15th

Because since there's no more you

There's no more anniversary I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you

And your memory

And how every song reminds me

Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?(Leave me alone)Leave me alone(Stupid love songs)

Dont make me think about her smile

Or having my first child

I'm letting go

Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tearsSo done with wishing she was still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishing she was still here

Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

So why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs

So tired of tears

So done with wishin you were still hereSaid

I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow

Why can't I turn off the radio?(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Why can't I turn off the radio?

so sick by NEYO. adores the lyric. so tired of tears? whoa. tts wat i;m currently facing with. AGREE. so sick of love songs. darn darn darn. aniways, Dong Bo came to Watson today, ARGH, he really made my day. overall, hes the MAN. hahas~ so so glad, tho its just a few minute. i miss you so much, dong FO. eurgh. dang, i'm feeling hell lethargic. 2mrw, needa wake up early to apply ID at SP. fuck, last resort will be ITE, most prob. today, fucking SUCKS~~ Robert, i'm gonna circumsize your fucking dick~~ ARGHH~~~ you sucks, la, bloody chinaman.

& ya, DB, where are you????? eurgh~~ so fuck up!! i'm blunt, i noe. i needa break. ~toodles.

haywire!

went haywire in the day, noon&night. shrugs~ haywire, haywire, haywire, haywire. no more morning madness, cos i'm too wear off~ eurgh. DB, where are you aniway??? i feel like talking to sum1. gush. my nightmare-madness, is killing me, again. psst~ duh, fer like ferst&ferst time, i'm running out of werds. y did i have to tink about the fucking past again??? darn. NEVER!! eurgh. its bothering me, yo.

thinking ferst, then tug in, afterwards. yeahh, DB, in case, set your alarm. i needa wake up early due to the WARNING! eurgh. screwed!

~toodles.

eurgh. wat shall i do??

=D yo. yeahh, mr NEYO, i'm sick of love song, too. *cheers* VICE VERSA. today, eurgh, yesterday, i mean, bitch with Priya at work. my bitching partner, in Watson. wahahha~ both of us hate HER, damn alot! fuck. SHE is on OUR bloody case, rite priya?? ohh well, we aint gonna respect her, animore. BITCHES, you rock my world, cos WE will bitch you back.

i'm starting back my old habit. & yeahh, its reducing, so no worries. eurgh. my throat is burning so badly. is it bcos the flames??? dy, you really frighten me, bout jap case. darn it, killing my temptation. *bless* hopefully, it gets well, wen the sun rise. mr sunshine, pls pls make my day again, like yesterday. i'm freak bliss. *winks* work is getting tedious day by day. i'm hell bored. *shessh* yawns~ i need enuf sleep too. i'm loving the STARS~~~! its so beautiful. twinkled stars, indeed. argh. =S

i need your smile&laugh. then, i will return mine, too. =D have fun, fun, fun, tho bits of weirdo-ness between us. nvmind, overall, we did feel HAPPY. aite, tugging in soon. ta.

~toodles.

yummY`

yummy! i'm sucking the tip of the strawberry, & gleefully, enjoying it. the s.berry tart was given by DB, yesterday. *roll eyes* thanks, fazzley. you love to pamper me with delifrance food, i noe. hehes. yeahh, i'm depress, tts the main reason y i'm eating like HELL!! *run it* you lovely bugger, DB.

*sigh*. DONT WISH to dwell on the past. moving on, inch by inch, all by myself. dont just think of yourself, bcos there is ME, who has the similar feelings&nightmare. u suffer, i suffer, too. u feel demoralise, i feel it too. hell, its draining! awareness: past expriences only serve to make us stronger&wiser. make sense??? *tsk tsk*

u wish.... i have my wish, too~ u keep asking me y did i have to do this to you?? now, i'm asking you back d same damn ques. thanks fer d lil msg on the card, thanks fer making me feel hurt, thanks fer your-dont-want-the-friendship. no worries, i will NEITHER msg nor call you animore. trust my words, ONLY fer this time. tho you SAID you didnt mean it, but the fact is, you did. distress, just bcos he said, NO to friendship. *shakeshead* your life, your way. i'm just a nobody. i needa sum liberty now. & definitely, an early sleep. ta.

wish i may, wish i might, have you here to hug all nite.

sumhow, u did enlighten my day.

~toodles.