fuck it.

it sucks, wen A fren which u just get to noe, less than a mth, is disappointed wit you. & yet, he dont wanna utter the reason. its none of my business?? thanks, ur maturity is so low. i'm leading my own life, & now you have to add salt to the wound. if you have those "balls" on your LEE, have to guts to say it infront of me. NOT behind me, fuck.

thats wats friend are for??? *nods head*
Y this shit has to happen, NOW?? fuck.
i'm sucks. be it in relationship or friendship.

muggafcker.

fuck it.

it sucks, wen A fren which u just get to noe, less than a mth, is disappointed wit you. & yet, he dont wanna utter the reason. its none of my business?? thanks, ur maturity is so low. i'm leading my own life, & now you have to add salt to the wound. if you have those "balls" on your LEE, have to guts to say it infront of me. NOT behind me, fuck.

thats wats friend are for??? *nods head*
Y this shit has to happen, NOW?? fuck.
i'm sucks. be it in relationship or friendship.

muggafcker.

wave to 7mths

goodbye, darls baby. goodbye, danish. goodbye, dinisha. goodbye, 7mths.

wen i'm gone, you have to move on. in the next 20 mins, its suppose to be our 7mth, but guess, everything is over. now, to-be-reality has changed to dream. what's into me?? i'm clueless. still feeling hell rigid reminscing those 6 mths of relationship. i'm just ensure of myself rite now, cos damn ME, things arent changing at all. i have to move on, too.

& yeahh, aniways, stop inserting fazzley into OUR story. he is out of this matter. enuf of our quarells, enuf of you critising my WATEVAs & yeah, enuf of your wild guess&accusations. its so much sucks. i tried to understand you, but can you understand me? i doubt so. nothing is impossible, dy. i can forgive but i cant forget. just be happy, & i'll b happy, cos u deserve a bit of it, trust me. i'm still here fer you, i swear, tho you are gonna heck the friendship. *tsk tsk*

__________________________________________________________________

aniways, met miki just nw & yeahh he bought this lovely ring fer lily&himself, too. AWW. tts sweet la kai. oh ya, i brought DB along too. fuh, sui, they can clique& get along with each other, pretty well, tho. =D we headed to the coffee bean&get some drinks. we had fun, & fer tt very moment, i can forget everything, everything, everything. i'm glad. but now? everything, everything, everything, flash thru me, again. darn. *hecks* & yar, jijah, my lovely dovey bestfren, thanks fer ur advice& yeahh, ur my motivator&my pillar of strength whenever i'm weak. I LOVE YOU!!! so much!

*yawns* landing on my bed soon. ~toodles.

1st Aug

1st Aug 2005, is d date it starts. 1st March 2006, is it gonna end??

afterall, i felt miserable. i told myself, "no more tears, fida", but i did, weeping at the middle of d nite. HIS msg, made me cry more. hais. where is the love??? where??

searching fer love, definitely need guidance frem above.

its the TODAY, & yeahh, sorrows? or happiness??
i want OUR happiness. urs&MINE, too.

i am, sucks.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, TO MY BEST BEST GF EVER, HAMIZAH.

love you sweet-love. i miss you so much. god bless you. be happy wit ur love ones.

& to miki kai, too.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! muah!

hugs&kisses to both of YOU, love~ !!!!!!
muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i'm moving on.

i'm moving on. i'm glad, i am. i'm walking alone to&fro without depending on people. yeahh. its liberty per usual. i cant denied tt he is still running in my mind. our memories, i cant get rid of it, so so soon.

his father's words, is still lingering in my ears. Y did it hurt so much, this time. ??? i have pillar of strength, i do have. thanks WATEVAs, thanks fazzley, thanks zul. btw, i'm gonna fuck it, fuck everything. destroy everything,everything, everything tt has been playing in my mind, all this while. yeahh. i needa the tranquility tt i use to have. from the quarell which start frem the old crush& leads to more more quarell. eurgh. deleting it slowly frem my hard drive. i have to, i really have to.

& to fazzley, u dont have to feel guilty over wat has happened between me&dinesh. nothing to do with you at all. dont worry. =)

its too late& i'm sorry.
ur gone.

~toodles.

i hate the day

F U C K more.

a fucking day with a fucking life surrounded by fuckers, considering me, myself&i, as a fucking bitch too. fuck it, its sooo fuck-y&fuck wat i said.
yeahh. f u c k. real fuck. hate the day. d end of u&me

d end of ME, too. wanna be a loner

no you, no them, too

your dad, hurt me. sorry, tts all you can say. can you feel how i feel?? u cant. i respect, who he is, tts d reason y i'm not talking back. he's pointing his finger on ME, just ME. f u c k again.

i hate wild guess&accusations, tts fucking annoying.

~toodles.

ihais

he made me feel miserable. truly a bastard, tts me. save your sorry. u deserve a better life, MR. i hate wild guess& fer sure, i hate this my life, as for now. you'll never understand. never, even if you do, u'll never. it sucks. frigging sucks. eurgh. my mind is completely filled with emptiness.

thanks to fazzley. thanks to him&to him.

~toodles

its fading. really.

i dont know why it is so difficult this time.

we were meant to be suppose to be, but we lost it
all the memories so close to me, just fade away.

i love you, i still do.

y? y??

a blur, blurry day.

how am i suppose to share wit you, everything, when you are hiding sumtink frem me?? its already fading & gaining it back, not a snap. what happen to me??? its just me&me. nothing wrong wit you, at all.

i'll come back to you. not so soon.

~toodles.

i'm sucks.

i made him cry again&again. i'm sucks. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really am.

fuck it. sucks~

goodbye, my lover. goodbye, my friend.


why did i always have to be the middle-person?? & why did i always have to feel hurt??
yeahh. i agree, i've been lying to you, lately but frankly, i've been lying to myself more. i'm the most fucking liar, here. LIAR&a LOSER. doubble L's.

it sucks, when i have to go thru everything by myself.
it sucks, when he or em dont understand me
it sucks more, when i cant make him happy on his special day.
it sucks more, when we quarell on his day.
it sucks the most, when he make wild guess & accusations, wen its not true.
it sucks the most mostly most of all, when he reject my present & just walk away.
it sucks.....................

i'm drench wit tears. hurt, so so hurt. i dont have the ability, to listen to anybody advice, anymore. FUCK. i've changed& i'm fading away. this what i get, i too think, i deserve it. i hide everything, wit good intention. y cant u feel how i feel?? its impossible. i'm frigging hurt, the feeling is so terrible. you, deserve a better girl den me. i'm a burden to you, my religion too. my future, my life. thanks, fer everything. i'm zipping my mouth, & i just wanna walk alone& be alone.

its hard fer me to forgive&forget this time. it hurt so much, den anitink else. hais. i'm totally mind-stricken. we pissed each other, good. i'm trashing the useless birthday present. goodbye, priceless&meaningless present. its fading more. heard of a love game?? it can gain&fade, & gain again, & yeahh, expectedly, fade again. fuck it.

& lei baby, i love you so much, sweetheart.~

~toodles.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DINESH~

damsel in distress.

yo. i'm badly, heartache. hopefully, D&D day out turn out perfectly alryt. its HIS birthday, fida, cmon. yeahh. no worries, dy, we'll be happy together. *nods head*. gonna bathe soon, & meet dy after proceeding to nowhere ferst.

i'm tugging in the black forest choco cake tt DB gave it to me fer FREE again, yesterday. wahahah~ yummy-hell! DB was known as DB among my colleagues, & yeahh, during my lunch i had FREE food, again. yeahh~ super lame ass-ess. thanks, MIA. thanks DB too.

frankly, i'm officially missing my WATEVAs. i love you, darl. pure alot.

aite, shall blog again, pretty soon.

{{ YOU deserve a better girl den me, trust me }}
*BEEP*

~toodles.


HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, DINESH!!!!!

BE HAPPY, DARLS BABY. I LOVE YOU~!!

have a nice day

live it or burn it??

if you tink we are drifiting away because of my current job, i guess you are totally wrong. i'm clueless, as well. its just me, cos oh-my-god, i'm still under my pessimist character; which, too bad, i cant really transform myself into being a optimist. i think, i'm the 1, fading away from you. i still love u but not much as i use to. see, i'm clueless, & hopeless too. yes, true, i miss you alot. reason?? fer me to noe, fer you to find out. i know how you hate this sentence. its d same as i hate the word, SO. just smile fer me. =D *tsk tsk* troublemaker, i know very very well.

had lunch wit DBs previous day. yeahh. had fun. i can forget everything, everything, everything. but wen it comes to work-boreness, everything, everything, everything, came back&mingle in my mind. SERIOUS? yeahh. ~shessh. i'm forcing myself to be happy, but i'm happy. i'm forcing myself to smile, but i'm smiling. eurgh. crapping, again. fuck it, as long as i can endure, let's keep everything, everything, everything to myself. cos i've promise The Girl, tt i'll never never feel hurt about everything, everything, everything.

looking forward to have lunch wit DBs, again & head home wit em, too. SMILE. *prays hard* everything, everything, everything, turns out well. including facing wit The Desperado. nyehnyehnyeh~ did i just laugh?? err. i guess so.

DINESH, he's turning 18 tomorrow. hopefully, we can meet, dydy. i need you, i really do.

gonna bathe, now&rite now. happy, happy, happy. don worry, happy-go-lucky. HAVE A NICE DAY! =)

~toodles.

wat feelings???

living life to the fullest

happy, just stay happy. be happy, cos you'll be truly happy. smile, & be merry. laugh& always happy. wat's in the word HAPPY? you can find happiness. so happy&u'll forever be happy. happy you, happy me. happy? i'm happy.

=) =D

~toodles

yeahh. HAPPY.

yo. a big smile, =D,on a mixed-blood happy+bored+exhausting day, tho it seems so SUCKS~ pretty pretty SUCKS~ u r happy, i'm happy too. u miss me?? hey, i miss you, more. wahaha~ a great great time, cos i'm being tipsy fer d whole freaking day. my eyes are challenging me, enuf. ok, i made new frens MORE~~~ wahaha~~ heres, d list of my new friends, :: (not in order)

1. RAUF- hey hey hey, YOU, i know you since i was in secondary school. & coincidencely, you r my childhood fren's, rahim, brother. HAHAs. small werld, got you, rauf.

2. MIA- missy MIA, you r d ferst delifrance lady, i talk to. as amicable, as you are not seem to be. wahahha~ very sweet lady. & i guess, i'm loving you. see you in SP. congrats, gurl. =D

3. ZUL- d big-size, really big, guy in delifrance. wahaha~ had a good good chat with you, d other day la zul. u r so hilarious, seriously. & oh my, u r good at communicating with a complicated lady like me, lar. nyehhnehh~~ can go home wit me, again?? =X

4. JACOB- we got d same teeth rite, jacob? ahah. nice braces to me& to you, too. hahas. you fucking sly. nyehnyeh~

5. JOSEPH-so hot, hot hot, manager u r joseph. & yeahh, thanks fer d nick, which is "sayang", hahas & d hot drink, splendid. funny la you.. =)

6. FAZZLEY- d most gorgeous, sweet&cutest guy, at Delifrance. hey, thanks alot fer all d FREE food & d VD mixed-fruit tart, too. sweet, sweet, sweet la.!! ayu love ur looks&ur smile & d fact is, she's attracted to you~ wahaha. THANK YOU, once again. cool, cool, cool.

did i miss anybody?? hmm, getting to noe more people pretty soon. merging
WATSONs&Delifrance. hahaS. how bout tt?? horror. =S aite, i'm so so fcuking sleepy. landing off completely needa a nite-early sleep. bliss. looking to see you guys, soon.

i'm waiting........... where are you???

~toodles.

HAPPy belated VD.

YO. YO. YO. yeahh. =D most happiest day, of ALL. cos obviously, its VALENTINE'S DAY~~ wahahaha~ we had fun. really fun. fun of love. love. love. love. WOW~ blast of LOVE, love & just love. & full of HILARIOUS activity. ayu, angie& i, went to d condom shop at Chinatown Town. 3 of us, was super cheeky & ayu bought some fool toys fer her husband. she keep telling us about how small his husband's LEE. wahhaha~ sick in the arse, la you bitch.

late tt afternoon, after werk, me&ayu went to delifrance cos i was terrible tempting to eat the brownies. lucky lucky day, the gorgeous guy, fazzley, gave me 1 mixed-fruit-tart fer FREEE!~~~ wahh. so good lor. hahaZ. he charge me fer only $2.00, fer the brownies, which intially cost fer $2.40. wahaha~ great, too. thanks, delifrance boy. come to WATSONs, i'll give mine too. heheS. & both of us proceed to City Hall, & dere whereby, i met dy along the way. ayu, we had fun rite? ryt? ryt? kau giler LEE!!!!!!! hahahaS. & den......................................... dy spotted hudaMI& he tapped her hand. i was blur like sotong, sia. hahaZ. reminiscing the past, again. darn it. i dubbed, it never register in me animore. not animore, this time. regrets, regrets. *tsk tsk*

me&dy were, pretty romantic couples. we went to ECP, tts our ferst stop&my wishlist, too. eurgh. its so like heaven. listening to d waves beating to the shore, d wind, blowing us & not to forget, the sea cockroach, which scare us. oh not us, but ME! sucks. & we had this dumbass challenge which is, we had to kiss fer 5 mins. so yeahh, like nobody business, we smooch&smooch, & toooooo shiok, tt we exceeded by a few mins. wahahaha~~ long time, no passion ryt dydy?? *blushing* we laid on each other's lap. dy bought me a ring!!!! ~~~wahahaha. thanks, dy baby! i love you, so so much~~!! look so so wonderful. i almost teared upon receiving it. (tho not d rite size), i appreciate it, sayang. speciality: written on the ring, Dnesh&Fida. 1st Aug 05. coool?? cool?? cooll?? i LOOVEeee... hehes & yeahh, we had our late late dinner at MCdonald, & hui chia ler...............

HAD FUN~!! *yawns*

~toodles.

pics.

yos. waahahhaa~~ tonnes of edited, pictures. ME&dinesh. wee`` nothing to do, so yeahh, this is wat i did, earlier. new edition, coming up soon. rate it& help me, which is d nicest?? hah? hah? ~toodles.

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3.

4.

Is your birthday day 19 of the month?

Your Life

You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gainrespect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that youare better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrongpath. You are a free bird and want to lead yourown life.

Your Love

You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love,nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon afterthat, you will make up in a way that surprises others.

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oh ya dinesh, is this really really true????? i agree to a large extw\ent regarding OUR LOVE. HAHAs. me&dy falls on the 19th. believe (as above) or not?? hmm.

had fun!

yos. gd day, gd day, pretty much much more, gd day. =D went out with khairul after werk cos, ferst of all, dy is werking. *tsk tsk*. bored. & we proceeded to City Hall & then to Marina Square. wahahaha~ it was jam=packed, as usuals, cos today is SATURDAY!! both of us, ambled to the adidas shop. WAH! so sui lar, cos the suits, footwear were not bad. i purchased a t-shirt & a cap, while miki, bought a green-colour adidas shirt. good taste, miki. i loikee it, too. tho i tink green sucks, but the design&pattern drown the colour. it really impress me, very well. *shessh.
after tt, we went to Fox at MS, where my sis is werking at, currently. wahaha~ i bought this super-nice jacket, fer like $21 bucks after 20% discount. really worth-it. GLAD =D sastified wit wat exactly i bought today. yipes.

we met nasrun&jun, shes so gorgeous&amicable. new fren, again. nyehnyehnyeh~ good taste, la mat. make sure u treat her well, otherwise, i'll stripped u naked. i swear,i will. hahas. =p not a bad place to werk in la nas, cos korang macam relaks gitu eh. kes bole goyang kaki, sak. hahas. no worries, u'll be transferring again. d good thing is, ur wit jun, again. tts cool. enjoy at FUNAN. *winks* we had a nice chat. & same-old-reminscing-past. guess tts WATEVAs culture. gahahaha~ & told em, about my colleagues, who cant stop toking bout mr "LEE". & d most-idiotic-customer who asked, her how to use d raincoat & d way she explains, unbelievable. wahahah~ cheeky+hilarious+naughty. darn. greaat greaat.

so, fast-forward to WATEVAs gatthering. let's take off day, at the same time yo. we shall discuss. niway, not a workaholic at all. wee~ i tink, all along, i'm crapping la, cos i'm a night-dreamer. aite, tomorrow, off day, YEAHHHH. & by the way, looking forward to VD. we r going EC, how romantic, rite rite rite?? HEHEs. i cant wait !! hmm, i love WATEVAs, damn much. & i miss mr dinesh, alot!! tts fer sure. ok, craps??~ yar la.


READ THIS.
intriguing~
& dydy, is this so TRUE?? nyenyeh. u expert ma!

Article 1: Statement of Love: The Kiss

1. Kiss on the hand I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck I want you
4. Kiss on the lips I love you
5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes kiss me
8. Playing with your hair I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go

Article 2: The Three Steps
1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3. Guys & Girls Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare .

Article 3: The Commandments
1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.
2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.
3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity . * Remember * A peach is a peach A plum is a plum, A kiss isn't a kiss Without some tongue. So open up your mouth close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you... 1
9. The way they fall into your arms when they cry 20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
23. The way they say "I miss you"
24. The way you miss them
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt. *

i fail.

yos. yeahh, i really really did badly fer my O's. screwed like hell. cant turn back time, i've tried my best. congrats to everyone~~ we r moving on to the next stage. 21 points, sucks? i noe. wahahaa~

no worries, i'm going SP to take up diploma in interior design. how about tt???? err. aite, aite. disappoint my parents, my family&myself. crash~~ *tsk tsk*

do you tink i got future-ahead???

~toodles

hais

i dont use to be like i use to be. yes, i agree, i tink too much, lately. & i've been a day-dreamer&later, tearing, fer no-hell reasons. it sucks, more. i'm feeling much much culpable den b4, cos i guess i'm jeopardizing a friendship. yeahh, MR, i've shown my true colours. no longer, no longer, no longer have d capability to control my own feelings. i dont tink i owe anybody an apology. finally, she got to feel how i feel, cos she has been thru it too. blissful. i know tt you will understand me. i'm just being frank, as tts how i feel inside me.

*you should tell me the truth. no point fingers.

is god showing us, we r not meant to be together?? i dont know. seperation wont do any good, u r rite, nurul. i'm washing my hands off as fer nw. filled with storms, totally. try to be happy, he spoilt it, great. vengeance, more pls.

i feel so so shitty cos, my problems with dy will never end,
feel shitty cos happiness will stay fer a while& it gone again&again,
feel shitty cos i tink i'm drifting away, per usual.
feel shitty cos, i guess i'm d fire who is trying to destroy d whole hse.
feel a shitty jitty cos, 2mrw is d release of my results.
feel shitty cos, ITE here i come.
feel shitty cos, i've shown my true colours.

hais. hais. hais. leia baby, being frank&telling him how i feel, isnt a good idea, at all. see, i told you, i tried but it will never never work out right. i'm useless, la lei. i cant afford to do anytink except teared&hurt him. i'm getting things back on d rite track, wit her, cos yar, pple make mistakes&i dont wanna lose a special fren like her. friendship, comes ferst, follow by relationship, i agree miki. i shuldnt talk about it, cos it hurts. give me d taste. 1 werd, apt to create more quarells. hais. hais. i shall shut my mouth, & keep everything to myself. we need a break. wat else can i do??? ~~ hais. =X this feeling, sucks. pretty well. i hurt her, i hurt him. maybe then need each other, i dont know. well, well, well. cut it. my mind is blank. speechless. lets wait&see.

i'm missing tt "someone" i truly love. how are you? how have u been?? i miss crying to you, laughing with you, hug you & talk to you. i wish you r here, rite now. but it seems, u r so far away.

i'm a burden to YOU&YOU too.



Izinkan aku melafazkan isi hatiku
Kau yang satu, bagiku tiada lain darimu
Pasti ku kan ubati lukamu segala kemahuanmu, kuberi
Janjiku padamu hatiku hanya untukmu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untuk mu
Izinkan aku lafazkan isi hatiku
Masihkah aku
Bertakhta di hatimu
Janjiku padamu
Hatiku kau perlu tahu...
Mainanku igauanku hanya perasaan yang menular
Haruskah dirimu, membenci diriku
Kupohon maaf darimu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untukmu
Berikan diriku
Secebis senyum tawamu
Bagaikan mentari di hati
Bila kau kembali di sisi
Kau membawa erti hidupku ini
Kembali berseri...


~toodles

moodswing

yo. moodswing. tonnes of tales, to tell. not today, i'm exhausted. mixed feeling. rojak habis. angry+sad+happy. later at nite, maybe. i'm sucks. no PMS, too. wonder y?? mingling again&again. 1 moment, i'll be laughing, d next moment, i'll be tearing. i've been tinking too much, lately. yy?? hais. we quarell alot, this past few days. vengeance of feelings. fuck it. my gf's agree, as well as, my guyfrens, suprisingly tho its a gerl to gerl matter. HAIL~~ 3rd party, its suffocating. leave me&dy in peace. our relationship. hais.

its all tt matters.
time will come, & here come, d bad side of me. YOU, yes YOU.

~toodles. =S

yo. here i am, once again.where did i stop??? oh ya, about my day of lives. hahaS. i jabber alot today, cos i preferred mouth-exercising. am i'm in a jocular mood, as in, really really craaaazzzziiieeeeeee~~~~~~~~~????!!!!!!! i guess, i guess, i guess so. i think childish frivolity whenever i'm wit dydy. hehes. dy fetch me&den we go thru hell in d mrt cos it was extremely jam-packed but still, we r able to tickle each other. fidgeting all about. wat else ar???? err... i tend to forget things easily this few days. short-term memory???? *tsk tsk*

i'm facing onerous duty 2mrw, cos as far as i'm concerned, i'm working full-shift, again. crashing with dreadful organisation of roaster. *slapping forehead* unresponsive, too. argh. yikes~~ i needa a purely sastifaction wen i purchase a brand new purse, pretty soon. d previous 1, emily, which i used it fer just like a month, unfortunately, have to be condemn. *regret* a bigger 1 pls~ & few special spaces, to place my cardS, noteS&coinS. err, not gonna be roxy pls, too common & furthermore, d design, nowadays, are kinda fugusting. *shessh*


looking forward::
jittery, 10th Feb.
new purse.
Valentine's Day.
lepak-ing
baby aiman's 1st month

my FEB babies:
dy baby, 19 FEB
kiki, WATEVAs, 20 FEB
miki kai, WATEVAs, 25 FEB
jijah, best GF, 26 FEB

wahaha~ plans&sabotaging is on my list toooo~~! =D

mr lee&his raincoat. sounds weird?? opps. not wat it seems to be. beware.
this wat we tok about every single day, during our bore-ness at werk. wahahaha~~
knowledge, too.

dydy, baby loves you, no matter wat, yo. muah! & yar.... u & ur kish kish. gahahaha~~

~toodles.

tonnes of stories awaiting. i'm frigging weary. laugh alot wit dydy today! wahahahaha~~ do you tink i'm being a dumb-ass fer tt very very moment, dinesh???? gahahaha!~ adidas set, is yours now. hehes. i love you too, darls baby.

insecure-ness fading away. i'm glad =D

to be continue..........

`toddles

sucks

she will never understand. he will never understand. i will never understand too. its UNBELIEVABLE. i dont mind feeling d pain, but not YOU.

i'm a sucker&a loser~ a true blue sensitive & full of jealousy idiotic. do you tink i am too??? i noe wat u're tinking rite now.

sucks of all.

frigging bored.

yo. aint i have d feeling of tired-ness or sleepy-ness after a long day of travelling here&dere??? eurgh. i guess, upon hearing tt our judgement day will be this coming FRIDAY, 10th FEB, i was totally grief-stricken. horrified cos i'm dwell over d bads not d goods. nyehnyehnyeh~~ most probably tts d reason y i'm still awake till now. tinkin too much ehh???? hecks, too. i seems to have d worth-living aptitude for demoralising myself, hahas. how apt! wahaha~~

day was a drab one, true drab, i mean. BUT, dy melts me wen we meet up just nw. BABY~~ tho i was totally drained after facing not-enough-snores. our port-to-be-pretty-soon, GP, we stepped it once again. =D & yeahh, its too catchy. *roll eyes* i had a GREAT GREAT time with you, my darls baby. my hot-shot bf, arent you??

maybe, i shuldnt dwell so much about darls&darly's past. frem betraying to betraying again. god-noes, how we go thru tt "shit". part of d past, is currently bothering me, cos of wat has been happening daily of my lives. i can see it, i can feel it too. darn. Y?????? stop bothering our relationship. can you, pls?! =X

Valentine's Day is around the corner. fuck, tts during my afternoon shift. dy&i are waiting fer dis very very wanted moment. erm, any ideas?? shall i be naughty just fer tt day?? hmm. *twinkled toes* ako, get well soon.

dozing, soon. `toodles.

beauty is not everything!

yo. wasted. really wasted. god create humans, but fornly, human didnt appreciate it& take it fer granted or dont even feel grateful fer wat they have. its futile if you are beautiful but you are sucks at your characteristic. be it gerls or guys. beauty is not all you need in your own-self. its not about win-win situation but this is just d speak of my mind, again. its not how d way u look urself in d mirror, its how people look at you frem their view. you have external beauty?? wonderful!! how about internal??? tts much much more wonderful!! without internal beauty, tts incomplete. without external beauty, it doesnt matter at all, cos wat matter now, is a so lots bout external beauty. everybody in this whole wide world, is born to be a someone & with a looks. if you r lack of internal beauty, gush, ur super fugly. tts my way. *tsk tsk* beauty is in d eye of a beholder. agree?? & did i get it rite?? hope so. nyehnyehnye~ both in&ex?? WOW! extremely gorgeous. awe-inspiring! hail'em. wee~ "someone" made me realise this. to good to be true. shessh~ i'm feeling too crummy to continue.

ok, so, wazzup wit 2day??.// i met dy earlier& we have our meal at BB KFC. wahahaha`~ he brighten my day like hell, really. he made me smile, he made me laugh tho i was kinda mad at my mama. hecks. i'm frigging jaded. & rite now i'm fetish about my insecure-ness. weirdo? tts wat actually bothering me, every single day cos of..... err, nah. *shuts* & after tt, rush to meet lei baby. lepak-ing 1 corner & yeahh, reminscing those days& our past. wahahaha~ tts HILARIOUS~~ our ex-es. aiyo. so puppy-love~!! & so kentals. wahaha~~ & share wit each other our latest proposal. & lei feel so touched bout how dy propose to me. HAHAx. & d reasons both of us, go wit these&tt guy la...... haiyo..so abysmal. cruel eh??? hehes. i love you alot, my dear LEIA!!! i'm saying tt out loud!!!!!!! we shall go out quite often yar. u agree, i agree too~ =D & we'll talk again&again, non-stop. till nite, like just now eh. nyehnyehnyeh`~ ur MINE now, not HIS. hehes. i feel much much much better toking to my own gf la cos YOU, MISS LEIA..... can feel how i feel, & YOU, MISS LEIA, can put urself in my shoes. muah! muah!! gee~~

i'm insecure-ness is how i feel rite nw, i'm being too OVER-protected. yeahh. OVER=pampered. slow down, fida. clear it, hit it. BOO~! it seems im a loser too~ & too ako, you better go to d dental center 2mrw, b4 i smack your ass off!! =X hais. hais. running wild, again??? shit!

=D =D =D =D =D =D =D

~toodles.

we meet.

heys. here i go again, posting a short, really short entry. err, but d previous post was super long lar. gahahaha~ hecks. i'm turning in, pretty soon, yo. went home wit dy today or shall i mention yesterday??? err, fuck it. as long you get my point, tts perfectly alrite. hehes. *shakeshead*
"if you're happy & u know u clap you hand"........ *claps claps claps* i'm joyful tt i got to meet my dy baby. nyehyehyeh~~ muah! muah! & yeah, i reached home almost 12, & thank god, mum didnt nag at me. wahaha~~ i love you, MUM. u pampered me again&again. hehes.

aniways, to miss hui ling, i had great time, chatting wit u, about HIM. `wahaha~~ beating around d bush&gossipingS. we shall have our first meet-up soon ya sweets. i love you la.

aite, i shall stop here before i go on crapping. ~toodles.

happy =D

yo. finally over! phewww. i don wanna noe who d "fucker" who tell dy bout it. now, i make up mind not to even CARE bout who "HE" is. who ever u r, thanks! gd intention, positive way... but negative way, u sucks, u made me cry d whole nite&almost suffocated to death. & i almost break up wit him. next damn thing, i miss my werk&havta take MC cos of....... ahhh. i dont havta to continue. its futile, absolutely. presenting you d *L on my forehead*.

i made new friends today. not 1 but 2! great hah?! yup yup. met nurul at JP today, cos i just felt like meetin her like crazy& hang out too. wasnt in a good mood to talk or laugh but her friends, Azreen&Nurul, cheered me up cos sumhow, i got to share my probs wit em. tremendously feeling better. frem stranger to a fren. tho we didnt really have a good chat earlier, we can clique with each other, not very well, but, just pass well. *tsk tsk* she kinda demoralised me& being TOO straight-forward wit me, wasnt a good idea. i swear, its not. its not tt i'm sensitive or unable to face d reality, its jus tt me or YOU too, shuld save a hard-earned relationship, which most probably u don even noe d bits of it. guess tts ur way. tts a way too much, really. i'm entertaining my heck-care attitude, cos WE love each other.

i'm leaving d A-Z bullshit past behind. shuldnt let it b a burden to me&dy. WE r gaining our love&trust back. thank god, WE did overcome everything tho its killing US softly. impossible is nothing, trust my words. ............................. aite. dy came to JP cos i really pester him. probs needa settled A.S.A.P. not long after tt, nurul&frens made their move hm while dy&i made our way to d PETSHOP, proceedin to d bus interchange where we board d 187 bus. our first plan to WESTMALL, was rejected & yeah, dy offered me to go to this park, sumwhere at Bukit Batok. shessh! we walked a long long long long way & took a long long long long time to reach d park. he made me furious, seriously. "we r gonna reach soon. very near"; HE uttered. yesh, very very "near" whick took us about half an hr or most prob, more den tt to reach GREENLAND PARK. wahahahhaa~~funny la you. convience me in a better way pls pls pls. =P 1 look at d park, u will be attracted to nature. its like wen u ferst step in, its full of tranquility & it does changed my mood. d feeling is undescribable. its exactly as if ur entering a wonderland. FUH~ sui ar. dy&i being so so romantic dere. *ahem!* wahaha~ i shuldnt elaborate more rite, dydydydy????? gahahaha~~ *blushing*

i guess, today, wasnt really wat i expected. i was fully-charged contented~~ i meet half of my WATEVAs today!!! during at nite actually. i'm so glad tt finally, we meet. miss so much, tt i feel like spending my nite wit em, but too bad, i'm werking la 2mrw. darn. its aite, soon yo. i love my WATEVAs la, so so much. my bright-ness. they made me smile&laugh alot today. OPPS! ferget to mention who's in d hse. KIKI, LEI&KAI was wit me~~~~!!!!!!! kiki came kinda late, but no offence, i'm blissful oreadi cos at least, i got to see you, gf. looking gorgeous la you 3 hot hot hot hot~~ 4 of us were multi-tasking, eat, talk&playing cards silmutaneously. LOLS bout KIKO&APUL. gahahaaha~~ hilarious clowns!! & reminiscing those days, d insult-ation & back-stabbing among WATEVAs was really d pure wildness & giggle-ness. labelled:: BASTARD-kia. wahaha~~ d BANGs, BANG-au & most honoured, BANG-la. hahaX. we had fun! alot&more. hehes. but more fun, wit a complete set of d WATEVAs.

oh ya, before i forget, to tt GERL, at least my bf is better den d mats out dere. my bf, a long lasting 1 not like d mats, who can easily&often touch&go. hate to be a bitch, ur choice/
stay out of pple's affair, & dont be a busybody. maybe ur being ditched alot of time, tts y u dont even tink or care bout other pples feeling. *L to you too, on my forehead*

aite, gonna land on my bed after a long grandma story. wahaha~~ ~toodles.

love, darls baby.
love, WATEVAs
love, nurul. u made my day sweets.
i love you more la, hehe. tk nk kalah eh.

well, well, well, not a good day. not a good day. not a good day. he's not mine animore. is this fantasy or reality???? i'm being myself fer NOW, heaven sake. fornly, i'm running away frem reality. *shakeshead* spending my life alone, today. nowhere to go. i'll go whichever place i wanna go. FUCK. i hate this feeling. i've lost everything in life.

i feel betrayed once again. i stabbed his back, & d result, i was stabbed too. im having internal&external bleeding. its bleeding. my eyes are swollen. wat shuld i do??????? hahahahahahhaahahahahaha!! HAHAHAHA!! leave me alone, fer now. today is my day! getting tipsy, getting crazy.

let me dress up now. only god-noes wat is gonna happen to me later. sucks, it really is. its painful. its bleeding. *ouch!*

~toodles.

HAPPY 6TH MTH!

CHIAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOOHOOOO!!


HAPPY 6TH MONTH & 180 DAYS ANNIVERSARY DARLS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, & I REALLY LOVE YOU.
STILL STRONG, DEEPLY & MADLY.

MUAH!! MUAH!!! MUAH!! MUAH!!! MUAH!!!!!
MUAH!! MUAH!!!

he gave me this rose on d day of propose. 1.8.05

awww! sweet rite?????

iloveyoudinesh.

time flies,

i just wanna be with you fer d rest of my life.

a hot kiss fer you, a warm hug too, at this starry starry nite

under the moonlight