zess.

yos. fornly i'm not meeting dy later. hes meeting me either late afternoon or i guess tomorrow.
but i dont noe whether i can make it cos i needa finish my art & as fer 2mrw, i needa study fer my POA. haiz. i'm gonna miss him MORE! i'm kind of depress wit my bills. i needa werk so dat i'm able to pay it up. i don wanna trouble anybody esp my parents. im so desperately needa werk. *grins*

i'm starting to believe in miracles. tho most of d time my premonitions will demoralise those. i'm hoping miracles. d whole nite i was tinking bout my future wit dy. frankly, our chance to be together 4 d rest of our lives is incredibly slim. i can feel d separation electric current between our relationship. i wish..... i wish.... i wish.... i'm sick of it. it will neva turn out well. i wanna be wit dy, forever. cos i love him so much. i don want d days fer us to end this relationship come so soon. dy cant neva be replace. i havent make up my mind. d future mrs dinesh is lucky. as fer me, i donno how to overcome it. it make me feel so weak as if i'm paralyse as soon as i tink bout d religion which is stopping us. easy to say but difficult to be done.

ok enuf. i shouldnt talk bout this further. i feel so clueless. ~toodles.