....are meant to happen here & there. yeah, that's what i call life. how could i not feel sad when someone i love deeply bring up the bitter past which happen two years ago? & to add fuel into the fire, how could i not feel sad when someone i truly love, uttered something that can bring me down? i'm a screw up daughter. i suck at my studies, i suck at everything they can think of. i don't owe mama any explanation or an apology. what's the point?. i've tried my best to be a better person, a filial daughter. & i've even try harder to be in mama's shoe. but to avail. she keep misunderstand me for every little thing i did. i desperately need your backing when it comes to studies, mama. i've no intention to disappoint you again. & i'm really pushing myself, pulling up my socks, to ace my studies, to prove it to you. so that you will be happy, to prove it to you, that YES, i'm a somebody in life. and i'm still trying. what else should i do to convince you?. why did you have to make me fall to the ground? it hurt so much. what did i do to deserve it all?. sigh. & you know, i love you as much as you do, no matter what. you are still the best mama. i just wish........ you understand how i feel.
anw.
i reached home half an hour ago from training at telok blangah. after like a few weeks not meeting each other, four of us (red, ast, fad & i) has a lot of things to share. :) i thank god, cos there are part of my life now.
i need a shuteye. school start at 8.30 tomorrow, & work at 3.
night.
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