hey, i donno wats d fucking wrong wit my blog&i'm kind of furious as those stuff which i wrote fer grad nite didnt really appear. gotta highlight it, den can see the hidden words. tts so annoying infact&troublesome. blueks. i gotta investigate&renew it.
ya, my template is back to square 1. i found out tt it is much easier, so decided, to change it. hahas. i try to find other skins aite. & d photos, i just update, look so HUGE! hahas. i'm just lazy to resize or cropped it. hehes. dy, not doin OT. so, YEAH. hahas.
`toodles.
i'm just being lazy.
Monday, November 28, 2005
i miss my friends.
yos. i'm bored to death! & as days pass by, i'm getting lazy&lazy to blog. so, hahas, don waste ur time checking fer updates. this lazy-bum here, is gonna update once in a while. i'm gonna make my entry short&sweet fer today. gonna apply job in childcare wit lei 2mrw. putty recommended to us. hopefully, they'll accept us.
dy is werking today, & as usual, hes doing OT which gonna end at 2.00am, i guess. hahas. i wanna wait fer him to come back safely, cos i just cant sleep. i'm starting to miss my friends. my mates&esp my watevers. ahh!! how i miss goin to skul wit kai every morning. hes d ferst 1 i will meet starting of day. i miss my vain-pot actor, nasrun. his hot-temper attitude, crazy, funny & annoying at times. i miss this more bout him, "aku handsome kan? d fact la." hahas. sharir, his damn-it hilarious jokes which can me giggle non-stop & let all of us tipsy. lei, her smile, which can just brighten me. her stories wit cko&gossips. kiki, my sleeping beauty. i'm gonna miss waking her up, her laughter, her "achhh-iiiiii!!". as fer putty, her absence! hahas. i will surely ask fer her. wheres putty??? hahas.
hmm. those controversies. how much i miss my watevas! & my classmates, who will neva get serious at work&will surely lectured by teachers. hahas. we play more den study less. a year being together, will remain my heart foreva. ok. tears flooding in my eyes. i tink i gotta stop. hahas. ok, i'll blog some other day yar. i miss nurul&haikal too. ~toodles
i love lei&kiki
i love kai, sharir&nas
mwaaahh!
dy is werking today, & as usual, hes doing OT which gonna end at 2.00am, i guess. hahas. i wanna wait fer him to come back safely, cos i just cant sleep. i'm starting to miss my friends. my mates&esp my watevers. ahh!! how i miss goin to skul wit kai every morning. hes d ferst 1 i will meet starting of day. i miss my vain-pot actor, nasrun. his hot-temper attitude, crazy, funny & annoying at times. i miss this more bout him, "aku handsome kan? d fact la." hahas. sharir, his damn-it hilarious jokes which can me giggle non-stop & let all of us tipsy. lei, her smile, which can just brighten me. her stories wit cko&gossips. kiki, my sleeping beauty. i'm gonna miss waking her up, her laughter, her "achhh-iiiiii!!". as fer putty, her absence! hahas. i will surely ask fer her. wheres putty??? hahas.
hmm. those controversies. how much i miss my watevas! & my classmates, who will neva get serious at work&will surely lectured by teachers. hahas. we play more den study less. a year being together, will remain my heart foreva. ok. tears flooding in my eyes. i tink i gotta stop. hahas. ok, i'll blog some other day yar. i miss nurul&haikal too. ~toodles
i love lei&kiki
i love kai, sharir&nas
mwaaahh!
Friday, November 25, 2005
grad nite.
yos. YESTERDAY, was GRADUATION NITE '05!!!! it was a blast, afterall. i was seriously lovin it&enjoying it so damn much! it was a memorable nite fer each of d graduating students. i've been in skul since 11am as i needa practice d dance fer d nite. so, all of dancers, zunairah, lavy, bayinnah, herman, sabariah, shahril & me came down to skul early. around 5.30, bayinnah&i went to take a shower to get ready fer d big event. n yar, put on our beautiful outfit&make-ups. &OMG, leia, came&she looked so so so gorgeous on her v-neck, baggy blouse&skirt& don ferget, HIGH-HEELS!! yap yap. hehes. i was astounded as my watevas incredibly looked so good-looking&pretty. nas, kai&sharir in a smart-long sleeve t-shirt & i love nas's tie, it looked so unique. gud choice, bro. lei&kiki looked super voue-de-vase. ahaks!
kane was passing mic to those pple who want to shout out a big thanks to d teachers or sumtink. so, yar, i did presented some werds to d teachers, esp those who has taught me. a BIG TANK U!!
guess wat??? yesterday was my luckiest day EVER! i won a lucky draw & i won d 3rd postition!!!! yipessss! & nas, got d 4th. WOW! we r d lucky pple on 4E2. hahas. i won a $50 WORLD OF SPORTS voucher. hahas. BOO~~ *tsk, tsk* nasrun, won MR YCSS, & tts so unbelievable. HAHAHAHAHAHHA!! theres other pple who look better den him actually but i guess, he got d better features den d other pple. so cool. & theres student playing violin&oso d 5Ns performing a dance silmutaneously singin. tt was so sweet! i was engrossed by d way dey perform. & next, its our dance performance!!!!!!! we were so eager&all of us were having cold sweat. so, we decided to do our best fer d performance! & yar, it turn out so NICE!! hahas. thanks 2 herman&shahril fer teaching us all d steps fer 3 days. hahas. so, yar, d best part was wen we me&bayinnah wit our partners. bayinnah partner is shahril& me, herman. we jumped on them, & bounce, & all audience was cheering us gleefully. thats boost our enjoyment&enthusiasm.
& yar. d part whereby we needa say good-bye to each other. tt was d saddest part when they flashed back all the photos that we have taken all this years. i almost burst into tears but decided to control. tears already flooding in my eyes. those days, i will miss it. i swear, i will. haiz. life havta go on. our friendship will neva be erase. ~toodles
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
we are DANCING.
yos. just came back frem skul. u must be wondering how come i'm skuling & moreover came home so late. yups. actually, a bunch of us was chosen to decorate & came up a tremendous performance fer our upcoming Grad Nite, which is on diz thursday, 22/11. unfortunately, i'm one of those people needed to perform a hip-hop-rnb dance wit d rest of my mates. darn it! at first, i was rather eager cos i miss dancing but den, after learning d steps from our so called "chereographer" herman&shahril, i was pretty remorseful joining in. hahas. d steps were tedious. bayinnah&i was struggling learning d steps. we r super slow unlike d others who were talented in shaking their legs, butts, hands. hahas.
so, yeah, poor herman had to tame us with d steps. both of us were sweating profusely like nobody business. hahas. but, we had fun lar esp during PUMP IT song was turn on. i wasnt really INTO it. i was quite playful rather den discipline which herman kept emphasising me on dat. hahas. herman told me i have d attitude but i'm aint serious. i keep laughing&laughing. WEE! slowly, i'm learning d steps fast. i needa practice MORE! fer my mates, d fast learner, i mean, err, i needa more time or maybe i'm out. SERIOUSLY, i felt so lethargic&a fool being left by u peeps. hahas. eurgh. gush! i needa wake up early 2mrw fer practice AGAIN. & rush to town to buy my outfit. thats uber rush lar! err, i needa discuss wit gfs & dy bout 2mrw. shesssh. eh, bayinnah, my twinnie, u can do it! dont give up gerl. watever its gonna turn out, just get grooving wit d music&beatings&tempo. apply d lets-have-fun-attitude! :D
& heres d comical part bout a "friend" of mine. was so HILARIOUS that i just cant stop tinking&giggling bout it. she was pretending to-know-how-to-smoke whereby d fact is, she dont noe, even d basic. i was like OMG! hahas. so, d "gerls" planning to glance at d way she lit d cigaratte. then suddenly, she turned & told us tt she couldnt lit it. heres d most funnies &fuckish part. she was actually litting up d filter. d FILTERRR!!!!!!!! ~~~~ HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! hahas. & guess wats d reason she gave it to us, "its dark". wah lau! wat a lame reason!! i was d first to laugh-out-loud. dumbass! stop pretending la bitch if arent expose to those stuff. hahas. cannot tahan sia. & next, she prolly hid when she smoke. hahas.
after she left, we were talking behind her back. shes so annoying! hahas. we just cant stop laughing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok stop it, i'm getting tipsy. hahahahhahahhas. see, how bad i can be. but shes worst den US. shes down our fav list. theres a LOTSA big sin she did to every of us. i'm ot gonna elaborate more. let bygone be bygone.
hmm. dys werking today. i cant stop him frem werking & d worst, OT! he's skuling d next day & i dunno how is he gonna endure in class. i tried to stop him, but he gave those "approve" reasons. so, wat to do. let him GO. yaps. i gotta rest ferst& continue wit my steps. so ironic. aite. ~toodles.
.:: hail to AARON who was d thorn among d roses in our dance team. SO SPORTING! ::.
love,love. tada.
so, yeah, poor herman had to tame us with d steps. both of us were sweating profusely like nobody business. hahas. but, we had fun lar esp during PUMP IT song was turn on. i wasnt really INTO it. i was quite playful rather den discipline which herman kept emphasising me on dat. hahas. herman told me i have d attitude but i'm aint serious. i keep laughing&laughing. WEE! slowly, i'm learning d steps fast. i needa practice MORE! fer my mates, d fast learner, i mean, err, i needa more time or maybe i'm out. SERIOUSLY, i felt so lethargic&a fool being left by u peeps. hahas. eurgh. gush! i needa wake up early 2mrw fer practice AGAIN. & rush to town to buy my outfit. thats uber rush lar! err, i needa discuss wit gfs & dy bout 2mrw. shesssh. eh, bayinnah, my twinnie, u can do it! dont give up gerl. watever its gonna turn out, just get grooving wit d music&beatings&tempo. apply d lets-have-fun-attitude! :D
& heres d comical part bout a "friend" of mine. was so HILARIOUS that i just cant stop tinking&giggling bout it. she was pretending to-know-how-to-smoke whereby d fact is, she dont noe, even d basic. i was like OMG! hahas. so, d "gerls" planning to glance at d way she lit d cigaratte. then suddenly, she turned & told us tt she couldnt lit it. heres d most funnies &fuckish part. she was actually litting up d filter. d FILTERRR!!!!!!!! ~~~~ HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! hahas. & guess wats d reason she gave it to us, "its dark". wah lau! wat a lame reason!! i was d first to laugh-out-loud. dumbass! stop pretending la bitch if arent expose to those stuff. hahas. cannot tahan sia. & next, she prolly hid when she smoke. hahas.
after she left, we were talking behind her back. shes so annoying! hahas. we just cant stop laughing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok stop it, i'm getting tipsy. hahahahhahahhas. see, how bad i can be. but shes worst den US. shes down our fav list. theres a LOTSA big sin she did to every of us. i'm ot gonna elaborate more. let bygone be bygone.
hmm. dys werking today. i cant stop him frem werking & d worst, OT! he's skuling d next day & i dunno how is he gonna endure in class. i tried to stop him, but he gave those "approve" reasons. so, wat to do. let him GO. yaps. i gotta rest ferst& continue wit my steps. so ironic. aite. ~toodles.
.:: hail to AARON who was d thorn among d roses in our dance team. SO SPORTING! ::.
love,love. tada.
Monday, November 21, 2005
pics!
yos. heres some SNAPSHOTS taken in Wani's&Adek's hse. me hari raya-ING wit family. cant resist frem taking pics. cos WE R LOVIN IT!! my best cousins, in e werld. MWAAAH to both of you sweets!! look at me in dat malay baju kebaya. hehes. cool hah?! i like it so much MORE!
that's US [[ wani, fida, adek ]]
BESTIES CUZZY!
here's our CRAZIEE candids. GILERSSS!
look at our lame-NESS pose. hehes.
we LOVE each other. lovely doveys in d house.
i love you, you love me. we are happy family
with a great big hug & kiss frem me to you, MUAH!
wont you say, u love me too!
here's dy choice of song. haiz. d lyric was like wat has been happening in our relationship. so, ya i tremble to control my tears reading thru those WORDS.
Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,Alone
Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to beAlone tonight
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voiceAnd I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,Alone tonight
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
[Bridge:]Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this lifeI don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,in love ,with you?
by: Backstreet Boys
"how i fall in love with you"
Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,Alone
Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to beAlone tonight
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voiceAnd I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,Alone tonight
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
[Bridge:]Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this lifeI don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
[chorus:]What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,in love ,with you?
by: Backstreet Boys
"how i fall in love with you"
if you were mine
[CHORUS:]If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only oneT
hat I could ever want
[VERSE 1:]Everything I dream about
Everything I talk about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowin' that you don't feel the same way
Watchin’ it bring tears to your eyes
[CHORUS:]If you were mineI'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mineI would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
[VERSE 2:]All the words I sing about
All the letters I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
Is when I get closer to you
I know there's someone else
He is only thinking of himself
It doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely
[CHORUS:]If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
[BRIDGE:]Let me be the one
You share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again causeI will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let
Your broken heart guide you
Into these open armsI
long to surround you
[BREAKDOWN:]Baby, if you were mine
I'd be your everything
You'd be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine I would tell everyone
That you were the only one
That I could ever want
[CHORUS:]If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
i love this song so much, so does dy. it is really meaningful. i was mesmerized by the lyrics which played impact on dy&i. d werd IF plays a great role. i'm just emphasising on d werd IF. but it will neva come true. i felt so sullen rite now. ~toodles.
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only oneT
hat I could ever want
[VERSE 1:]Everything I dream about
Everything I talk about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowin' that you don't feel the same way
Watchin’ it bring tears to your eyes
[CHORUS:]If you were mineI'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mineI would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
[VERSE 2:]All the words I sing about
All the letters I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
Is when I get closer to you
I know there's someone else
He is only thinking of himself
It doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely
[CHORUS:]If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
[BRIDGE:]Let me be the one
You share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again causeI will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let
Your broken heart guide you
Into these open armsI
long to surround you
[BREAKDOWN:]Baby, if you were mine
I'd be your everything
You'd be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine I would tell everyone
That you were the only one
That I could ever want
[CHORUS:]If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want
by: MARCOS HERNANDEZ
"IF YOU WERE MINE"
i love this song so much, so does dy. it is really meaningful. i was mesmerized by the lyrics which played impact on dy&i. d werd IF plays a great role. i'm just emphasising on d werd IF. but it will neva come true. i felt so sullen rite now. ~toodles.
heyA!
yos. i want to outnumber those days which i havta let dy go. u shuld noe wat i mean. we had made OUR decisions since we arent meant to be together. its FATE & we gotta sincerely accept it. haiz. i'm shedding my tears leaving it flow down my cheeks, convulsively. i just want dy to get closer to me, we WILL. lets not talk bout it further. i feel down & demoralising toking about it.
YESTERDAY i went fer hari raya-ing with my family accept my 2nd sis who was down wit gastric pain. so, in Fatin's hse we planned to go shopping together & sleepovers in Wani's hse. i cant leave her out. i realised its so unfair. hmm. i'm getting along wit cik ida quite well, but it doesnt mean tt i trust her werds. i had fun actually tho its exhausting & in addition to d raining cats&dogs. my stomach, finally filled with foods frem different houses. cik ida said i look pretty on tt baju kebaya. hahas. every girl who wear traditional costume will definitely look sweet&pretty. thats about it actually. & ya i love mama's radi carrote cake & cik ida's mertabak cheese. YUMMIE. can i have more??? *non-shyyness*
singapore lost to vietnam. good game young lions. vietnam played fast&steady. i wasnt really astounded by d lost. & i watched d preview of ChelseaVSNewcastle. expected Chelsea to win in d match. & truthfully, i'm so in love wit LAMPARD. hahas. his adorable look which will just make me crazy. & i told my mum tts my bf, mum sarcastically smiled&grinned. hahas. & lampard played super well tt i almost cried to bro-in not to change d channel. *tsk tsk*
TODAY, i donno wat i'm gonna do. i met dy just now & i cant get hold of myself or even control, i burst into tears. HAHAs. dys shirt is wet. i hugged him so tightly& dy too that i could hardly breathe. hehes. i shall wait dy to come back frem skul. i wanna study TOO. guess, d we r going out wit mummy after my LAST paper, i shall repeat again LAST paper, 2mrw. hahas. YEAH! dys buying present fer hot-ass papa's upcoming birthday. TOWN, here i come. basically, i'm gonna study my physics formula & some chems too. aite, i gotta to entertain my cousins since i promise em tt i will spend my day wit em. shall blog again soon. i love dy SO MUCH! `toodles.
oh YA! here's a pic of my bimb-iqah. a new make-over to her by ME! cute aint she? gorgeous too! HAHAS. i'm chuckling now cos she look so mature!! aiyo. i just love her twerrllyyy hair. hahas. i'm getting tipsy. tas
YESTERDAY i went fer hari raya-ing with my family accept my 2nd sis who was down wit gastric pain. so, in Fatin's hse we planned to go shopping together & sleepovers in Wani's hse. i cant leave her out. i realised its so unfair. hmm. i'm getting along wit cik ida quite well, but it doesnt mean tt i trust her werds. i had fun actually tho its exhausting & in addition to d raining cats&dogs. my stomach, finally filled with foods frem different houses. cik ida said i look pretty on tt baju kebaya. hahas. every girl who wear traditional costume will definitely look sweet&pretty. thats about it actually. & ya i love mama's radi carrote cake & cik ida's mertabak cheese. YUMMIE. can i have more??? *non-shyyness*
singapore lost to vietnam. good game young lions. vietnam played fast&steady. i wasnt really astounded by d lost. & i watched d preview of ChelseaVSNewcastle. expected Chelsea to win in d match. & truthfully, i'm so in love wit LAMPARD. hahas. his adorable look which will just make me crazy. & i told my mum tts my bf, mum sarcastically smiled&grinned. hahas. & lampard played super well tt i almost cried to bro-in not to change d channel. *tsk tsk*
TODAY, i donno wat i'm gonna do. i met dy just now & i cant get hold of myself or even control, i burst into tears. HAHAs. dys shirt is wet. i hugged him so tightly& dy too that i could hardly breathe. hehes. i shall wait dy to come back frem skul. i wanna study TOO. guess, d we r going out wit mummy after my LAST paper, i shall repeat again LAST paper, 2mrw. hahas. YEAH! dys buying present fer hot-ass papa's upcoming birthday. TOWN, here i come. basically, i'm gonna study my physics formula & some chems too. aite, i gotta to entertain my cousins since i promise em tt i will spend my day wit em. shall blog again soon. i love dy SO MUCH! `toodles.
oh YA! here's a pic of my bimb-iqah. a new make-over to her by ME! cute aint she? gorgeous too! HAHAS. i'm chuckling now cos she look so mature!! aiyo. i just love her twerrllyyy hair. hahas. i'm getting tipsy. tas
Friday, November 18, 2005
bad ache!
yos. i donno how many times i have gobbled up d panadols. i guess more den 5. i'm having a bad headache. i'll be a fully-fledged panadol eater soon. i fumbled fer those drugs whenever i'm down wit headache. i was immobiled a few hrs ago as i couldnt stand d strain-NESS & painful-NESS. its better now. a while ago, i felt like puking everything frem this fragile body. crashing my head on d wall. stabbing my ownself. my body wasnt imbued with healthy-tenderness like before. eurgh. i'm crash on my bed soon. prodding & massaging my head; applying an exclusive mint oilment.
i wanna wait fer dy to come back home. he's out wit his family watching Harry Potter's latest movie. damn it. dy was stolen frem me to watch that marvellous movie which i was waiting to watch wit him. argh. i bet i gotta watch wit sum1 else or shuld i miss it? no! i dont mind watching it alone as long as i GET to watch it. but nevamind. dy has promised to watch CHICKEN LITTLE wit me. yeps. & in collaboration to our 4th month anniversary on 1st Dec. i'm-so-HAPPY! i miss dys romantic side when hes ONLY wit me. no quarelling too. =P
i miss dy's cheeky side. hahas. SERIOUSLY. i love him lar. i just love him. eh? i love him? yar i do. serious? yes lar. hehes. ok i tink my headache-ness turning into crazi-ness. i love him no matter how bad or how naughty my darls baby is gonna be. cos i noe my devotion wont fade so easily after knowing d REAL him fer almost 2 & half yrs.
MWAAAHH!!!!
dy, where are you?? msg me a.s.a.p. i gotta continue pulling my hair & twisting it till i stretch my nerves on my head. ~toodles.
i wanna wait fer dy to come back home. he's out wit his family watching Harry Potter's latest movie. damn it. dy was stolen frem me to watch that marvellous movie which i was waiting to watch wit him. argh. i bet i gotta watch wit sum1 else or shuld i miss it? no! i dont mind watching it alone as long as i GET to watch it. but nevamind. dy has promised to watch CHICKEN LITTLE wit me. yeps. & in collaboration to our 4th month anniversary on 1st Dec. i'm-so-HAPPY! i miss dys romantic side when hes ONLY wit me. no quarelling too. =P
i miss dy's cheeky side. hahas. SERIOUSLY. i love him lar. i just love him. eh? i love him? yar i do. serious? yes lar. hehes. ok i tink my headache-ness turning into crazi-ness. i love him no matter how bad or how naughty my darls baby is gonna be. cos i noe my devotion wont fade so easily after knowing d REAL him fer almost 2 & half yrs.
MWAAAHH!!!!
dy, where are you?? msg me a.s.a.p. i gotta continue pulling my hair & twisting it till i stretch my nerves on my head. ~toodles.
sometimes
yos. frem my previous blog, overall wat happen is just SOMETIMES how i feel. all is SOMETIMES. i need a break. i still feel agitated from yesterdays premonitions. i don wanna aggravate it cos i'm not d only party that will be hurt. dy will feel hurt too. no worries. i still love him like i always do. i swear. =) its just sometimes, all of a sudden, people around me, me, myself&I start talking about expectations. i wouldnt wanna tink low of my bf cos at d start, i love him because i'm fond of him, his characteristics, his personality, his charisma. a one-in-a-million bf, any gerl, will wanna grab him. thank god, hes mine. we will last & we'll go thru all d storms together.
TODAY, i went to retrieve my hp. yups. i get my hp back. yipes! after that, went to apply job at Giant. i hope i can get it a.s.a.p. nxt wk Tues, is my last paper & after that getting ready fer Grad Nite which every1 is waiting fer. so, most probably, i will go town, fer window shopping wit dy & gfs i guess. & shop! darn i've craving fer it cos its been ages since i SHOP & spent money like water flowing d tap. ahhh! i just love d feeling. after GRAD NITE, i guess i'll be spending my time more wit dy& silmutaneously finding job. hanging out wit Nurul Mummy & watevas. i needa kachings $$$$$$$ to buy alot of stuff.
heres my plan::
1. wanna purchase a new hp. wit fabolous features. it will be either Nokia/Sony Ericsson
2. Zara's & Mango's new outfit.
3. lots more t-shirtS!!
4. mini skirt frem roxy
5. latest cardigan & jacket
6. handbag in Roxy
7. flip flops in ripcurl
8. emily purse
9. digi CAM ( dad, u promise me )
10. Ipod- NANO ( same wit dy. hehes. DAD, buy me this too. plss!! )
yups! so i'm gonna get this pretty soon!! most probably, end of this year or late Jan. yeah! cant wait fer dat. i'm into trend. those trendies & people out dere are my inspiration. esp DITA VON TEESE who often in those famous taboos. a porn star who transformed into fashion icon. she got d style. hmm.
all right. i got no mood to blog actually. no mood!! shall blog again soon. thank you fer wasting ur time reading my crap blog. hehes. ~toodles
i love MY darls baby to bits!! muah! muah!! my sweet-honey-pie.
TODAY, i went to retrieve my hp. yups. i get my hp back. yipes! after that, went to apply job at Giant. i hope i can get it a.s.a.p. nxt wk Tues, is my last paper & after that getting ready fer Grad Nite which every1 is waiting fer. so, most probably, i will go town, fer window shopping wit dy & gfs i guess. & shop! darn i've craving fer it cos its been ages since i SHOP & spent money like water flowing d tap. ahhh! i just love d feeling. after GRAD NITE, i guess i'll be spending my time more wit dy& silmutaneously finding job. hanging out wit Nurul Mummy & watevas. i needa kachings $$$$$$$ to buy alot of stuff.
heres my plan::
1. wanna purchase a new hp. wit fabolous features. it will be either Nokia/Sony Ericsson
2. Zara's & Mango's new outfit.
3. lots more t-shirtS!!
4. mini skirt frem roxy
5. latest cardigan & jacket
6. handbag in Roxy
7. flip flops in ripcurl
8. emily purse
9. digi CAM ( dad, u promise me )
10. Ipod- NANO ( same wit dy. hehes. DAD, buy me this too. plss!! )
yups! so i'm gonna get this pretty soon!! most probably, end of this year or late Jan. yeah! cant wait fer dat. i'm into trend. those trendies & people out dere are my inspiration. esp DITA VON TEESE who often in those famous taboos. a porn star who transformed into fashion icon. she got d style. hmm.
all right. i got no mood to blog actually. no mood!! shall blog again soon. thank you fer wasting ur time reading my crap blog. hehes. ~toodles
i love MY darls baby to bits!! muah! muah!! my sweet-honey-pie.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
i wanna show u how i feel.
i'm feeling disturb by my chimes & emotions.
i donno y people around me are always influencing me & y i'm influenced by em. my friends who wasnt i expected blurted out all those words which could just demoralise me fer a sec. i controlled & didnt tink negativity out-of-stupidity. but went i tell my sis bout it, she asked the same tink like wat my friends had asked earlier.
i tried to show how i feel but everytime we will turn out quarelling & debating. i donno whether we r even meant to be together. we just cant understand each other. as a gerl, i expected alot frem my bf. every gerl does dat. but i'm very sure tt my expectations will NEVA come true. however, it ddnt stop me frem creating a long-last relationship. patience & a clear mind is wat i need. i do feel jealous whenever a happy-romantic-loving couple appeared to walk pass-by. i noe its wrong fer to compare him wit other guys. i shuld accept who he is. but its overwhelming. i cant stand it.
ill start to imagine things whenever i felt insecure. show me d love dat i've been craving fer. its not only "i love you" that i wanna hear frem you. i've been controlling since d first mth we r together. its freaking painful. "hold her hands wen i walk her" ur adding salt to d wound. i hate tt fucking 7 werds. i tried evertink but nutink seems to werk. i gotta nutink to say cos u will neva understand while i everytime try very very hard to understand you.
oh god. i just wanna cry as much as i can fer sastisfaction. wheres d ending to this? wheres d fullstop? kiki, u r rite saying bout expectations. i still love my bf no matter wat. ~toodles.
when a woman loves a man
d werld is nutink compare to d
love she gives to her man.
i donno y people around me are always influencing me & y i'm influenced by em. my friends who wasnt i expected blurted out all those words which could just demoralise me fer a sec. i controlled & didnt tink negativity out-of-stupidity. but went i tell my sis bout it, she asked the same tink like wat my friends had asked earlier.
i tried to show how i feel but everytime we will turn out quarelling & debating. i donno whether we r even meant to be together. we just cant understand each other. as a gerl, i expected alot frem my bf. every gerl does dat. but i'm very sure tt my expectations will NEVA come true. however, it ddnt stop me frem creating a long-last relationship. patience & a clear mind is wat i need. i do feel jealous whenever a happy-romantic-loving couple appeared to walk pass-by. i noe its wrong fer to compare him wit other guys. i shuld accept who he is. but its overwhelming. i cant stand it.
ill start to imagine things whenever i felt insecure. show me d love dat i've been craving fer. its not only "i love you" that i wanna hear frem you. i've been controlling since d first mth we r together. its freaking painful. "hold her hands wen i walk her" ur adding salt to d wound. i hate tt fucking 7 werds. i tried evertink but nutink seems to werk. i gotta nutink to say cos u will neva understand while i everytime try very very hard to understand you.
oh god. i just wanna cry as much as i can fer sastisfaction. wheres d ending to this? wheres d fullstop? kiki, u r rite saying bout expectations. i still love my bf no matter wat. ~toodles.
when a woman loves a man
d werld is nutink compare to d
love she gives to her man.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
gerek giler!
yos. i'm seriously adores nurul so much much more!! hahas. we had fun just now. d moment we see each other i waved & smile graciously at her. she's beautiful n its true. so we started chatting in 106 bus going to somerset as dy needa take his pay. dy, i swear u shouldnt spend much of ur full-pay. save it on ur rainy days tho u own an umbrella. hehes. i feel comfortable being wit nurul by my side. shes totally amicable & fun to be wit. i treasure you, sweets. opps. ferget to mention that chris a.k.a "cri-cri" (very cute nick. i like this.) was tagging along wit us too. so while dy&chris went to collect d pay, me&nurul went to d bodyshop to check out fer make-up stuff. that was d best lar! cos at least i got as a company to tok about cosmetics. & den both of us feel d grumbles in our stomach. therefore, decided to go delifrance to fill our empty stomach. both of us ordered to pizza which cost almost 5 bucks. kind of annoying as the service is tremendously bad.
& we proceed to d mrt station to meet guna at BB MRT STATION. when we reached dere gungun was nowhere to be seen. n dy called & gun told dy hes late. so, we went to d archade where d hilarious-fun series began. we played car racing. nurul&i was like d woman of d match. hahas. we won d guys in d race. thats so horrible, guys!! hahas. wat to do. we r d respectable girl-next-door. & after dy hurt my hand. *sob sob* its still painful. hahas. no worries, i'll still love you. we were giggling out loud all d way. super fun! enjoying ourselves. soon after tt, gungun came wit an unexpected fren who is umar. so yeah, i smiled sincerely at him.
i was suspecting sumtink & ive been noticing *him*. keep glancing & turning away frem reality. hahas. thats so fake! & wen were odw back frem coffee bean, nurul told me sumtink. expected. hes such a pain in arse. but, nevamind. i'm happier wit dy. i told dy bout it. he just smirked. after waving good-bye to nurul, i walked briskly. i love nurul alot! hahas. its like i've been knowing her fer years. both of us had d similarities & chemistry. we r able to communicate well, share stuff well & get along very very well! hahas. nurul, we shall have d gerls day out, which we planned earlier after my O's aite. we'll shrut down d road. only you&me.
hehes. i feel so drowsy& terribly nauseous as i didnt get enuf sleep doing my art yesterday nite. i slept fer only 2 hrs. i felt like tumbling whenever i walk. i tried to shut my eyes, but still, cant sleep. i doubt dys tips is gonna werk. i wanna study my POA before i land on my cosy bed. fortunately my paper starts at 2.00 2mrw. phewww! aite, i wanna watch gotcha! i shall blog again soon. thanks to my loved ones, who made me laugh&smile today. :D `toodles
ps: theres an error in d previous post. i actually wore a 3 quarter jeans instead of skirt. hehes. but still, i look like a lady. shessshh.
i love dy. muah!
i love nurul. muah!!
& we proceed to d mrt station to meet guna at BB MRT STATION. when we reached dere gungun was nowhere to be seen. n dy called & gun told dy hes late. so, we went to d archade where d hilarious-fun series began. we played car racing. nurul&i was like d woman of d match. hahas. we won d guys in d race. thats so horrible, guys!! hahas. wat to do. we r d respectable girl-next-door. & after dy hurt my hand. *sob sob* its still painful. hahas. no worries, i'll still love you. we were giggling out loud all d way. super fun! enjoying ourselves. soon after tt, gungun came wit an unexpected fren who is umar. so yeah, i smiled sincerely at him.
i was suspecting sumtink & ive been noticing *him*. keep glancing & turning away frem reality. hahas. thats so fake! & wen were odw back frem coffee bean, nurul told me sumtink. expected. hes such a pain in arse. but, nevamind. i'm happier wit dy. i told dy bout it. he just smirked. after waving good-bye to nurul, i walked briskly. i love nurul alot! hahas. its like i've been knowing her fer years. both of us had d similarities & chemistry. we r able to communicate well, share stuff well & get along very very well! hahas. nurul, we shall have d gerls day out, which we planned earlier after my O's aite. we'll shrut down d road. only you&me.
hehes. i feel so drowsy& terribly nauseous as i didnt get enuf sleep doing my art yesterday nite. i slept fer only 2 hrs. i felt like tumbling whenever i walk. i tried to shut my eyes, but still, cant sleep. i doubt dys tips is gonna werk. i wanna study my POA before i land on my cosy bed. fortunately my paper starts at 2.00 2mrw. phewww! aite, i wanna watch gotcha! i shall blog again soon. thanks to my loved ones, who made me laugh&smile today. :D `toodles
ps: theres an error in d previous post. i actually wore a 3 quarter jeans instead of skirt. hehes. but still, i look like a lady. shessshh.
i love dy. muah!
i love nurul. muah!!
art finish liao!
yos. now i can smile. :D hehes. yesterday's STRESS-ness has been finally overcome. hahas. a last minute werk which i thought will deteriorate on d actual day turn out to be impressive. tts a WOW! wahahaha. i didnt expect that. so, yups. art is OVER!!! i'm counting down d days to d finishing line. wwee! then i can sleep all day, watch tv all day, eat all day & turn fat! yeah. i got to find a job cos i'll be bore to death as boredom kills me. remember?
hmm. 2mrw is POA. & i'm ready to fail. hehes. aint havta d interest in sec 4. when in sec 3 was hyper interested. but it changed. i guess i needa study lar. don wanna waste dad's money. (look who's talking) hehes. shhhh. i'm just trying to be decent fer once. ok. :P
gee. i'm meeting dy&nurul later. first of all, diz is my first time meeting nurul. hahas. has been waiting fer d day. yipes! i love her, i love her. secondly, i'm meeting dy again! yeah. still missing him lar. hahas. thirdly, i guess we'r meeting mr kumar, dys fren. tts so new! d plan is we r going archade & have our food in westmall or j.e. i donno. watever it is, i'm gonna be feminine & bubbly. in addition to friendliNESS. yeps. i shall wear skirt & my fav pink shirt. lady-like in d hse.
opps!! i gotta rush. i needa bathe, iron my clothes, put on light make up. dy will crash me if i'm late. ~toodles.
hmm. 2mrw is POA. & i'm ready to fail. hehes. aint havta d interest in sec 4. when in sec 3 was hyper interested. but it changed. i guess i needa study lar. don wanna waste dad's money. (look who's talking) hehes. shhhh. i'm just trying to be decent fer once. ok. :P
gee. i'm meeting dy&nurul later. first of all, diz is my first time meeting nurul. hahas. has been waiting fer d day. yipes! i love her, i love her. secondly, i'm meeting dy again! yeah. still missing him lar. hahas. thirdly, i guess we'r meeting mr kumar, dys fren. tts so new! d plan is we r going archade & have our food in westmall or j.e. i donno. watever it is, i'm gonna be feminine & bubbly. in addition to friendliNESS. yeps. i shall wear skirt & my fav pink shirt. lady-like in d hse.
opps!! i gotta rush. i needa bathe, iron my clothes, put on light make up. dy will crash me if i'm late. ~toodles.
Monday, November 14, 2005
eurgh!
eurgh. i felt like struggling myself to death. i couldnt hold on to it animore. y is god punishing me this way? & how can dy overcome it so well? how come dy is handling tinks so easy but not me? how come theres no worries register in dy? argh. & how come tears rolling down my cheek profusely?? my mind is racing fast. how come i can type this but cant utter a single word of motivation to myself?
i got no mood, i got no appetite. its not gonna be d same. i hate this theory, IF THERES A WILL, THERE'S A WAY. i try to figure out d way to get out of my breathless situation but i fail to do so. nobody will get wat i say. nobody will be able to feel wat i'm feeling now even how hard u try to put urself in my shoes.
i've been crying to myself. i needa an angel to ease my burden. watevas, i need u. i needa to lend ur shoulder to cry on to. save me frem d dark.
~toodles.
i got no mood, i got no appetite. its not gonna be d same. i hate this theory, IF THERES A WILL, THERE'S A WAY. i try to figure out d way to get out of my breathless situation but i fail to do so. nobody will get wat i say. nobody will be able to feel wat i'm feeling now even how hard u try to put urself in my shoes.
i've been crying to myself. i needa an angel to ease my burden. watevas, i need u. i needa to lend ur shoulder to cry on to. save me frem d dark.
~toodles.
zess.
yos. fornly i'm not meeting dy later. hes meeting me either late afternoon or i guess tomorrow.
but i dont noe whether i can make it cos i needa finish my art & as fer 2mrw, i needa study fer my POA. haiz. i'm gonna miss him MORE! i'm kind of depress wit my bills. i needa werk so dat i'm able to pay it up. i don wanna trouble anybody esp my parents. im so desperately needa werk. *grins*
i'm starting to believe in miracles. tho most of d time my premonitions will demoralise those. i'm hoping miracles. d whole nite i was tinking bout my future wit dy. frankly, our chance to be together 4 d rest of our lives is incredibly slim. i can feel d separation electric current between our relationship. i wish..... i wish.... i wish.... i'm sick of it. it will neva turn out well. i wanna be wit dy, forever. cos i love him so much. i don want d days fer us to end this relationship come so soon. dy cant neva be replace. i havent make up my mind. d future mrs dinesh is lucky. as fer me, i donno how to overcome it. it make me feel so weak as if i'm paralyse as soon as i tink bout d religion which is stopping us. easy to say but difficult to be done.
ok enuf. i shouldnt talk bout this further. i feel so clueless. ~toodles.
but i dont noe whether i can make it cos i needa finish my art & as fer 2mrw, i needa study fer my POA. haiz. i'm gonna miss him MORE! i'm kind of depress wit my bills. i needa werk so dat i'm able to pay it up. i don wanna trouble anybody esp my parents. im so desperately needa werk. *grins*
i'm starting to believe in miracles. tho most of d time my premonitions will demoralise those. i'm hoping miracles. d whole nite i was tinking bout my future wit dy. frankly, our chance to be together 4 d rest of our lives is incredibly slim. i can feel d separation electric current between our relationship. i wish..... i wish.... i wish.... i'm sick of it. it will neva turn out well. i wanna be wit dy, forever. cos i love him so much. i don want d days fer us to end this relationship come so soon. dy cant neva be replace. i havent make up my mind. d future mrs dinesh is lucky. as fer me, i donno how to overcome it. it make me feel so weak as if i'm paralyse as soon as i tink bout d religion which is stopping us. easy to say but difficult to be done.
ok enuf. i shouldnt talk bout this further. i feel so clueless. ~toodles.
yos.
yos. wani&family came to my house earlier. yeahs. we did have fun chatting & yakking around. then after that follow by isham, ex-prim classmate who in e past was extremely soft-spoken but has transformed into a very hyper-loud guy. hahas. he brought his gf & huge fren, bob. i wasnt tt suprised to see d similarities between me & his gerl. she is wat she is. a very nice & amicable lady, seriously. hail isham fer choosing d rite gerl. *winks* hehes. bob was HILARIOUS! hes adorable cos he look like a balloon. ahaks. =) then at nite, wen to aunt hse fer Hari Raya. nothing much to tok about actually. eat, chat, watch tv. tts all.
i'm currently doing my art fer my O's. its troublesome. by hook or by crook i havta finish it up b4 Tuesday. *pray hard* hope can finish it up a.s.a.p. i depending so much on my art. i just need d mood & passion to do art. yups. hmm. d whole i was wondering y some things havta to come to an end. my secondary skul life. i'm gonna miss it. those days when we spent our time everyday fer almost more den 10 hrs together. it will neva be d same. we'll be scatter evrywhere soon. no matter, life have to move on. i need friends in my life. esp my watevas. we went thru our ups&downs together. we shrut d road together. we almost did everything together! our friendship will neva come to an end. i SWEAR it wont happen. i'm gonna miss em. haiz.
i felt like puking. guess i drank alot of fizzy drink & ate alot too. argh. i'm gonna meet dy today. i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. dys werking. haiz. y is he werking so hard?? i pity him sumtimes but i guess he enjoy it so much. hehes. hes having OT tonite. & i'm waiting fer my hubby as usual. i'm so into you, darls baby. alrite. i shall blog again. i donno how d day will turn out. i shall continue wit my art. & btw, i miss d way dy use to call me (in romatic tone). hahas. =D lols. alrite. `toodles.
you'll never be replace; sweets.
i'm currently doing my art fer my O's. its troublesome. by hook or by crook i havta finish it up b4 Tuesday. *pray hard* hope can finish it up a.s.a.p. i depending so much on my art. i just need d mood & passion to do art. yups. hmm. d whole i was wondering y some things havta to come to an end. my secondary skul life. i'm gonna miss it. those days when we spent our time everyday fer almost more den 10 hrs together. it will neva be d same. we'll be scatter evrywhere soon. no matter, life have to move on. i need friends in my life. esp my watevas. we went thru our ups&downs together. we shrut d road together. we almost did everything together! our friendship will neva come to an end. i SWEAR it wont happen. i'm gonna miss em. haiz.
i felt like puking. guess i drank alot of fizzy drink & ate alot too. argh. i'm gonna meet dy today. i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. dys werking. haiz. y is he werking so hard?? i pity him sumtimes but i guess he enjoy it so much. hehes. hes having OT tonite. & i'm waiting fer my hubby as usual. i'm so into you, darls baby. alrite. i shall blog again. i donno how d day will turn out. i shall continue wit my art. & btw, i miss d way dy use to call me (in romatic tone). hahas. =D lols. alrite. `toodles.
you'll never be replace; sweets.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
i'm missing him.
yos. surprisingly, i'm awake. hehes. actually, i'm waiting fer my bf to come back safely frem werk. its 202 am now. i thought hes doing OT till 2 but he still havent msg me. i just cant sleep. i tried to shut tight my eyes but to no avail. i'm missing dy so much! i miss his hug, i miss his kiss, i miss his voice, i miss his smile, i just miss every single bit of him. ahh! i'm loving him alot! we shall meet soon darls baby.
i just cant overcome wat was lashed out by my aunt. its so demoralising. darn it. that was too much. i gotta talk to her tho i felt like shouting at her. i'm so shameful to have an aunt like her. errugh. stop it.
just wanna wish my 2nd sister a HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY. ur old sis, i swear. hehes. love you alot!!! & fer my mummy, NURUL HUDA, hehes, a HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! love yar alot! god bless you on this special day. MUAH!! MUAH!! MUAH!! =D
i shall wait fer dy. hehes. :p
~toodles.
i just cant overcome wat was lashed out by my aunt. its so demoralising. darn it. that was too much. i gotta talk to her tho i felt like shouting at her. i'm so shameful to have an aunt like her. errugh. stop it.
just wanna wish my 2nd sister a HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY. ur old sis, i swear. hehes. love you alot!!! & fer my mummy, NURUL HUDA, hehes, a HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! love yar alot! god bless you on this special day. MUAH!! MUAH!! MUAH!! =D
i shall wait fer dy. hehes. :p
~toodles.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
jaded!
currently in Kak Siti's hse. planning bout d chalet thingy. yeah. cant wait fer dat. hahas. so silmutaneously joking around. tat was alot of fun. =) d environment is super loud. i'm getting confuse wit this complicated situation. my fav cousins is here, wani & adek. gossiping is wat we crave fer all this while. we r d gorgeous 1 here. hehes. i swear, we are. but theres "somebody" just insult us like nobody business. she tink shes perfect & she tink her daughters too. i just hate it. neither do i want to hate somebody who is my family. but shes too much! grrr!!! i'm boiling. but watever. i dont give a damn on her.
aite. i'll blog later. my exam is finishing soon. YEAH! pheewww. alrite. dys werkin. & i needa find werk a.s.a.p yups. ~toodles
tas.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
i got d confidence
hey heys. finally i had d confidenc surge down my veins after i go thru Eng Pap1&2 & Physics. it wasnt as tedious as i was expecting. thank god! phewwww. i didnt really study fer my Physics. d only thing i studied was d formulaes. that was oso a last minute werk. hahas. fortunately d paper start at 2. so, lei, kiki & I without hesitation reading thru d topics we r basically frail in. yup yups. d paper was rather easy. errr. i can do most of d ques. i'm worry bout my Maths. i didnt do quite well. darn it. i dont want to be astounded by my disappointing results in Feb. *pray hard* i had to buck up on my Paper 2. & d old hag, 1 of my invigalator was extremely annoying. duh. hate d sight of her & her presence too. blueks!!
went to kikis hse wit my WATEVAS except putty. foreva laughing out loud in d middle of road, in d bus. hahas. incorrigible shy-NESS was forgotten. hehes. craps eh. but it was enjoyable. after d trip to ki's hse, went to J.E wit kai & nas. finally kai purchased a new hp. wow! hahas. it was super nice. hes happy now~ hehes. after that met darls. he was accompanied by my alfie baby. i was captivated by dy's look. both of em were despising d mats. *tsk tsk* i was speechless fer d moment. its their view on mats. no comment! -------zip--------
finally, i gotta meet cko! hahas. i've been waiting to c lei's hunk. he's so adorable! lei made a gd choice. hehes. i quivered at first upon looking at cko. is that cko??? hahas. n my bf get to c leis bf. they got to meet each other. weeee~ i'm waiting fer 22nd Nov. which is my last paper. patience is virture. i love my darls baby!! i'm feminie, & i will be. =)
hmm wat more can i say?? seriously, i'm running out of werds tho i've been craving to say those excessive stuff happen today. err i donno. my mind go blank all of a sudden. *yawn* am i sleepy? hmm i must say a resounding- yes! tink i'm gonna curl up soon & i'm feeling so lazy to blog. ~toodles
darls ur mine. :X
went to kikis hse wit my WATEVAS except putty. foreva laughing out loud in d middle of road, in d bus. hahas. incorrigible shy-NESS was forgotten. hehes. craps eh. but it was enjoyable. after d trip to ki's hse, went to J.E wit kai & nas. finally kai purchased a new hp. wow! hahas. it was super nice. hes happy now~ hehes. after that met darls. he was accompanied by my alfie baby. i was captivated by dy's look. both of em were despising d mats. *tsk tsk* i was speechless fer d moment. its their view on mats. no comment! -------zip--------
finally, i gotta meet cko! hahas. i've been waiting to c lei's hunk. he's so adorable! lei made a gd choice. hehes. i quivered at first upon looking at cko. is that cko??? hahas. n my bf get to c leis bf. they got to meet each other. weeee~ i'm waiting fer 22nd Nov. which is my last paper. patience is virture. i love my darls baby!! i'm feminie, & i will be. =)
hmm wat more can i say?? seriously, i'm running out of werds tho i've been craving to say those excessive stuff happen today. err i donno. my mind go blank all of a sudden. *yawn* am i sleepy? hmm i must say a resounding- yes! tink i'm gonna curl up soon & i'm feeling so lazy to blog. ~toodles
darls ur mine. :X
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
5 papers more.
yos. i'm squeezing sumtime in between to update my bloggie. Chem Pap3 & Maths Pap 1 settled. left 5 more papers to go. enjoyment n YIPEE~ is waiting fer me. all d words that has been hidden in my heart was finally revealed. i hope my stoop-NESS doesnt affect him or hurt his feelings. eh, but hu cares? i'm jus stating d fact. hes nt gonna chastise me or sumtink.
went to JP fer breakfast wit kiki, lei, kai, sharir & nas. we had a heavy breakfast. saw ibrahim & aminah dere as well as my long-distance cousin, Amalia at banquet where we had our tuck-in session. we had fun actually. strolling in d shopping center surveying some make-up stuff (which lei doesnt seem to b interested in. hahas), accesories & clothing. some really caught our eyes. lei sometimes wish that she is slim but as fer me, i wish i am tall. hahas. but i dont mind being who i am right now. we are perfect! hehes. kiki was like d center of attraction. her laugh will turn everybody on. lols. so, d girls browse fer girls stuff, d guys, guys stuff. part of d watevers was toking bout marriage & some stuff which wasnt suppose to talk about, hmm i shall rather say disgusting. hahas. discussing & disgusting. 2 in 1. n yups, discussing bout wat to wear fer Grad Nite. all d way LOLS. u peeps, are great.
& gfs toking bout our expections in a relationship. err. shuld accept wat he is NOT wat he have. yeah. "Be feminine, hamster". dy, i am! how feminine u want me to be. if i can accept u as in not romantic, y cant u?? duh. *theres a limit in everything u do* i love d watevers! full of nonsense but sensible. hahas. we shall hang out as 1 soon yar. i went home wit kai & he told me sumtink. he sound abit pathetic lar but..... i do pity him. how bad ur gf/bf is, u'll still proud that she's ur gerl/guy. hemm.
2mrw is Eng & Phy. i'm gonna slip soon. i needa rest. i got to sleep fer only 3 hrs. darn it. aite. shall blog again whenever i'm free. `toodles.
darls baby; i want u to noe, u belong in my life. muah!
went to JP fer breakfast wit kiki, lei, kai, sharir & nas. we had a heavy breakfast. saw ibrahim & aminah dere as well as my long-distance cousin, Amalia at banquet where we had our tuck-in session. we had fun actually. strolling in d shopping center surveying some make-up stuff (which lei doesnt seem to b interested in. hahas), accesories & clothing. some really caught our eyes. lei sometimes wish that she is slim but as fer me, i wish i am tall. hahas. but i dont mind being who i am right now. we are perfect! hehes. kiki was like d center of attraction. her laugh will turn everybody on. lols. so, d girls browse fer girls stuff, d guys, guys stuff. part of d watevers was toking bout marriage & some stuff which wasnt suppose to talk about, hmm i shall rather say disgusting. hahas. discussing & disgusting. 2 in 1. n yups, discussing bout wat to wear fer Grad Nite. all d way LOLS. u peeps, are great.
& gfs toking bout our expections in a relationship. err. shuld accept wat he is NOT wat he have. yeah. "Be feminine, hamster". dy, i am! how feminine u want me to be. if i can accept u as in not romantic, y cant u?? duh. *theres a limit in everything u do* i love d watevers! full of nonsense but sensible. hahas. we shall hang out as 1 soon yar. i went home wit kai & he told me sumtink. he sound abit pathetic lar but..... i do pity him. how bad ur gf/bf is, u'll still proud that she's ur gerl/guy. hemm.
2mrw is Eng & Phy. i'm gonna slip soon. i needa rest. i got to sleep fer only 3 hrs. darn it. aite. shall blog again whenever i'm free. `toodles.
darls baby; i want u to noe, u belong in my life. muah!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
thanks to HIM!
yos. i'm feeling better now. imran made me smile & laugh using his powers which was uttering lame jokes. i felt better after tt. phewww! he brought back d enthusiasm to study to me. surprisingly it just surge down my veins instantenously. i needa study; i needa focus. life has to go on. yeah. so, i got back my confidenca frem darls too. thanks to my tutor & my baby. special thanks to ME fer being positive & tink of d bright side.
yups. i can turn in peacefully now. XXXXXXXXX WITHOUT d need to cry b4 i sleep. hahas. i needa make my late grandads proud of me. i noe they r watching over me & always by my side. ahaks. i needa go big daddy's house later at 10. he'll surely be mad at me if i didnt turn up fer his open-house. neither do i want him to be a murderer. big daddy can be romantic at times. hahas. & hope i get to see my hot-ass papa in big daddys crib. most probably. & i havta b back by 3.30pm as i got tuition. i promise mum too.
i'm lost actually. hahas. but nevamind i'll get back at d rite track once again without losing my balance. i needa kachingsss! i'm nt rich ok. hahas. only my dad cos hes werking. aiyo. tink darls already floating in his dreamland. hahas. & fer sure, hes snorting&snoring like pig. ehes. aite, i gotta get back to my werk which is...... practice my maths b4 d paper 1 which is on diz coming Monday. grrrrr~~ i'm kinda scared to death as d days are nearing. uhhh~ aite. i gtg. shall blog again. `toodles. =D
DSH- Dinesh Sayang Hamster
wahahahahhaha! :P
yups. i can turn in peacefully now. XXXXXXXXX WITHOUT d need to cry b4 i sleep. hahas. i needa make my late grandads proud of me. i noe they r watching over me & always by my side. ahaks. i needa go big daddy's house later at 10. he'll surely be mad at me if i didnt turn up fer his open-house. neither do i want him to be a murderer. big daddy can be romantic at times. hahas. & hope i get to see my hot-ass papa in big daddys crib. most probably. & i havta b back by 3.30pm as i got tuition. i promise mum too.
i'm lost actually. hahas. but nevamind i'll get back at d rite track once again without losing my balance. i needa kachingsss! i'm nt rich ok. hahas. only my dad cos hes werking. aiyo. tink darls already floating in his dreamland. hahas. & fer sure, hes snorting&snoring like pig. ehes. aite, i gotta get back to my werk which is...... practice my maths b4 d paper 1 which is on diz coming Monday. grrrrr~~ i'm kinda scared to death as d days are nearing. uhhh~ aite. i gtg. shall blog again. `toodles. =D
DSH- Dinesh Sayang Hamster
wahahahahhaha! :P
Friday, November 04, 2005
haiz.
yos. my mood still down. i dont want to scold anybody due to my fucking mood swing. no-intention-at-all. i tink its gonna rain soon. d omen make me tink so. i'm glad my 3 cousins didnt come to my house today. or else, my whole house will be in a mess. its still spick & span. aite. i'm off. ~toodles.
haruskah ku katakan sesungguhnya
kau telah berubah
aku tak suka
haruskah ku putuskan cinta kita
sejak kau berubah
aku kecewa
kan kuberi semua seisi dunia
untuk jadi milikmu selamanya
ingin ku mengerti isi di hatimu kerana
cinta ini benar adanya
(figure it out)
haruskah ku katakan sesungguhnya
kau telah berubah
aku tak suka
haruskah ku putuskan cinta kita
sejak kau berubah
aku kecewa
kan kuberi semua seisi dunia
untuk jadi milikmu selamanya
ingin ku mengerti isi di hatimu kerana
cinta ini benar adanya
(figure it out)
Thursday, November 03, 2005
no mood!
yos. i got no mood to blog to be frank. but i shall make it short. my grandad was safely buried just now. Alhamdulilah! everything settled soundly. everybody was sobbing like hell. some even wept convulsively. esp my grandma. shes getting weaker after losing her beloved husband. we kissed grandad's forehead fer d last time. his pale, innocent looking features soften us. yar. so after tt, all of us was kinda sullen & we believe that all of us will die 1 day. chill.
d celebration wasnt as nice as b4. i was feeling lethargic all d way. urgh! tt is so pathetic. however, i get some kachingsssss! =) i cried alot today. i'm feeling so down. esp when i whirled back my mind & those memories wit my grandads. *sob sob* remind me of d happy moments. i will miss them. ahhh! i'm gonna cry again. change topic.
i'm feeling so insecure. i dont get it. as usual, i feel something is bothering me which fuck, i cant figure it out. eurgh! i just hate this feelings. turn on & off like nobody business. i noe my attitude sux. i noe tt pretty well. i've been troubling-maker. i'm stoooped. i'm like d starter to start a fire. its disgrace, i noe tt. hes nt been loving me as usual. i miss d old him. hope everytink will b back to normal as usual. my mind is running amok now. i love him so much! non-package to full package. i wont give up easily on tt hard-earned. biggest phenomena.
okie den, i needa call dy. hes waiting. & i needa sleep too. ~toodles.
i miss d OLD him.
d celebration wasnt as nice as b4. i was feeling lethargic all d way. urgh! tt is so pathetic. however, i get some kachingsssss! =) i cried alot today. i'm feeling so down. esp when i whirled back my mind & those memories wit my grandads. *sob sob* remind me of d happy moments. i will miss them. ahhh! i'm gonna cry again. change topic.
i'm feeling so insecure. i dont get it. as usual, i feel something is bothering me which fuck, i cant figure it out. eurgh! i just hate this feelings. turn on & off like nobody business. i noe my attitude sux. i noe tt pretty well. i've been troubling-maker. i'm stoooped. i'm like d starter to start a fire. its disgrace, i noe tt. hes nt been loving me as usual. i miss d old him. hope everytink will b back to normal as usual. my mind is running amok now. i love him so much! non-package to full package. i wont give up easily on tt hard-earned. biggest phenomena.
okie den, i needa call dy. hes waiting. & i needa sleep too. ~toodles.
i miss d OLD him.
i'll miss my grandad!
d happy moment turn out to be d opposite. the day we are waiting fer, shattered into pieces. my grandad (father's side) passed away today at late afternoon. seriously, tt was a god-damn-it news. my family & i was flabbergasted upon hearing d news of my grandfather's death. all of us turned sullen. never did we expect this happen on our big day. furthermore he died on d day b4 hari raya. i cried as soon as Mum cried. pity my grandad as he was unable to celebrate it. 2mrw d first we gotta do early in d mrning is to go to d cemetery where my grandad will be bury. i've lost 2 grandfathers dis year. it play a great impact on me. i'm practically jaded. *sob sob*
went to darls hse wit kiki. it was great indeed. enjoyable infact. thanks kiki fer accompanying me. hmm. d food was nice. keith was there too!! hehes. i'm so contented. he rebond his hair. he look like 1 of d pop singer in Taiwan. hahas. hot-ass papa, big-daddy, jeremiah, kumar, yongie was dere too. jeremiah look so cute! & pravin anna, caught my attention. so good looking. i swear he is. ki told me dy look much more better. hahas. i havta agree wit tt. he insisted me to dance. i wish i could but.... i'm too shy... i'm shy by nature.. ahemm.. ( followng dy steps ). i'm so in love wit pravin anna. err too bad, hes nt gonna b mine. ehhhhhh.. i got dy lar. i love him more!!! hes mine! hehes.
& those mats near d 7 eleven who is just wasting their fucking time freak me. 1 of em ask me fer no. n of cos, to b frank, i told him i'm attach. i felt like screwing it after he said, "nevamind lar if u got bf, just give". shall i speak in tamil, mat? n d stooped me..... said thank u to tt fucker. urgh! so, kina was curious when i utter d word "thank u". aiyo!!!!! i was listless. slip of my tongue~ darn it. LOLs. both of us chuckled upon looking at d guys pathetic look. _shessssshhh!
hmm. i noe tt we r unable to enjoy our Hari Raya as our years before. we r unable to wear our new baju kurung which are most enthusiastic in. hope an angel will come & rekindled our family once again despite d loss. nevamind. god loves my grandad. tts y hes taking his life. hmm sumhow we r gonna enjoy urself 2mrw. i don wanna cry. i'll look so fugly. i noe i gotta b strong.
aite. i got no mood to blog actually. i'm forcing myself to. but watever shit i write here is due to sincerity lar. i'll blog some other day. ~toodles.
tuhan itu maha pengasih
lagi maha penyayang
aku reda dengan segalanya
mungkin
ada hikmah disebaliknya
aku mengerti, tuhan
lebih menyayanginya.
aku berdoa agar roh datukku,
dicucuri rahmat.
AMIN.
went to darls hse wit kiki. it was great indeed. enjoyable infact. thanks kiki fer accompanying me. hmm. d food was nice. keith was there too!! hehes. i'm so contented. he rebond his hair. he look like 1 of d pop singer in Taiwan. hahas. hot-ass papa, big-daddy, jeremiah, kumar, yongie was dere too. jeremiah look so cute! & pravin anna, caught my attention. so good looking. i swear he is. ki told me dy look much more better. hahas. i havta agree wit tt. he insisted me to dance. i wish i could but.... i'm too shy... i'm shy by nature.. ahemm.. ( followng dy steps ). i'm so in love wit pravin anna. err too bad, hes nt gonna b mine. ehhhhhh.. i got dy lar. i love him more!!! hes mine! hehes.
& those mats near d 7 eleven who is just wasting their fucking time freak me. 1 of em ask me fer no. n of cos, to b frank, i told him i'm attach. i felt like screwing it after he said, "nevamind lar if u got bf, just give". shall i speak in tamil, mat? n d stooped me..... said thank u to tt fucker. urgh! so, kina was curious when i utter d word "thank u". aiyo!!!!! i was listless. slip of my tongue~ darn it. LOLs. both of us chuckled upon looking at d guys pathetic look. _shessssshhh!
hmm. i noe tt we r unable to enjoy our Hari Raya as our years before. we r unable to wear our new baju kurung which are most enthusiastic in. hope an angel will come & rekindled our family once again despite d loss. nevamind. god loves my grandad. tts y hes taking his life. hmm sumhow we r gonna enjoy urself 2mrw. i don wanna cry. i'll look so fugly. i noe i gotta b strong.
aite. i got no mood to blog actually. i'm forcing myself to. but watever shit i write here is due to sincerity lar. i'll blog some other day. ~toodles.
tuhan itu maha pengasih
lagi maha penyayang
aku reda dengan segalanya
mungkin
ada hikmah disebaliknya
aku mengerti, tuhan
lebih menyayanginya.
aku berdoa agar roh datukku,
dicucuri rahmat.
AMIN.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
new room.
yos. i was actually studying when a strong breeze slapped me. d feeling was kinda enjoyable. fer dat moment i just wanna stop studying & doze off esp during this chilly effect. but then, i decided not to. i endured d itchy-NESS tt overwhelmed day by day. damn. definitely painful. guess i havta c d doctor regarding my condition which is rather serious.
darls did enjoy himself. i hope hes still aint furious wit this fucking me. i'm going to his house today, ya, today 2nd Nov. but, late afternoon. wit KIKI!!! yeah. i donno wat to wear actually. hmm. formal? informal? i dunno. confuse. urgh. basically i cleaned my room. & OMG! it turn out so beautiful. a really impressive turn over. hahas. SERIOUSLY. mopping, sweeping, decorating. i was damn busy. doing tt. surprisingly, i got d MOOD. i'm a lazy-ARSE. its different den previous. better den b4.
slide on d new white curtain on d wooden pole. simple yet stunning. i like! changed d bed sheet. laid d carpet on d floor. its like, i'm so-into-it attitude simply appeared as soon as i notice my sastisfaction. hahas. tts not ME! hail mum & sis who turn d living room into a god-damn heaven. totally BEAUTIFUL!! d Indonesian concept tt they were trying to present was successful. exactly d same! esp those antiques stuff which at first i called it "rubbish", suit d concept. misjudge it. hahas. weirdos hah. tsk*
today, d last day of fasting. hmm. time really flies. i'm ready fer d BIG DAY! i cant wait to wear my striking baju kurung. psst. its orange kaler. adding attractive accesories. princess-like shoes & handbag. hahas. all in 1, GORGEOUS!! wahahahahahahahahahs. cool stuff make me CRAZIE!
okies dokes. i'll blog again. i'm kinda lazy to type. i'm a bum! hehes. ok. i'll make sure i snapshots during d celebration & as usual, upload it in bloggie. i'll share. i'm not stingy. `toodles.
d, i love you. =D
darls did enjoy himself. i hope hes still aint furious wit this fucking me. i'm going to his house today, ya, today 2nd Nov. but, late afternoon. wit KIKI!!! yeah. i donno wat to wear actually. hmm. formal? informal? i dunno. confuse. urgh. basically i cleaned my room. & OMG! it turn out so beautiful. a really impressive turn over. hahas. SERIOUSLY. mopping, sweeping, decorating. i was damn busy. doing tt. surprisingly, i got d MOOD. i'm a lazy-ARSE. its different den previous. better den b4.
slide on d new white curtain on d wooden pole. simple yet stunning. i like! changed d bed sheet. laid d carpet on d floor. its like, i'm so-into-it attitude simply appeared as soon as i notice my sastisfaction. hahas. tts not ME! hail mum & sis who turn d living room into a god-damn heaven. totally BEAUTIFUL!! d Indonesian concept tt they were trying to present was successful. exactly d same! esp those antiques stuff which at first i called it "rubbish", suit d concept. misjudge it. hahas. weirdos hah. tsk*
today, d last day of fasting. hmm. time really flies. i'm ready fer d BIG DAY! i cant wait to wear my striking baju kurung. psst. its orange kaler. adding attractive accesories. princess-like shoes & handbag. hahas. all in 1, GORGEOUS!! wahahahahahahahahahs. cool stuff make me CRAZIE!
okies dokes. i'll blog again. i'm kinda lazy to type. i'm a bum! hehes. ok. i'll make sure i snapshots during d celebration & as usual, upload it in bloggie. i'll share. i'm not stingy. `toodles.
d, i love you. =D
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
wee!
yos. everything was smoothly under control. make a deal wit dy. i swear, it wont repeat again. now i can smile gracefully. =D yeah. *heaved a sigh of relief* phewwww~ no more tears. much more better. duh. i love him alot. he's mine! =X hehes. we will last.
looks like i can sleep peacefully. i needa rest. i wanna curled up. needa start my day fresh & steady. as usual, study, study, study. & oso clean my distorted room. idiotique kuzzie mess it up every single day. bastard! aite. i'm getting restless. shall blog again soon. `toodles.
ta's.
bonnie&clyde grooves.
happy deeparaya.
looks like i can sleep peacefully. i needa rest. i wanna curled up. needa start my day fresh & steady. as usual, study, study, study. & oso clean my distorted room. idiotique kuzzie mess it up every single day. bastard! aite. i'm getting restless. shall blog again soon. `toodles.
ta's.
bonnie&clyde grooves.
happy deeparaya.
bad gf!
i was caught red-handed by him. certainly by D. darn it. i'm sucha DUMB-ASS!! i agreed i'm a bad gf. he's furious. hes pissed off. i noe tt very well. even if hes gonna move away frem me, i'm nt suprise. its all my fault! i deserve any punishment. i havta face d music. i ruin & spoil everything. how cruel can i be??!! if he tink i'm a bitch, i deserve d title.
i shuld spare a thought fer him. at least. i scolded my sis just now, fer no reason. i'm sorry sis! i loitered around d void deck, nowhere to run & go. i felt remorseful. shuts fida! ive been weeping since just now. such a waste dumbass! ur crying over a spill milk fida??? u cant turn back, fuck. i tried to stop my tears frem oozing down profusely, but i just cant. i felt so weak. i felt fucking useless, fucking guilty. darn it. i'm so bad. i noe its futile to explain & apologise to him. haiz. hes hurt. i felt so useless. infact i am.
thanks to kiki & lei who cheer me up n console me. i deserve it gf!
i dont expect him to trust me like he use tp. i dont expect him to love me like he always do. but i hope he will forgive me for my wrongdoings. shame on me! i shall stop my nonsensical fucking habit. yes!! i have to. i love him alot. i don wanna hurt him animore. but i need his support & help, but to no avail. wat can i say? i shall leave him alone. if he thought of leaving me, im physically & mentally prepare. haiz. i don wan history to repeat itself. i wanna start anew. i SWEAR.
thanks darls. i'm really really sorry. (take it or leave it)
HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY, darls baby.
(thanks to me. a fucker who spoil d day!)
ps: HAPPY 2ND MTH ANNIVERSARY to lei & cko
lastly, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!
~toodles.
i shuld spare a thought fer him. at least. i scolded my sis just now, fer no reason. i'm sorry sis! i loitered around d void deck, nowhere to run & go. i felt remorseful. shuts fida! ive been weeping since just now. such a waste dumbass! ur crying over a spill milk fida??? u cant turn back, fuck. i tried to stop my tears frem oozing down profusely, but i just cant. i felt so weak. i felt fucking useless, fucking guilty. darn it. i'm so bad. i noe its futile to explain & apologise to him. haiz. hes hurt. i felt so useless. infact i am.
thanks to kiki & lei who cheer me up n console me. i deserve it gf!
i dont expect him to trust me like he use tp. i dont expect him to love me like he always do. but i hope he will forgive me for my wrongdoings. shame on me! i shall stop my nonsensical fucking habit. yes!! i have to. i love him alot. i don wanna hurt him animore. but i need his support & help, but to no avail. wat can i say? i shall leave him alone. if he thought of leaving me, im physically & mentally prepare. haiz. i don wan history to repeat itself. i wanna start anew. i SWEAR.
thanks darls. i'm really really sorry. (take it or leave it)
HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY, darls baby.
(thanks to me. a fucker who spoil d day!)
ps: HAPPY 2ND MTH ANNIVERSARY to lei & cko
lastly, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!
~toodles.
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