HAPPPPY 19TH, ROY!

yay! its roy 19th birthday! hehe. =)=)

we celebrated roy's birthday at pizzahut. we joyfully filled our stomach with scrumptious fooooodies. my birthday boy is a happppy gooober today. i hope you enjoy & love the small treat from us, roy darling. & i've to thank ayne, irsyad & shahrul cos you lovelies make it a bomb. MWAHHH!

PICTORIALS.

blame it on me.

music [ mario- how do i breathe ]

when her own father call her own daughter, 'son of a gun', maybe she's the one to be blame.
when her dydy call her a flirt & a sucker for handsome guys, maybe she's to be blame too.
when she's trying to get her happiness back, problems flood in like no one business, like 'oh, do i look like i care', & once again, she's to be blame. WHO ELSE? RIGHHHHTTT.

don't ever say you care, cos you don't.
don't ever say you love me, cos you don't.

seriously, i don't know what else to do. btw, i worked at boat quay with my dearest wawan(ttm) because there was not enough staff there. a veryvery pleasant place to work at. :) we went back to IP at 5 in the afternoon.

i'm at the midst of helping a colleague to solve the misunderstanding at work. at the midst of helping & advising kak fidah on her relationship. just make me feel like crying when she break down. sigggh. what's life without its ups & downs. YAYAYAYA.

i so need my ttm right now. now! yes now! i need a shoulder to cryy on.

thank god its friday!

a verrrry gooooood morning to all! a brand new day & start the day with a smile. =) ohoh, its friday. yay friday! let the weekends welcome me with open arms. will be working on saturday, then on sunday as usual, TTM day.

i got to go now. gonna do the case-study with my ayne baby. have a great weekends, happy people!

hope we will have fun. we will. i know we will. yes yesyes. hehe.

tick tock.

i rushed to work after school today. & i just reached home half an hour ago. its definitely backbreaking. dealing with hasty idiotic annoying customers can make me go bonkers!. oh dear. ohoh btwbtw, i saw nigel today. =)=) how much i miss my own wentworth miller. lol. i'm going to miss you nigel, when you are away to UK. *coughs*. my one & only favourite favourite regular customer. i see you in two weeks time buddy. heee~ i don't know how tomorrow will turn out to be. egg-cited though. =D

i need a shuteye for a brand new day tomorrow. CHEERIOS.

sheesha.

music [ taylor swift- teardrops on my guitar ]




my weekends was goood goood. even the last minute meet up. =) yesterday, og & i rushed to arab street to join our friends for sheesha-ing. so we reached there around 8 plus. sham, nury, syed, khalid was already there. & on the way to arab street, i saw the gorgeous fireworks since its the national day preview. awesome! at the midst of it, i met up with kak fidah, at golden landmark hotel. she was sugary enough to walk there with manuel & hakim just to meet me. i cuddled her & per usual, the bitching part which we can't miss. OMG. i'm really missing her right now. i've to thank sham for the company. teehee. =) around 10 plus, all of us headed to esplanade and have loads loads of fun. THANKS YA'LL FOR CHEERING ME UP.

i'm going to meet wawan soon. its sunday; our TTM day. got to go people. CHEERS!

i need time to change. please don't rush me. i know my limits.

at times.

at times, when you feel like crying out everything because you are angry or sad. that's what i am going to do right now. i hate myself just because someone said i'm a sucker for sweet talker & good looking guys. THANKS LAH EH. i shouldn't have taken those pills & go for appointments just to get well. i should just heck about everything, rest in peace. and now, i should. i really should. fuck about no cheese, no milk and no iron.

i hate you. & fuck off. stop acting like you care.
ohh, LIKE I CARE?.

the world is waiting for me to die.

earrrrly.

goood morning you! since i stay stubborn to update at home, let me just bring it up to date a little tad bit in school since i'm reallly reallly early today. yes people, i am early. you didn't hear me wrong. haha. eventhough i slept at 4 in the morning. unlike the eyecandy. *coughs*. oh wells, school has been a drag one, & can be a bitch at times. at the midst of preparing the end of the year project & case study. errrr maybe it haven't even reach at the midst. ahaks.

the meet up with wawan aka ttm, was backfired for two continous days, & i've to thank him for that. hmphhh. =( but nevermind, sunday is always ttm day. so yesterday was like a complete, like what í told ayne earlier. i went to work from 12-6.30, & such a coincidence that i bumped into 3 of my favourite regular customers. gorgeous steve, nigel & leo. my jaw nearly dropped oogling at my gorgeous buddies. *beams*. ahhh. & i was delighted when kak fidah dropped by at my workplace. we filled each other with stories & love, & then i rushed home. then at night, i chat with wawan over the phone for an hour, the rest of the hours was spent talking on the phone with the eye candy for like 3 hours. mymy. ohoh, i got to talk to dydy too. =)=) all smiles.

alright people. i needa finish up my case study. tsktsk. will blog again whenever i'm free aye. CHEERIOS. :)

yeah, i know.

i really appreciate my friends, my family & dydy being frank with me. that's enough to help me get back on the right track. =) i thank ya'll!

i hate changes, seriously.

THANKS AYNE BABE! love you loads.

curse.

music [ rihanna feat neyo- hate that i love you ]




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And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

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people say i've changed, to the worse. i'm unaware of it, frankly. sigh. i'm trying people. i'm really trying to get back to the right track. i don't know whats the fucking wrong with me this time. i hope there's a wisdom behind every shit that has happened. i want to make things right with my family, with dydy. but i don't know what's stopping me. i rather spend with someone else instead of dydy. i rather spend all day in my room instead with the family. right now, the only thing that has been racing in my mind is, to make up for everything & once again, I DON'T FUGGING KNOW HOW. argh. SOS. i need to do some soul-searching tonight. yes tonight.

i'm not in the pink of health. first & foremost, i want to thank dydy for accompanying me to clementi polyclinic for like 3 hours on thursday. & just now, i almost fainted. the head was spinning on one side. the eyes burning. the stomach was painful due to the infection & pms-ing, at the same time. -sigh-. deep down inside, i was really crying in pain. the manager, edward, was pleasant enough to release me earlier from work. i landed on my bed & took a nap once i reached home. & i'm glad i feel so much better eventhough the head-egg is still there. nevertheless, plenty of rest is the paramount.

anwanw, i need to take my medicine before a shuteye. have a great weekends, you! =)=)
CHEERS.

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me. And your kiss won't make me
weak. But no one in this world knows me the way you know me. So you'll
probably
always have a spell on me.

continuation. heh

i stopped blogging on the previous posts because i was sleeeppy && lazyyy. okay, back to the 070707. :)

i went to the best girly's engagement with dydy, farhainy, adilah & ikhsan. she was superbly gorgeous. :) congrats, babe. really will pray for your happiness & hope your relatioship with amru will last long yeah. so happpy for you, darling. =)=) & afterwhich i rushed down to miki kai's open house which is not far from kiki's house. hmppphhh. lol. whereby i get to meet jijah, lei & nanas. eventhough it only last for awhile, i reallly had ball of time. miss them, though. :) meet up soooon yeah.

&& on sunday, i went to catch a movie, transformers, with my teman tapi mesra, wawan. like at last, we get to watch transformers. OMG. the movie is awesome, enough said. A.W.E.S.O.M.E. highly recommended. =) we had kfc for lunch & wawan was veryvery particular about my health that he forbid me to eat the cheesefries. :( hehe. after much persuasion, i get to eat it. we watched dvd at my house with the sister, & he headed home at 9.00pm. thanks wawan wuwu, for the day, for the laugh, for the nonsense. =)=)=) my favourite jackass.

okay go. i'm done with today. i need some sleeeeep.
adios.

07.07.07. pretttty date. :)

music [ plain white t's- hey there delilah ]

i've not been blogging for the past few days. =(. huge fat apologies people. the days was swamped with work work & ohhh dangs, problems. i wish to put aside the problems for now. i've been veryvery strong because of one person, my mama. anws, i can't accept the fact that kak fidah, my manager, is leaving us in like 4 days time?. :( my mind race back the first day of work in international plaza coffee bean. whereby i've never favour this lady. till there's this one day, we share problems to each other, (i thank wawan for that. hahas.). the bond became closer & tighter. the love became huge, & only god knows how much i love her now. seriously. she may look flipped all the time, she may be bitchy & harsh to you, but seriously, never ever judge a book by its cover. she's hard at the outside but she's soft in the inside. how much i've seen the true her, & her true colours. her background, & stuff, which somehow similar to people around me, make me click with her. her undefine love towards her staff & colleagues, at the same time her regular customers. there she goes again, i saw light shining through her. i'm really going to miss her like an arrow miss its target. her words of the day, her stupidity, her funny sight, her merepek-ness, her scoldings, her lemon/mango iced tea, her cheerful-ness, friendli-ness, her iniative doing stupid stuff like the picture below. haha. she's like the rainbow who add colours in the outlet. -sigh- i feel like tearing right now.

"aku kagum ah ngan kebolehan kau sebagai outlet manager. tanpa kau eh, outlet tu tk lively ah macam skrg. ". LOLS. we are going to miss you, syafidah binte samsudin. =( ahah, KO LUMPO KO LUMPO, AHH IPOHIPOHIPOH. haha! hais. memories will always linger.

anwanw. the candyass aka sawan babi aka ogy aka saiful fauzi, ya si ehhpul tu, & my dear papa bear, nurrrry, came down to IP CBTL to pay intan & i a visit, yesterday. the two clowns made me laugh my ears, teeth, nose offf! hopefully we can spend more time together sometimes horrr. thanks for dropppping by. =)=) appreciated. & kak fidah went to shop at amara with wawan, hakim(her son) & i. she was hilarious when she try out the shoes. ;).

to be continued......

=(

i'm having proooooblems! & i feel like running away from it.

it
is
sucks.

really.