fuck all the problems.

problems are beginning to show up, these past few days. just spectulate why did i have to tear everytime it did. aint i strong enough? am i too puny to face it?? i feel offended, when its the past, but i get to know now, the present. isn't tt, frontward to the present? i'm disturbed, & baffle presently. WHY?? i'm a fool, to think tt, "whoa, i'm proud tt i'm the only girl, who get to wear his stuff." HAHA. i'm making myself a laughing stock. how stupid! the expectations, sucks la. i'm ashame of myself. i guess he thinks that it's not off-beam. but, not for me. it is not as nice as you think. hais. i'm totally perplex regarding the situation, i'm going through. TADA, swear, &then unpredictably, another story came up&make me feel distress again&again. why didnt you give me the chance to heal at all?? i dont know whether i should trust him&all his swear[s]. i maybe an idiot or a fool, but i still i have feelings. i'm very affectionate about this love. am i wrong to be so into it?? i dont know, who i want to turn to right now. my friends? i dont want to be a burden to em, what's more, misunderstanding is on our shoulder. where's the end, dy?? no sight of it, my dear.

isnt friendship&relationship, suppose to be beautiful?? yes, there's some disagreement with nas& the watevas. i'm dissatisfied with nas for making things so easy for himself& he was telling me that right now he got only his gf to rely on. who are we to you?? is the mistake we made is too too unacceptable to you?? my dear nas, you havent change at all. you told me you are lazy to talk, or maybe think about this problem. arent you making this matter worse? if you want to try to save this friendship, you shuld have make an effort to, at least, get to the bottom of this or clear the misunderstanding among us. yeahh, i have to admit that all of us made a mistake on that day. a single stupid mistake, which can be cleared, right away. oh gosh, i didnt know that it has been drag till this very minute, i swear. you dont expect things to turn out well everytime, right? we did it not deliberately, nas. its a small matter, love. i rather you vent on ur anger at us, then u avoid us. if there's anything we can make up for the mistake, we will. dont make matter worse, please. yes, somethings tt you thought we are wrong, when at the other side we think that its nothing wrong. its just misinterpretation all of us are facing right now. yeahh, we have to give in sometimes, though we feel, DAMN, we didnt do anything wrong. from time to time, i guess yielding is the best resolution. let's talk things out, my lovelies. you dont know how much, i love you guys. i want us to be the usual usuals. join me, leia, khai, sharir&kiki. let's crack it before it gets inferior. put our anger-ness aside, & replace it with love&our 4 yrs friendship. we are humas after all, cant run away from mistake.

hais. prays hard tt everything will turn out fine, very very soon. i dont wish to continue anymore. my eyes are deluge with tears. i cant help it. dare not run away from problems.

".... hear&you forget; see&you remember; do&you understand."
its the policy,yeah, the policy.