ITS A BOY!
CONGRATS to kak nana & abg herman for their new born baby arrival. i went to visit the elder sister & she was stronger this time. she was outside her ward welcoming us with open arms. she named her second son, Amir. amir is bigger & taller compare to aiman when he was born. i can't stand his chubby cheeks. so geram! holding his fragile body close to my arms really made me a happygirly. & he's going home tomorrow. and that make my life easier & happier cos i can visit him whenever i will love to. hehe. Alhamdulilah. i thank god for giving us this cutiepie small fry that will again spice up my life as well as my family. & my babybotak, aiman, has already labelled as an elder brother before he turns 1 year older this coming friday. (: a happy brother, i must say eventhough he understand nothing. once he grow up, he'll definitely get the picture. auntie fidah sayang aiman & amir.
i suck at relationship. i suck at spare a thought for someone or anyone. i suck because i don't feel its wrong when he thinks it is. i suck for having no bad/foolish intentions when he thinks that i have. i suck for having more guyfriends than girlfriends. i suck at being too amicable. i suck for being nice enough. i suck for breaking his trust when i'm not. on a simpler note, i suck as many as he thinks i am.
now, i think i'm suckier because i don't feel like talking to anyone because i'm too depressed because i'm too emotional because.... argh! i need a punching bag. now. then a packet of tissue.
it sucks. and it does.
night.
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