haiz.

heys. i'm predominantly having a flu. i keep sneezing. my nose is upset, i noe. thanks to ME! i slept at 6 am. its ironic fer me to fall sick when i had enuf sleep. yeah, i did. i woke up at 2.45pm. its more than 8 hrs. duh. wats d use of prattling it. i'm confuse too. *tsk tsk*. hehes.

sis went to perm her hair. hope it will turn out well. she called me just now. shes dealing wit a jam-packed situation. serve her right! so kanchong. there she go again. havta wait fer several hours b4 her turn. d hair-dresser was rather unreliable. blueks.

actually havta help mum in d kitchen. i got no mood. my stomach grumbling. of cos. i'm fasting! i wanna study but i'm lack of energy. my brain just cant werk. i SWEAR, i just cant. i will after breaking my fast. 2mrw is gonna b my Malay O level. i'm re-taking it. i'm not enthusiastic at all. fer sure, i'm gonna do my best. yups.

seriously mum has a resonant voice. her voice resounded thruout d house. tts so annoying. she keep telling me to do this, that. mummy, i'm feeling so unwell!!!! my eyes are burning red. i tink i should start my power-napping. do u tink it will become worse? i dont noe. hmm. i wanna rest ferst. enables me to study later. YUPS. `toodles

i love my D. i swear I DO.

ta =)

uber bored!!

yos. i'm still awake this morns. i gotta study. apparently i havta study. i'm fitting in my relaxation in between. i'm just too sensitive. OVER study& even stress-NESS will make me sick. its so annoying. waiting fer my darls baby to reach hm frem werk. guess he's full after tucking in d food. hehes. its so uber boring.

yesterday went to geylang. back home at 1 plus. it was jam-packed. mostly covered by d malays who went dere wit purpose tagging along wit em. d mats & minahs who r not really welcomed was fuckin kecohrable. & cheeky mats who were paid to sell tings didnt do a good job. so fugly! i was jaded tho d atmosphere seems to be super happening. syed azmir caught my eye. another clon of usher baby. hahas. he's so adorable. hahas. i was most captivated of d food. YUMMY! nothing much. purchased it while stock last. shessshh!

i love my darls baby alot! thanks to him, he brought me to d rite track. may miracles will come by our way.

aite. i shall end here. i'm getting sleepy. mayb i shall curled up on my bed. i shall c. i'll blog again soon. ~toodles.

ps; i miss my watevas to bits

X anti cockroaches

ta

have fun? no!

aik. i'm going geylang really soon. wit sis & bro inc. my relaxation fer d day. i needa look out fer stuff. blueks. its gonna b a sleep-LESS nite today. i wanna stay awake to study. i needa to catch up & needa LOTS of practice fer Maths. esp Chem. so frail in it. i cant waste much time. i noe tt very well.

i'm missing & loving my darls baby day by day. i donno when is our next meet-up. hope its gonna b really soon. yup yup. i gtg now. i'll blog whenever i'm free rite. `toodles =D

X anti racist.

ta.

whats d fucking wrong?!

i find it funny. those premonitions i had was really unpredictable. i wonder wat when wrong. neither do i want to be a pessimist. everything seems wrong. be it good stuff or bad stuff. my mood went down. i dont wish to neglect my friend or my bf. i just wanna be alone fer d time being. its horrible aint it? i'm imagining a current surge down my nerves. i didnt register it in me. tink its natural. i've learnt to feel remorseful. i've learnt to bear wit consequences. but those arent wat i need now. i'm blown into pieces. its so fake. i'm aint trying to be lame.

theres sumtink running thru my mind n my body which i just cant figure it out. i just want to have a glow of satisfaction. i cant. my eyes glaze around d room whenever i tink back bout it. a girl like me wanna b flawless. how apt i can be?! d elementary mistakes wasnt meant to b brood over. 1 tink to be frank, i hate having boredom & stress-NESS foisted on me. its cruel is it? i donno. i don wanna abandon any of my love ones by my stupid premonitions. i prayed so that i'm in d pink of health till O's end. & i SWEAR i'll be on top of d world wen d day come. i leave it to god. i just want my parents to be happy.

i'll blog again.

~toodles :P

duh. i'm being lame.

eh-OH. today d last day of skul. unfortunately, unable to turn up. darn it! i'm down wit diarrheoa. i'm feeling nauseous. felt like puking. my stomach grumbling. guess i ate too much day b4. i wanna meet Mrs TeO!!! desperately want to. fuck! shes nurturing me wit Chem. lots of crucial ques bout Chem racing in my brain. wat shuld i do?? wat shuld i do?????!!! O's around d corner. its next week. & currently i'm busy wit preparations of my O's n celebrations. arghhhh!! its so coincident. its killing me, i swear. hit me deeply. IDEA!!! yeah. gonna ask haikal to guide me in my chemistry instead since he's did well fer it. hahas. now i can smile! =D guess i needa manage my time wisely. i needa focus, i know tt.

i met darls yesterday. discuss bout stuff. so happy! hahas. bf, i swear i love you. hmm. my watevas doing great. infact they r really focusing. yup yup. good luck peep!! i cant wait to meet them. looking forward to Grad's nite. definitely all of us will turn on wit our own costumes. good looking peeps. hahas. kiki, dont be a pessimist k. hahas. i'm sure he loves you. insecure is bad. muacks princess! lei is sick. hope she's getting well soon. i'm kinda worried bout her condition. shall msg her later.

gonna meet zunairah n kiki at nite. gonna study Chem together. n soon, gonna met Haikal under my blk. my 5 yrs time........ errr. opps. hahas. without baim pls. hes so fucking annoying. damn. okie dokie. gonna take a shower. shall blog some other time. take care. love yar. muacks!!! have a nice day ahead!! ~toodles

bonnie&clyde

monotonous!

hey hey!!! i miss bloggie~ study, study, study. tts all i tink about. really pain in d arse. 1 week left. n its O's. perhaps simultaneously studying n preparation fer Hari Raya. so flat! coping wit both crucial activities. darn! hmm. i'm totally snowed under my tight schedule.

me n darls, fine. we are doing great infact. yups yups. 3 mths anni round d corner. DEEPARAYA too. no fun diz year. ferget bout enjoying. last lap, i havta sprint no matter wat it takes. i just cant wait to meet my cousins n wear my new suit fer d celebration. bf mostly busy wit werk n stuff. his OT especially.

yarh. upcoming o level. let us werk hard fer it yar! cant wait fer Grad Nite. our awesome costume. hahas. aite. gtg. rush hour. tatas. muacks!! toodles.

hearts wateva's.
love, darls.

in kiki's hse

13 Oct 05

eh-OH! its has been a long time since i update my bloggie. yup yup. sorry. really sorry. was busy d 4 few weeks. moreover O's r around d corner. so, don hab time to blog n even watch tv. even if i have d time, i will b curling up like pig . hahas. super lethargic. futhermore its fasting month. felt weaker n weaker as days pass. no energy. aint mood to study. lei n kiki felt tt way too. however, we havta endure fer d time being. =)

currently in kikis hse. slacking n wandering around here. hahas. she's on d phone. d main reason came to her hse is to do our last min art. hahas. havta pass up 2mrw. darn it! me n kiki struggling to finish it up. d moral of d story is, DONT DO LAST MIN WORK! wakaka. its so annoying actually. gonna go home soon n continue my last resort art piece. abit of development n decoration, DONE!! hope lei ok by now. she wasnt really well diz pass few days. tink she needa lotsa of rest to boost up her energy. get well soon curly bastard.

2mrw gonna meet dydy. yeah yeah. *smile* i juz cant wait to see him, cuddle him, kiss him. overall i miss him many many. guni, thiaga, hidi n sab, dy n me going to play pool sumwhere in SP. yeah. gonna enjoy ourself. d only way fer me to release stress. resting time. yipee~ i just wanna see dy thats all. thats all ok. hahas. today is his ferst werk in Holiday Inn as a waiter accompany by yong. hope it goes on well. yeah. 3-11 werk; just hate it. so long da!!! hahas,

aite dude. i gtg. cant wait to get home n hug my bolster. i needa take a nap then continue my art. hahas. so fucking bore. i'll update if i'm free n IF i'm not lazy. aite. love.love. muah!

i heartt my darls baby!

`toodles.

happy fasting!

5 oct 05

ey-YO. today is d first day of d fasting month. yup. n all the Muslims in d world are fasting. i didnt feel anything today. neither did i feel hungry or weak. instead i feel so energetic n still d hyper-active gerl. jumping here n dere. hahas. i aint famish to death. havta endure fer only a mth. i'm just feeling so restless. it was raining in d morning. i went to skul late. thanks kai fer waiting me. its sickening i noe. hehe. my shoes were washed by d rain. so, i left wit no choice, but to wear flip flops to skul. it was super nice cos d coolimng effect on my leg was dere. hahas.

we changed classroom. as our previous air-condition classroom was flooded wit water due d heavy rain. *sigh* so, we moved to d non air condition classroom. it was so stuffy. luckily it was raining earlier. it was rather chilly n windy. a day without air con was like, everything seems to b down n monotous. hahas. very ngada2. i wonder how are we gonna adapt to tt classroom till d end of skul. damn it! really testing our patience. hahas. =P nah. i dont mind. as long as we are secured n there is protection, its alrite wit me. no big deal.

i went home wit aly. d biggie n d smollie. LOL. he look like a monster to me. a fugly one. hahas. cos d way he stared at gerl; similar to those perverts or can be consider as rapist. hehes. he's damn hilarious. yeah. d usual usual mons; relentlessly asking fer huggies. pieces of me dont dare to touch it. its so fuckish. aite. tonight not going fer night class. our first day of nite class was on Monday. reached home at 11.30, cos it was raining cats n dogs. thaanks to dydy who was dere to accompany me thru out d hours. muacks! gonna meet darls as i miss him so badly. eh, i will study aite, don ya worry. i PROMISE, i will.

dy went fer interview wit guna n thiaga sumwhere in Raffles. he's in my mind fer 24/7. even in my dream. hehe. its been 2 yrs plus i knew dydy. i knew him better den anyone else. frem strangers to friends. frem friends to BGR thingy. he's my close fren, he's my daddy n he's my guy. i'm loving him fereva. our love will blossom every single minute n second.

lei love cko so much, same goes to kiki who love bird alot! i WILL last, n i'm sure they will too. i miss lei. she didnt come to skul today. i wonder y, what happen. shall figure it out later. a great gf's i have. thank god, i found them, my watevers too. putty is missing in action. come back la gerl! havent been in skul fer more den a week. i'm getting worried.

*yum* yum* d aroma of d dish mum is cooking now is making me high. now my stomach starting to growl. i havta wait at 6 plus to break my fast. *gulp* fer d moment, swallow my saliva n WAIT! hahas. okie dokie. i wanna rest fer a while. so, i'll blog again. soon. tatas. love.love =D

`toodles

`1ST OCT 05

eh-OH!! i'm super duper blissful today!! a smile is a MUST or else it will ruin. TODAY, is my 2nd mth anniversary wit dydy!!! hahas. hope it will last long. it will grow n develop every single day. i SWEAR, i'm loving him alot, so much. DARLS&DARLY. we didnt getta chance to celebrate it like our 1st mth, which was rather low-profile at tt time, to tok about. hahas. i was busy d whole day. wit my tuition, my outing wit sis n bro inc. so, i have to fit in time fer my beloved dydy. i went to J.E entertainment wit him. tts our 2nd mth date. hehe. =) went to KFC, giggling here n dere. he neva fail to tease me. naughty darls! saw aza n haziq. cheapskate bitches! hahas. they were like robber "stealing" my $2. damn it fuckers! i hecked bout it n reluctantly donate d money to em. hahas.

after tt, went back home. our hugs n kisses is d present. nothing much happen after tt so i'm not gonna elaborate it. damn! its a day of LOVE. the urge of not letting dydy go frem my side overwhelmed. i just need him so much. gee!! hahas. love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.
love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love.love
IS BEAUTIFUL AS IT IS!!

enuf of just now. hahas. yesterday, i went to J.E library wit miki kai. after he meet aisha to give d camera, we went to 2nd floor to dig fer art books. had a very hard time looking thru it. hahas. thanks kai, fer enduring it. both of us was chuckling non-stop. den my hp which was suppose to b silent, rang. damn!! then i was looking around n theres this gp of peeps sitting down near d shelf was looking at me. i thought i was disturbing em n kai, apologise to em. hahas. i was fucking paiseh lar. so, theres 1 time i glimpse at d em cos we were LOL. scared tt we might disturb em. i was wondering y d Chinese gerl was presenting me a tiny smile. den i spotted harun. out of nowhere, hidhir n his gf was dere. i was fucking astounded. was speechless fer d moment.

so, all i can afford to do was to smile at him n hui ling. in addition to sincere wave. hehes. my mind ran amok. all d memors btween me n him suddenly came to my mind. i thought all diz while we r nt meant to meet, but i was wrong. damn. i didnt wanna tink bout him anymore. i mumbled dyd's name. yeah. in a snapped, hidhir was deleted frem my hard drive. i swear i didnt have any feelings towards him but u see, as a gerl, we cant ferget tinks easily esp memors. hui ling is a very nice gerl. i realised it then. she is. tho she's just a platonic fren of mine, shes still sum1 in my heart. hope both of them r able to go thru ups n downs together. LIFE IS LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES.

aite. i wanna watch this malay drama which was similar to d story unfaithful. waiting fer darls to msg. so yeah. i got to go. but wait, i wanna wish cko&lei; happy 1st MTH ANNIVERSARY!! hahas. yeah. damn lei, ur anni late fer 1 mth da. klau tk da same eh? hehes. niway, hope you both last long okie. love you babe! *yawn* tatas. muackies!!

[[DARLS]]

baby i love you,

n i will neva let you go

but if i have to,

boy i tink tat u shuld noe

al d LOVE we made,

will NEVER BE ERASE

n i promise you tat you

will NEVER BE REPLACE

[[ i love you, baby ]]

*muah! muaahh!*

happy 2nd anniversary