time after time

lying in my bed
i hear the clock tick and think of you
caught up in circles
confusion is nothing new

everything is taking a toll on me. i don't know why. its hard to define, its hard to explain. it lies beneath yet i can't figure it out. i got boiled up when all the things i want is all the things that you can't simply give. you make me fall all over again & the next moment, you came to catch me, time after time. it makes my heart go haywire, go silly, go stupid, go funny. the whole emotions are annoying, enough said. did i fit your bill? have i understand? have i try my best? am i'm being too selfish? too egoist? i don't understand what love may be. i yearn for the beautiful things in life, the wonders of relationship, the awesome-ness in a friendship. i want things to be in a certain way that i want.

i want you to dance with me in the rain. i want you to hug me tight when i'm mad. i want you to lay by my side till its time to leave. i want you to say those three words when in need. i want your surprises. i want to feel the things, that i've never thought of feeling it. i want to feel your love again. i want to see the proper you again. i want to feel your care again. i want to fall in love with you again. yes, again. the same scent as the seasons, you're just the light in everything. in the times we joked together, we also quarreled. it doesn't matter how i can probably express. the unknown amount of time wrapped the both of us. i need you, i want you.

from the day we met till today 12 of Sept at 6.46PM, i've never stop loving you. despite all my wants, just need you to bring it back, my love.

little love
yours truly,
hamster