last day of April

music [ good charlotte- the river ]

i'm feeling unwell.
the stomach not feeling good.
i feel like puking again.
sigh.

today is the 30th.
tomorrow is the 1st of May. =)
10 days more to dental. =D

HAPPY LABOUR DAY & PUBLIC HOLS, ALL!

adios.

big girls don't cry

music [ rob thomas- little wonders ]

& i'm declaring that i'm very very proud of manchester united. =) final; manchester united 4 everton 2.

the days have been swamped with work, school & problems. whether i'm in the confusion state or not, i strongly believe that god is not nuts to let problems flow in, & once HE put me into it, HE will definitely bring me through it.

i gtg for now. have a great weeekends. :)

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket.
But I've got to get a move on with my life.

Problems

....are meant to happen here & there. yeah, that's what i call life. how could i not feel sad when someone i love deeply bring up the bitter past which happen two years ago? & to add fuel into the fire, how could i not feel sad when someone i truly love, uttered something that can bring me down? i'm a screw up daughter. i suck at my studies, i suck at everything they can think of. i don't owe mama any explanation or an apology. what's the point?. i've tried my best to be a better person, a filial daughter. & i've even try harder to be in mama's shoe. but to avail. she keep misunderstand me for every little thing i did. i desperately need your backing when it comes to studies, mama. i've no intention to disappoint you again. & i'm really pushing myself, pulling up my socks, to ace my studies, to prove it to you. so that you will be happy, to prove it to you, that YES, i'm a somebody in life. and i'm still trying. what else should i do to convince you?. why did you have to make me fall to the ground? it hurt so much. what did i do to deserve it all?. sigh. & you know, i love you as much as you do, no matter what. you are still the best mama. i just wish........ you understand how i feel.

anw.
i reached home half an hour ago from training at telok blangah. after like a few weeks not meeting each other, four of us (red, ast, fad & i) has a lot of things to share. :) i thank god, cos there are part of my life now.

i need a shuteye. school start at 8.30 tomorrow, & work at 3.
night.

manicure.

music [ arctic monkeys- brainstorm ]

yesterday.

after school, ayne & i went to jurong point eventhough it was pouring heavily. we splurge on fooodies & junkies. i purchased a new watch for myself, & the manchester united jersey pillow which i've craved for. thanks, babe. aku suker banget! =)

just now.

the boyfriend fetched me from school. & he's such a bugger & itchy cock, lol, that he forced me to enter the manicure shop. i tried to get away with it, but to no avail. naughty dydy! hmpph. so, we spent like 20 minutes with manicure thang. candidly, it was splendid. the fugly nails turn out to be beautiful. :) well-grommed, in short. with natural colour nail polish on it. then the itchy boyfriend, spent 22 buckarooos for it. i hate you lah ok!. its much appreciated, but i feel that, its not worth spending that much on manicur-ing. don't do that again okay. i know its a treat, i thank you so much, for that. but, it made me feel bad. i don't know why either. LOVE YOU SO, BABY. muacks! ohoh, thanks again, for the 3 beautiful roses. :):):) you never fail to give me the reason to smile.

anw. if you lovelies, have read the newspaper, you must have been aware of the teenage girl who drowned in the canal. she actually lived one block away from mine. her block was jam-packed with policeman, friends, principals, visitors & not to forget, reportes & photographers. i felt sorry for her family. god bless.

P.s: takziah buat kina & sekeluarga. semoga tuhan mencucuri rohnya. i know you feel the loss right now, but no matter what, always bear in my mind that, god loves her more. there must be a wisdom behind it. eventhough your late grandmother is no longer with you, just remember, she's permanently in your heart, now & forever. cheer up, sayang. i'm here for you.

gonna watch wild hogs before turning in. night, lovelies.

i can wait for thursday. ohnoway.

supreme sunday

music [ katherine mcphee- i'm over it ]

i'm gorging down abalone cup noodle instead of tom yam, my favourite, because i'm left with no choice. i only found the abalone one in the cupboard. and because there's no spicy-ness, i poured the crushed chilli. now, it taste better than i expect. hehe.

anw. yesterday was a long day for me. one of the best weekends i have. work start at 8 & ended at 2. then the boy fetched me from work, afterwhich we had our lunch at sakae sushi. and the following hours were spent together. around 7.00, the boyfriend sent me to the toh guan's bus stop because i've informed the brother-in-law to fetch me there. at 7plus, the family & i headed to bugis to have our dinner at seoul garden. :) we ate the scrumptious foodies & deserts to our heart's content. ohmy, now i've gain extra pound to the weight. lol. at 11, all of us went to have a stroll at west coast park. it was incredibly awesome. i was really having fun. =D

i gtg for now. night.

fine. :)

everything fine now.
no worries, lovelies.
bigfat kisses for those who are there to lighten me up. =)=)
love ya'll.

silver lining behind the blue skies.

& i think, the boy really owe me ALOAD
of apologies. & promises. & presents (*coughs*)
to make up for everything. lol.

work start at 8.
a date with the boyfriend tomorrow.
then dinner @ seoul garden with family.

have a great weekends!

LEONIE! one of the closest cina guyfriend i have. =)

fear.

i'm fear to death.
i had cold sweat.
& sent shiver racing up & down my back & neck.
the heart thudded vigorously.
the tears couldn't stop flowing out.
i was terrified.
i took a deep breath, and noticed i was sobbing
in one the cubicle.
everyone was staring at me.

now the feet is hurt.
then the heart need an aid.
i've never encouter this in my life.
someone really try to kill me.
if i didn't grip hardly, i would have die on the road.

just because i didn't reply.
you came late
you even wanted to pay the fines even if its not your fault.
you try to hurt me.

& i'm declaring, i'm going to hate you.

h
ha
hat
hate.

its real love.

music [ ruben studdard- change me ]

i've never missed watching heroes. even if i can't catch it on wednesday, i will definitely find the repeat telecast. :) how intriguing heroes can be, that everytime i watch it, it will bring me to fantasy. & how wish i have those supernatural powers!.

today.
once again, we had lunch with kelly & maleky. ohh, sitting beside nano's favourite boy, Mr M made me feel awkward in every move. lol. we rot in the library while waiting for the next lesson to start. ampled each other with jokes, stories, & upcoming movies. i'm pleased with the lovelies by my side. cos they never make my life empty, not even a second.

yeah. i'm proud to say that i'm a mummy's girl. i hardly believe how i childish i am, when i'm with mama. i will lie on my mum's lap everyday. i love it whenever when we are watching teevee, i will ask mama to feed me whatever tidbits she's have in her hands. i'm closer to mama since i was born. she's my pillar of strength, the cure to my pain. in short, she's everything to me. she's the most understanding mama i've ever had. i remember how she used to asked the ex-bfs to come over for dinner. infact now, eventhough she knows my relationship with dydy, she has never nag about it. my dad wouldn't mind either if i have a bf or have a number of guyfriends, its just that i'm feeling way comfortable talking things out with mum. because seriously speaking, the dad, who is particular in our clothings, has NEVER been close to we girls. don't ask me why. ohh, where was i? yeah. mum does the cooking, the cleaning, the washing clothes, babysitting my 3 cousins & 2 nephews, EVERYDAY. that make her the perfect woman & bestest mummy in the world. =)

mother's day? not yet. haha. something in random. because i read an article something similar to the one above.

school start at 8 & end at 10. ??. & i've training from 6-10 after that. *beams* alrightey. so long lovelies. sweet dreams.

where's you, sayang? =/

youth is temporary, class is forever.

music [ play with fire- hilary duff ]

i adore the fact that youth is temporary, class is forever. (:

anws. before i continue reading james patterson's novel, i better do some updating. today was one of those days i've been loooking extra forward to. kelly & maleky joined us for lunch! & we catch things up with each other. both of them had more stories to fill us with because of the holymama. lol. there were thunder of laughter among us. :) i'm loving it to bits. definitely, tuesday is my day. "someone" present ayne & i a hug. hahaha. you-know-who. it was wonderful to see the ex-classmates again. leonie, our date is every tuesday okays. ohh btw, leon is one of my closest chinese guyfriend i have during my year one.

tomorrow school will be such a drag because it start at 8 & ends at 4.30. -_- but on happier note, irsyad is coming to school tomorrow. yay. will be meeting him at 8 at the foyer. just make sure he will not be late.

i'm back to reading, then a shuteye. nightees, lovelies.

&&& i love you, dydy. no matter what. =)
'dough daddy dough'

first day.

music [ sunshine- lil flip ]

today was my first day of school after 5 weeks of lovely holidays! & i was delighted to see my friends again. eventhough i could only see kelly & maleky from the glass window. :( i felt a little weird without having kelly & maleky with us for lunch. ohmy, i'm missing them & the convo's we had for the past one year. hopefully, one of those days, we had no problem asking them to join us for lunch & filled each other up with harmless stories, & ultimate gossips. lol. on a much happier note, the schedule's pretty slack for this term. that's uber gooood! ohoh, i spotted rauf & hafiz in school too! :)

the boyfriend was sweet enough to fetch me from school eventhough it was pouring heavily.
:( now i'm feeling guilty for making him mad at the midst of wearing the raincoat. but, its funny though. haha. ok dydy, your baby is the dumbest girl on earth alright. a huge apology for that. ohoh, i'm repeating again. TODAY: A DAY CHOKED WITH DISAPPOINMENTS. you know what it means. & you jollywell do something about it. because your sorry is not going to cut it. i've to thank you for that because whatever happen has make me the most stupidiest girl ever.

while waiting for the rain to stop, the boyfriend, is, faizal & i had chicken rice for lunch at clementi. & the adorable seth came to join us a few minutes later. *coughs* lol. & the boyfriend & i headed to jurong library to borrow books. we had waffle before going home.

i need a goood read then a shuteye because the eye is getting heavier, heavier & heavier. will update soon. CHEERIOS. nightees, earthlings.

PS: condolences to irsyad & family. god loves datuk more. cheer up, bro. :)

i miss my babe! & finally, we get to meet! WEEEE
ohh maldives! a place to go for my honeymoon ONE DAY.
a comic plus a novel.

gooood kisser.

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

another try.

music [ natasha bedingfield- i wanna have your babies ]

i've decided to give another try to post a proper entry to fill you lovelies with stories. ok go.

helllloooohhh lovelies. :)
life has been pretty smooth sailing thus far despite the little glitches in the between. my days was choked with work & training. to & fro, to tanjong pagar then to suntec. & i've been working from 8am-9pm & includes the training for two continuous days. work has made the body heavier than the usuals, late shuteye, & achings at different parts of my body. booohooo~ the relationship with the colleagues is getting better day by day. at least i know i can lean on them whenever i need emergency help. that's a good sign & a good reason (maybe) for not going to transfer. but i still need to reconsider if to think of the manager. i'm not used with people who is the same race & gender being too discourteous with another person, be it whether he/she is disabled or abled. i'm not that overly touchy feely kind of thing you see. i hate it so much when she (whom i won't reveal her name here), utter acridly in a deliberate way. this happen so often, btw. i believe that respect each other is the best policy when it comes to bonding with others. neither can i stand nor imagine how other people can behave heartlessly to his/her people. cmon, we are human beings afterall. with feelings just like you. want to gain respect just like you do. candidly, with this kind of people around my belt, i feel hell afflictive! nah, they won't work for me- not my cup of tea. i think that are terrible nuts! *shakeshead*. i shall see how long i can tolerate. for now, ignorance is definitely a bliss. =S

nasrun dropped at my workplace for A REASON. haha. he got a free pure choc from me. he must be a happy boy, i must say.
ohhh anyhoooos. i want to thank the boyfriend for the late night ride, the trip to mount faber, & crucially, saving me from my exhausting days/nights. much appreciated you! =)=) big fat fierce hugs & kisses for you. you know how fortunate i am to have you! MUACKS.

the other day when i had my trainings at suntec, i saw keifi! haha. i was feeling high when i spotted him. OMG. it has been aeons since we last met. he's still looooking extra gooood with capital G as ever. no doubts about that, yeah. lol. i was delightful enough to see you, keifi! (: i've grown a little, just for you. haha. ; )

anws, i didn't attend work yesterday. i was having a bad headache followed by a slight fever. so, early in the morning, i called the manager to informed her. i know, rest is the paramount. possibly the burned out & not enough sleep made me feel unwell for the day. but today, i'm feeling so much better because i consumed the medicine Dr.Low's prescribed the previous day. thank god. :)

today is my off day. i slept like a log. prolly going to rot at home besides entertaining the cousins & nephews. dvd-ing at night, then work again tomorrow. school is going to welcome me with open arms in a few days time. i've received the schedule yesterday. i'm on cloud 9,10,11,12... because ayne, irsyad & roy is the same class as me. yayyyyyyy! haha. a happy girl, of cos! this side of the country is having a horrendus downpour. shiiioooooooook. & i'm going to have my lunch now. CHEERS, people. =]

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sucks.

a few minutes ago, i typed a really long entry.
when i was posting it, the connection went haywire & puhhhh.
goood-bye to the entry.
okays. thats sucks.
it spoil everything.
arghhhh.

i will update it tomorrow then.
darn it. =(

what's wrong?

i don't know why i feel so disappointed & terribly sullen the whole day.
maybe for no reason?
even if there's reason, i don't know whether its reliable enough.
the truth is, the reason lies beneath.
i don't know how & what to explain.
its just feel like being abandon. care less.
oh well.

anw.
the training at RH was sucks. thanks to the dumb-fuck indian trainer. maybe he should just go blind & go to hell. stooooo-pid. he didn't respect us, how is he going to gain respect from us? common sense, knnccb. =S i am fuming mad to think of it again & again. i shan't give a rat ass about it.

i need a shuteye now. work at 9 tomorrow.
cheeers.

a day to remember.

music [ gym class heroes - cupids chokehold ]

today.

i spent the whole day with the boyfriend. we met as early as 11.30 in the morning. the planned to the crabs was backfired. i don't know why. fugging annoying. then the boyfriend & i had our breakfast at sakae sushi AGAIN. lol. we spent our day loitering anywhere. & then while it was raining cats & dogs, we had our lunch at banana leaf apolo at serangoon road. afterwards, we landed on jurong east entertainment to play archade & slipped in thunder of laughter trying to get the stitch out of the machine. but failed to. nevertheless, both of us were tickled pink. it shows how much we enjoyed each other's company. =) & the stomach is not enough filled with japanese food, that dydy & i went to Giant to purchase sushi. haha. the stomach is in good mood today. lol. 070407, a day to remember. && thanks dydy for the superb day. :)

i need to wake up early tomorrow because i need to be at Raffles Hospital by 10 in the morning. argh. the body is heavier when it comes to work on sunday. :( i will endure till 5.30 in the noooon tomorrow. i will endure. *rolls eyes*. gahaha.

in random. no matter how many times i watched a walk to remember, i will still cry. just like how kal ho na ho does. tsktsk

dvding soon. nightees, world.

compensate & leia's 18th

music [ tamia- officially missing you ]

OMG. i just realised that i've not been updating the rants for three days. yes? my. i barely notice it. don't worry. i'll put aside my tired-ness, & compensate the missing days. =]

3rd April

had my training at millenia walk with my batch. it was helluva intriguing. basically, we learnt about making & blending the ice blended. the measures & the different techniques. & the best of all, we got to make a lot of different drinks. that include my favourite mocha! ;) despite the quarell, the boyfriend still pick me up from work. he's sweet, afterall. lol.

4th April

first day of work at international plaza & its the most fatiguing day i've ever had! reallly. i made my officially first ice blended to a customer. so far, a smooth-sailing one. :) but obviously, as a newbie, i did it in a snail-like manner. and my colleagues was lovely enough to lend a hand & guide me during my wrong-doings. thanks, yo. =) & i handled the cashiering when pram was busy. chey. cham-pion. haha. and at initial, my work was supposed to end at 4pm but my manager asked if could extend to learn the closing. & i felt remorseful for agreeing to it. the closing was such a pain in the ass, i tell you. haha. it took at least two hours to get the closing, cleaning & paperwork done. dangs. the leg was aching so badly. the eyes were heavy. haha. the cleaning really made the legs & hands trembled vigorously. & i almost burst into tears when i saw the boyfriend waiting patiently near the entrance. i can't help it but to embrace him as soon as i approached him. lol. that was how shag i am. & then, the boyfriend & i headed to lau pa sat to have our dinner which was not far from my workplace. the satay & bbq prawns was scrumptious. we gobbled down the food to our heart's content. & so, after that, the boyfriend sent me home. thanks, sayang. you gave me the reason to smile. MUACKS. =)

5th April

i was 25 minutes late for dental. & that made me 10 minutes late for work. thanks to myself, for waking up late. & thanks to the boyfriend for sending me. ohh anyhoooos, i feel extremely hairpee because it's confirm that they will be taking out my braces a week & days before my birthday. YEAYY! i'm really looking extra forward to the day. all smiles, baby. :) i saw rabia for the first time. =D & its such a coincidence that we know each other friends. small world kankankan. hehe. & i had my schedule same with her. so, next week, i'll be meeting her more often. yayness can! =)

finally.

today. a verrrrry goood friday, you. went to meet the watevas kids under leia's void deck because she invited us to her birthday party. i love lei's cousins. adorable! =)=) ohh but i love lei's scrumptious fooodies more. hahaha. thanks, babe! anw, its leia's 18th birthday!

happy 18th, curlie. love you lots! muacks! =)

going to catch crab at sembahwang with dydy & his friends tomorrow. :)
i'll update soon okays. nightnight, lovelies.

shag.

music [ cherish- unappreciated ]

the music fit the mood. =/
i reached home a few minutes ago. the training was a so so, because we didn't do any practical. basically an introduction about coffeebean. the facilitator do the talking, while the baristas does the listening. but on a lighter note, the baristas from my batch was amicable. one of the guys, is my schoolmate. well, everything went smooth-sailing thus far. :) the orientation was wrapped up at 6. & after that, i headed to tanjong pagar to meet nas and from there we took the train to bugis & we dropped by at khai's workplace to get nas's thumbdrive. before leaving, we had free food & drinks. free is always sedap. thanks you, khai. ;) ahaks. it's nice to meet-up with your friends once in a blue moon. ohh, speaking of which, its full moon now. =D i'm feeling shag & sleepy. fortunately, my work start at 6 in the afternoon tomorrow. yay, that's what i call powerkedegak. a room for breather, at least. on a happier note, tomorrow, i will start learning & making ice blended. that include mocha! yums. hehe

anw.
i just wish sometimes you just understand. its just once in a while. neither do i going to make it a habit. i feel that i didn't do anything wrong. maybe yes, by screwing up promises. i don't have the intention to break it either. just now, i am happy, dy. why wouldn't want to make me happy once in a while?. i have a life. i leave it to you to think about it. i'm sorry.

going to have my dinner now. then glued to the teevee. after that, a shuteye. i think. night, earthlings.

HAPPY 1YEAR 8 MTHS.

i almost forget. haha
HAPPY 1YEAR 8 MTHS, DYDY!
baby loves dydy alot like love.
hehe.
MUACKS! =)=)

ohoh, && happy april fooooool.

tata.

the day after tomorrow.

music [ the red jumpsuit apparatus- your guardian angel ]

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

there's no sunday morning today for me. i woke up approximately at 1.15 in the afternoon. yes, superfuper fugly. the previous night, having thunder of laughter, chatting with dydy's colleagues till 3 in the morning. liana, feerah & seth was my night criminals. bitching & gossiping at the middle of the night was.... FUN. hehe.

anw. tomorrow will be the first training for coffeebean. the training will be held at its own HQ at henderson road. fortunately, it last only for 4 hours. yayfuu. =X hehe. don't be too happy, fidah. there's still other days to 'look forward to'. ahaks. the schedule is pretty tight. i'm aware. hopefully, there's a room for breather. hee. curlie invited the watevas kids to the her 18th birthday party this coming gooody friday. =D

the afternoon was spent with mama & my aunt. we went to IMM to get my black shoe for work tomorrow. :) & then i saw the ex. but i pretended i didn't notice him at all. i don't give a rat arse, afterall. hehe. the shop till drop ended at 8. && we headed home. thanks mama for the treat!

the stomach is growling. byebye for now. hee. ;)
happy working.

miss you, ayne!

teenage mutant ninja turtles

music [ firehouse- i live my life for you ]

the watevas kids gathering was cancelled. sigh. i was really looking forward to catch things up with them. hmm. but nevermind. some other time maybe. =/ anyhoos, dy & i went to westmall to have our quick lunch at sakae sushi. && then both of us headed to the cinema to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. i've been a fan of tmnt. & michael angelo is my all time favourite turtle! hehe. generally, it was astonishing. =)=) thanks dydy for the day.

having a date with mum tomorrow.

thats for today.

CHEERS.